Hey, Jim! It's an interesting question... I tend to see Brown as a saturated version of Magenta, the color of the Forestress (or Pisces), whose shadow-side is the victim: the confused and betrayed one, who matures through forgiveness and temperance into the networker and communal support-group member. One might then see Green meeting Brown as a Caregiver (or Priest) helping the Victim mature into networking and communion... What about you; how do you see Brown, and how do you see Green meeting Brown?
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "whynotnow7" <whynotnow7@...> wrote: > > Ro-ri! You speak about the green caregiver. What can you say about the color > brown and its associations? I am putting a song together and decided to call > it Green Meets Brown, without really knowing "what that means", and I am > curious since you have already spoken about green and red in ways that make > effortless sense to me, I am curious about your take on brown. Oh, and this > is as one pseudo spacetime particle to another, over and out. > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "RoryGoff" <rorygoff@> wrote: > > > > Dear Robin, > > > > What a beautiful letter from a beautiful soul; the clarity and integrity of > > your love feels as sweet and gently pervasive as ever -- moreso even. I > > never dreamed you would someday read my account of our interaction; what an > > odd feeling of self-recognition that is! And the occult complexities were > > just for fun, a work of art, an attempted self-portrait, its details (I > > hope) easily ignorable if they don't resonate. I was also at the time still > > working things out, trying to fine-tune a hypothesis which accounted for > > all the raw data. Things have simplfied considerably since then. > > > > I feel I do understand your need to integrate or account for all of us who > > interact with you. FWIW, sometime within the first few years of my posting > > here, Tom Pall expressed a fervent desire that Homeland Security would take > > me away and shoot me (and please correct me if I am misrepresenting you > > here, Tom), I suspect because I had just described my strong feeling that > > 9/11 was an inside job. But the effect of his posting was beautiful. I felt > > gut-punched, eviscerated, and actually did refrain from posting for a few > > days while I integrated "his" anger and wish that I would die -- in fact, > > "I" died yet again, internally, for those three days. > > > > And the result was that I found I had been repressing or ignoring my > > "Tom-persona" while identifying with a "compassionate persona" which > > appeared to be anti-Tom. (In my parlance, I had been ignoring my Red Man or > > Warrior while overemphasizing my Green Man or Compassionate Caregiver. The > > shadow-side or "demonic" of our Red Man is thwarted desire, fury, bullying > > and even indiscriminate killing, which when reintegrated ripens into zeal > > and a sense of divine timing or chronological order). In reintegrating my > > idea of Tom I found my unconditional love for him-Us again, and we have > > gotten along OK since then. (In my world, at least.) :-) Of course this may > > be of no value to you and have nothing whatsoever to do with you or your > > world, but who knows? I thought I would share it anyhow. > > > > > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, maskedzebra <no_reply@> wrote: > > > Dear Rory, > > > > > > Thank you very much for this. There is more of a loving intelligence that > > > comes through your writing (and that description of your encounter with > > > me back in 1982, well, it's so fair and objective and generous, I have > > > always appreciated how you attempted to get at the truth (or the reality) > > > of what was going on between us then). > > > > > > When someone responds positively to one, and there is real feeling there, > > > it seems as if the universe itself is being friendly. In what you have > > > said here, there is nothing but a true person speaking unaffectedlyyour > > > sincerity gets through to me. > > > > > > The question remains, however, whether Tom Pall's judgment of me is > > > equally sincere, not to say objectively true. I can't doubt his > > > sincerity, but, if I felt what he said reflected reality's judgment of > > > me, I certainly would have no choice but to leave off posting here. > > > > > > So, naturally, I am going to let myself be influenced more by what you > > > have said to me, Rory. If, however Tom's feelings have some real > > > justification, then I will have to hear him out. Meanwhile, it would be > > > hard for me not to experience that what you have told me hereand the > > > love that carries your wordsto be more congruent with the person that I > > > am. > > > > > > I must suppose that my antipathy towards and disillusionment with my > > > Master is perhaps part of the explanation for Tom's reaction? Yes, the > > > Romance of my relationship with Maharishi was, so far, the greatest event > > > of my life. At its height, had I been told that Maharishi was not what he > > > seemed, nor that my experience of TM was metaphysically valid, I would > > > have felt pity for the person who told me this. > > > > > > But having renounced Maharishi, his Teaching, and TM in the comprehensive > > > way I have, I can understand Tom Pall's aversion to me and my posts > > > (assuming he is still loyal to Maharishi). If I, in the intensity of my > > > love and adoration of Maharishi had read anything like what I am now > > > posting, well not responding like Tom is, I would nevertheless be > > > determined to counter-attack in the fiercest and most uncompromising way. > > > The critic of Maharishi and TM would get my very best shot. It would, > > > after all, be my religious duty to respond this wayand I would believe I > > > was only defending ultimate truth in doing so. > > > > > > But perhaps in Tom's case it's more than this, or something other than > > > this. > > > > > > Meanwhile I can believe that your more loving intention is the > > > appropriate one, and that Tom is fighting a rearguard action on behalf of > > > Maharishi and the TMOof course I don't know this. I don't know anything > > > about Tom Pall. But before reading what you wrote to me, Rory, I had very > > > seriously contemplated not posting again until the 9th of Julyat the > > > earliest. Just to let Tom's judgment have some effect. > > > > > > But you have persuaded me (love is like that, isn't it) to abandon this > > > tentative plan, and so I remain open to posting, even though I must > > > respect the experience of Tom's which gives him no alternative but to > > > express his intense disapproval of me. > > > > > > Who knows, perhaps God deems his judgment the more appropriate onein > > > comparison to yours. But I am praying this is not the case. > > > > > > If I may say it, in beginning to read your autobiography online I sense > > > the virtual symphony of feelings, intuitions, visions, inspirations which > > > musically and mystically play inside your consciousness. It is a little > > > much for me to follow you in all this, especially when it starts to get > > > complexly occult and mysterious. But your motives are transparent and > > > authentic, so I must believe you have acquired some grace and wisdom in > > > your intricate interface with religious truth. And I never sense someone > > > dogmatic or deceived, or disconnected from realityno matter how esoteric > > > your ideas are. I will persist in my attempt to read through to the end, > > > although, as I say, it is much easier (for me) in the beginningfor > > > example your account of the India course in 1980. That riveted me. In > > > fact ANYONE'S careful reflections on their experiences with Maharishi are > > > always of extreme interest to me. > > > > > > Rory, I didn't set out to write at such length as I have. Perhaps I just > > > started to realize subconsciously that I somehow owed you the gratitude > > > of your unbiased reporting of your experience with me, when I was > > > performing out of the experience of my putative enlightenment (which has > > > a place in your autobiography). > > > > > > In any case I will just express my thanks once more for the support you > > > have given me by writing as you have. Because, believe me, Rory, it > > > produced the desired effect. > > > > > > MZ > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
