--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > So, enough of this for now and the future, if it's fruitful for one person, > it's worth it. If not, forgive my indulgence. >
Fruitful, fruitful! You continue to be a huge addition to the content here Mark. Your exchange with Robin on your experiences with Maharishi were fascinating. I was surprised to learn that Bevan wasn't a skin boy. I thought that was one of his claims to fame when he was first with Maharishi in India. The mega intense world at Maharishi's door is so worthy of a book, many books for each person who wants to tell this story. One of the most fascinating books I have read was by Mao's personal physician. You get an insight into his character you get nowhere else. Same for you guys in the hot seat carrying the hot seat. Any details you sprinkle here will fall on many delighted ears. I enjoy your divine experiences as much as any insights into the more human side of Maharishi. > > Ah, yes, first the easy way out. Thank you, Ravi, for your well wishes on > the sandals, but let's go into epistemology. And, of course, Robin does so > eloquently in a subsequent response, which beautifully exemplifies the not so > easy way out and will not be as easy for me to reply to. > > It's all Mark. None of it could be MMY. Mark must be an imbecile not to see > this. (Should I even reply to this email? Let's see if it might be > fruitful...) > > In order to make it fruitful, I guess I have to bring up spiritual maturity > again, previously alluded to as "developed being." > > I believe in discernment. I believe that, with true, sincere discernment, > one can more and more approach an objective appreciation of the truth. And I > know, quite directly, that using real discernment to winnow judgement and > projection from reality ain't easy. I also believe in what Robin called > (will call) meta-psychological effect, the profound resonance and > repercussions that can ensue when our highly developed inner truth meter, if > we have the spiritual maturity to have developed one, encounters a deeper > truth than we have yet allowed ourselves to assimilate. > > So, just as an example, if I say "M slept with women and got sexually > frustrated when he couldn't get any," what kind of statement is this? Is it > purely my projection? Is it a moral judgement? Is it objective? Is it > subjective? Is it true? Is it false? Is it cavil? Will I be reborn a > donkey for saying it? > > Only discernment can cut through it all if one really wants the truth. Of > course it's not necessary to really want the truth. I believe that most > people don't. > > Why did so many skin boys get disillusioned? Because, as Robin says, the > images that forced themselves upon us forced us to revise our estimation of > the man. Bevan never really became skin boy. He always wanted to, but was > "spared" that. Most of the skin boys got close enough to the man to see his > underbelly. And it wasn't as pretty as we all thought it was. > > So, yes, my statement above is either true or false. I leave that for each > to decide for yourselves. Is it purely my projection? I, obviously, don't > believe so. For me, there is such overwhelming evidence, that, as I said, I > believe it simply to be true. Is it moral judgement? This gets trickier. > Can I make the above statement with no moral judgement? I believe that would > be the sign of true spiritual maturity. Have I attained that? Let's say I'm > still working on it. Is it subjective, objective? For me, both. Is it > cavil? I would say that depends on one's real motivation, and who can know > another's? I came to the decision, long ago, that, in the case of MMY, it > really would be liberating for many people to know God's simple truth, the > actual reality of what occurred. Cavil would come from hurt, smallness, > venality, self-loathing, etc., etc., etc. Can I say that I have eliminated > all elements of cavil from everything I say about him? Let's say that's > something else I'm still working on. Will I be reborn a donkey for saying > it? Perhaps, I had an experience with M about just that at the San Diego > Zoo. Maybe I'll get to recount that sometime. But, for me, the truth became > more important than my next life. If that's what's meant to be, so be it. > We all must take the consequences of everything we do, no? > > So, enough of this for now and the future, if it's fruitful for one person, > it's worth it. If not, forgive my indulgence. > > m > > On Jul 21, 2011, at 1:32 AM, Ravi Yogi wrote: > > > As much as I would love to see Mark getting the max $ for M's sandals, I > > would certainly have to agree with Ted. > > > > > > Mark seems pretty one-dimensional. > > > > With my limited experiences I can just can't comprehend the things Mark > > says about M unless he was acting out against M when his ego was hurt or he > > is just so plain stupid that he doesn't understand basic spiritual > > principles. > > > > Reveling in paradoxes *doesn't * mean moral judgement of others. Reveling > > in paradoxes is a highly internal experience, the paradoxes of love and > > hate and all the other conflicting emotions seen as a pure witness. > > > > Compare Mark's moral judgement of Judith as "wonderful, honest person" and > > then M as conflicting, bewildering array of emotions. With my limited Unity > > experiences I just can't see how I will ever be sexually frustrated, I was > > before not anymore. Sure I would love to have a partner, to have sex but I > > have been single since last year and I am not old, like the old farts here > > on FFL, there are sexual thoughts similar to other thoughts but there's no > > pain, suffering, frustration. Similarly I can't see a man like M not acting > > decently with people for money. > > > > Mark can't seem to realize that the conflicting, bewildering emotions were > > all his. The positive energy was *his*, the negative energy was *his* as > > well. > > > > A Satguru is a pure mirror and just reflects, reflects so completely, > > thoroughly enough for us to peek into ourselves, to see the paradoxes in > > *ourselves*, to see the contradictions in *ourselves*, to heal them, > > acknowledge them, in ourselves and be a pure witness to them. > > > > So Mark, hope you get the highest bidder for M's sandals, as they surely > > deserve, however don't expect me to buy this multi-dimensional crap. > > > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, tedadams108 <no_reply@> wrote: > > > > > > > > > My intent was not to discuss a paradox, rather a contradiction. Perhaps > > > much of the interview was removed in post production which skewed the > > > impression that was given. And I guess people continue to find a way to > > > meditate despite believing the paradox. I appreciate Mark's honesty even > > > though I disagree with his need to be in a film. What is the motivation > > > to point out the bad. Was the ego hurt that bad as to make it difficult > > > to quietly enjoy what appeared to be very good experiences with > > > Maharishi? Apparently for Mark the bad in the paradox outweighed the > > > good, otherwise it would be harder to give up sandals. I have a book that > > > Maharishi wrote in for me that would be very difficult to sell. Perhaps > > > if I was more absorbed in the paradox it would be easier, but because my > > > ego is not intertwined in it, to give > > > it up for some money would be very difficult. Having said that, a person > > > has to do what they have to do. If Mark needs money that bad, and selling > > > sandals is a way to pay off some debts, so be it. Pointing out a paradox, > > > of good and bad, does not negate the effect of speaking out the bad. At > > > least in his response Mark is more forthcoming. Now the eventual buyer of > > > the sandals can know more about how the seller feels about Maharishi and > > > decide whether to let that influence his/her decision. I see a catch 22 > > > here, the eventual buyer likely will not accept the paradox. As such, the > > > likely market for the sandals, at least for a significant amount of > > > money, are the very people who are going to be turned off by the > > > revelation by Mark of the paradox. They unlikely will want to financially > > > support someone with such a view and will "boycott" the purchase. > > > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > > > > > > > > Wow, are we one dimensional? I believe it's the sign of a developed > > > > being that he or she can easily hold all the paradoxes. Not only can I > > > > have it both ways, but I must have it both ways and, beyond that, have > > > > it all ways that were, are or ever will be, if I am to do any justice > > > > to truth and reality. That's a lot of ways. I also believe that, > > > > ultimately, we must go beyond all the paradoxes and polarities, > > > > including the polarity of good and bad (and that, of course, doesn't > > > > mean that we rush out to do all the "bad" things we possibly can ASAP). > > > > > > > > The truth of the matter, if anyone cares, is that, like Judith Bourke, > > > > who I find to be a wonderful, honest person, I was in love with him > > > > (no, prurient ones, not that way, though there are things I could say > > > > about that, too) and the notion and seeming experience that TM could > > > > transform the world for the better. Why else would I work seven days a > > > > week for the movement for nearly five years and pay significantly to do > > > > so? Are we not all some blend of the three gunas? Aren't there glorious > > > > and dark things about all of us? > > > > > > > > M was no different. One of the most glorious things about him was his > > > > energy. I lived and basked in it pretty much straight for the seven > > > > months I was skin boy and for a lot of the five years I was with him. I > > > > went through withdrawal for two years when I lost it. > > > > > > > > That's my voice in the background of DWTF when David cut to the > > > > archival footage of M entering the hall with Jerry carrying the skin > > > > saying something like, "It was like divine air came down from heaven > > > > and I got addicted to it." Is that so very negative? > > > > > > > > In one other sentence I said something like, "Remember how I said he > > > > could get into you and help you sleep? He could also get into you and > > > > completely pulverize you." Is that both "negative" and "positive"? Of > > > > course, one-dimensional believers would say having M pulverize you > > > > would be the greatest blessing. It could only be all positive. But what > > > > if he did it because he was pissed, out of sorts or sexually > > > > frustrated? Yes, IME, he definitely got sexually frustrated. In my > > > > total reworking of his own words, the only man in all of recored > > > > history that anyone knew about who lived beyond the libido was Sukadeva. > > > > > > > > I also said in the movie, "It took me a while to put the paradox > > > > together. How could he be wonderful and awful at the same time? Well, > > > > that's just how it was. He was wonderful and awful at the same time." > > > > David filmed me for over two hours and he used the several minutes that > > > > suited his purpose in segueing from the more positive part of the film > > > > to the more negative. > > > > > > > > So I feel no conflict or contradiction in saying "In my experience, > > > > they still carry a lot of his energy, as if the atoms and molecules > > > > have been entrained in it. And, of course, in India, they would be holy > > > > objects to be revered. I have kept them very well protected and have > > > > handled them very little over the decades." and > > > > > > > > M abused women, devastated people right and left and was more concerned > > > > with money than with treating people decently. > > > > > > > > They're all simply true. And so were all the other totally glorious > > > > aspects of that intense, complex man. > > > > > > > > Was anyone else in the movie theater that night in Fiuggi, or wherever > > > > it was, when M's darshan got so strong that it made all the little, > > > > hanging crystals dance extravagantly and tinkle together as if there > > > > were a small tornado blowing through the hall? And probably only I saw > > > > this, but when M first got to Murren, the three mountain devas came to > > > > greet him. IME, which of course many of you would completely howl at, > > > > they had been waiting for someone for centuries and thought, because of > > > > his light, that it might be M. M went completely silent and looked up > > > > at them for several moments while they communed. He wasn't who they > > > > were waiting for, they left and the lecture went on. And you should > > > > have seen the angel stations that congregated in the intersections of > > > > the pathways between the puja tables in the halls where M made > > > > teachers. That's why he didn't like people walking around then. I had > > > > to bust right through one of them to get to him to tell him something > > > > urgent while he was giving out the mantras. The five or six angels in > > > > that one station took off in all directions like they had been stung. > > > > (There, three little stories...) > > > > > > > > For me, the truth holds a higher priority than rules about the truth or > > > > any rules that are more about control than the highest good. Perhaps I > > > > am wrong about that. Do my circumstances prove that, one way or > > > > another? I think not. In the actual words of the man himself, "Karma is > > > > unfathomable." I do love some of his sound bites. Another one that > > > > would be appropriate here is "There are no absolutes in the relative." > > > > > > > > You're only confused because you're thinking one-dimensionally. When > > > > you move beyond that, try watching my interview in the film again. You > > > > may, or may not, see it slightly differently. > > > > > > > > Thank you for eliciting this, > > > > > > > > m > > > > > > > > On Jul 20, 2011, at 7:28 AM, tedadams108 wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > > > I'm a little confused. Is this the same Mark Landau who spoke such > > > > > unkind words about Maharishi in the film "David Wants To Fly."? When > > > > > attempting to sell Maharishi's sandals there are no unkind words > > > > > spoken, only glorifying words, probably as an attempt to increase the > > > > > marketability of the sandals. > > > > > I have compassion for Mark that he is having financial > > > > > challenges in this economy, like so many others. Apparently his > > > > > involvement with Maharishi did not result in financial well being > > > > > as it did for so many others (John Gray, Barbara DeAngeles, Deepak > > > > > Chopra, etc., and the many wealthy meditators living in Fairfield and > > > > > around the world. Maybe it's more difficult to get Nature Support > > > > > when one cavils about the Master. I'm sure someone would > > > > > appreciate having the sandals and would be willing to pay something > > > > > for them. My guess is that the only value to Mark would be for > > > > > firewood. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
