On Jul 30, 2011, at 3:20 PM, RoryGoff wrote: > ---- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > > > > Yes, I've been telling people variations of this for over forty years, but > > haven't made much headway with it myself, though, since my advent to FFL, a > > tremendous amount has occurred within me. > > * * Yes! FFL has been a *great* way to meet and integrate some of our > more-ignored particles :-) > > >My isolation grew over the decades till it became almost complete. I started > >to pour unconditional love into my own suffering points and seemed to have > >some success with it for a short period of time some time ago, but was > >unable to sustain it. > > * * Yes! I find that more particles will *always* arise and present > themselves to us to have their needs met. Our bodymind has an amazing wisdom > in presenting these to us in the perfect order. > quite (but I would say our bodymind, God and the universe). IME we do this for the collective as well as for ourselves (all this from the particle POV, of course)
> Along the way, some of them -- and some of them truly horrific -- have hung > me up for years before I realized they too were simply particles presenting > me with old beliefs. I find the trick is to keep on listening to whatever > comes up in response to our Love, but to *not believe it* or we fall back > completely into identifying with whatever program is running. > yes, i got caught in this recently and it cost me my job (though I'm sure there were higher reasons, as well, and that I've been benefitting from those since it happened) > In other words, we always start out in Ignorance, fully identified with a > given particle, believing the program, and then by remembering it's only a > story being run somewhere in our body we break our identification with it, > becoming its Witness and putting the particle in C.C. And then we can bend > our unconditional loving attention on it as its God, asking it what it needs > and giving it that. This moves the particle into G.C., and then into Unity > with us as it aligns itself more and more with our love. And then the next > particle arises, and the fun begins all over again! And so we are forced to > recall again and again that we are not limited, and we can give our particles > literally anything they need. > yes, this is consonant with my experience except that I buy into my "limitations" and don't usually believe I can literally give the woundedness everything it needs. In the DNA Activation I did with others, pure healing devas would come in with healing light and energy from the highest dimension and do what neither I nor the client/group could do for ourselves. But I guess you would equate these with our good inner children and, of course, if we are beyond identifying with any story or particle POV, then it's all Us, we are the Totality/Reality/No-Thing. > Here's a recent example: A fellow in his sixties came and said he had spent > the last 40 years beating himself up for letting the girl of his dreams get > away when he was a young man. I asked him where in his body he felt the > suffering, and he pointed to his heart. I asked him if he could imagine that > tension-spot as a being, and tell it he loved it and would give it whatever > it needed. It responded that it needed the girl of its dreams. He then gave > it the girl of its dreams, and it started to feel better. > > But then it responded with, "I will believe it when I see her physically walk > through the door." So I suggested he give it the girl of his dreams, > physically walking through the door. He did, and it felt better. > > Then it responded, "but I have wasted so many years until now!" So I > suggested that it wasn't fair to second-guess its actions with 20/20 > hindsight; it had always done the best it could in any moment. I suggested he > tell it, "You have always acted perfectly, in perfect right action, and you > always will, no matter what you may think. I give you infinitely perfect > right action, now and always, and I give you infinite youth and immortality, > and infinite time to fulfill all your desires." As he told his particle this, > he lightened up and laughed, his energy flowed, his face began to shine like > the sun, and he looked like an angelic 20-year-old. > I was crying bitterly (even tortuously) in the shower once about everything I had done "wrong" and the voice of God came through saying "You have done everything perfectly. Everything you have done has been right." Infinite youth, huh, I could use a little bit of that right now. I have felt like an old man since I've been a toddler (not always, of course, but most of the time). > So my point is, more old "yeah-but" programs or devatas will always come up, > and they always provide an opportunity for more realignment, more growth, and > more enlightenment -- if we remember that we are no-thing, and being > no-thing, we can give them absolutely anything. > I tried this in my morning meditation. It seemed to work pretty well. I've always wanted to be a beacon of universal love, to radiate that out in all directions everywhere I might go all the time. But I've pretty much lived the opposite, as far as I can tell. Maybe I'll begin moving more towards the former. > >And, certainly, my life has/had a lot of the being/"feeling "ugly", > >rejected, unloved and alienated" in it. To some degree, I have followed the > >way of the pariah or chod, though I didn't have any group with which to > >practice it. > > * * Yes, I always practiced it alone, but always found it reflecting into my > world... > > >(I didn't know what this was till I googled it. I particularly liked the > >part about "To consider adversity as a friend is the instruction of Chöd" I > >found in Wikipedia. I have self-created a lot of adversity in my life.) > > > > But it's not "oddly-enough," it's the very mechanics of creation, the long > > road built into the Satguru. > > > > But, from the particle POV, I have no question that one particle can invade > > another and dwell in that host for part of one or for many lifetimes and > > that higher-or-other-dimensional beings can come to and, from within, drive > > a particle's knowing and behavior (ala RC). > > * * Absolutely, from the pre-programmed particle POV it can be a big, scary > world out there, full of judgment, limitation, pain and suffering. > > > That "lighten up" into enlightenment and ecstatic union with us -- > > something we all can enjoy :-) sure sounds fine and, of course, I have > > experienced this and have helped many others heal in this way, far, far > > more than I have been able to help myself (I've facilitated a lot of > > healing techniques, including hands on and hands off energy and body work, > > rebirthing, shamanic journey and soul retrieval, inner child work, DNA > > Activation and my own offshoot of that I called Sacred Spirit Healing). > > When I worked with others, I used to see inner children heal and become > > liberated to expand, mature and (re)unite with the adult's energy bodies. > > I stopped working with almost everyone around 2004 because I was becoming a > > kind of teacher and I couldn't reconcile that with what a mess I was inside. > > * * Yes, I can relate -- the "wounded healer" archetype of Chiron. Of course, > from one point of view, if you are healing others, you are healing yourself, > and vice versa. On the other hand, it's always good to keep on doing our own > homework inside, or we will probably burn out for a while. Not that there's > anything wrong with that, of course. > > And again, I have definitely found that all of these triggerings are simply > more particles coming up to be blessed, presenting us with old beliefs which > almost certainly will snag us at first... :-) > > *L*L*L* > >
