Brilliant post, Emily, and absolutely *compassionate.* It's certainly not from lack of trying that Share doesn't value the insights you've attempted to give her concerning the dynamics of how and why she's gotten herself into such a pickle with so many people on FFLife. It's sad to watch.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "emilymae.reyn" <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote: > > Dear Sharester, I'm having trouble letting go. But, I promise I will after > this post. *Really.* I will demonstrate the letting go action to you - it's > good practice for me. Before I go for now, I will say that I hope you print > out and show the last two posts re: wts that you wrote and I responded to, > that you never got back to me on, to your pastoral counselor. If she tells > you that "yes, you are right, you have maintained your integrity through the > whole conversation and these people challenging you are just bullies and mean > and unfairly abusive," you will know for sure that you are paying her for > nothing. > > First of all, you didn't even give me the time of day to respond, and I put a > lot of energy and effort into those posts to you - recognizing you as a human > being. > > Second, you might think about, in the privacy of your own prayer routine, > thanking Ann, raunchy, Judy, Ravi, Robin, Ravi and I for processing all of > your negative emotions over the last 6 months for you. For my part, I did > this out of love and concern for you Share (yes, that irritating universal > love of you as another human being.) > > This tactic of yours - launching passive attacks and then running away and > asking those you launched spears at to do your dirty work is a good one, > isn't it? Then, you feel better and can skip off to the Dome, presenting > nothing to those you meet on the yellow brick road, but generosity, openness, > and love. I bet you act as a source of knowledge to others', don't you. > > I bet you include a lot of information to them on food and supplements they > should be taking. You outed yourself by mistake when you said you had had > food issues all your life. Are you aware of what that means and how having > issues with this most basic function in life (eating) can through time fully > affect the construct of your thought process, and forever-more create a need > to subconsciously protect yourself so you never have to deal with it and the > self-preservation issues that come with it? I am sorry you've had to deal > with this. It's a survival issue, I know. I don't have it, but in the past, > I have been intimately involved with someone who has. Comes with endless > denial, I'm aware. > > The years of dedication to healing; the living in a healing community; the > collection of people and healers and philosophies support the construct of > denial you have built. You never have to get truly real Share or speak for > yourself - you have learned the healing language and just have to invoke > experts on your behalf over and over again. You can hide forever and act > like an innocent victim, whenever anyone asks to be validated for their own > individual thought process that disagrees with yours - because you are right, > because you have done nothing to apologize or make amends for, because there > is something wrong with them and they need to experience "complete healing." > > I am sorry that you have had to go the this kind of extreme in your life to > self-preserve. It is a testament of our instinct, as humans, to survive. I > am sorry that, in all cases, you twist reality to fit your own worldview and > summarily dismiss and attack anyone and everything that won't conform to your > way of thinking. Too threatening isn't it. You are missing out on so much > Share, but it's beyond me at this point to try and convince you of this. I > do believe you are fully entrenched in your vision of yourself and your own > rock solid storyline - and you have built an enormous safety net of people > who see only what you show them - the bliss bubble of the positive > characteristics you want to be known for. It's sad to watch. > > You placing me in a cult, because you were too afraid to be honest and real, > is predictable; as was your refusal to address it. Easier to just forever > claim you were "right" and relentlessly impose your reality on FFL with no > interest in supporting or discussing it. Another example is continuing to > invoke the term "wishing complete healing" on people and FFL at large without > ever clearly examining what that means - how dare anyone challenge you on > this meaningless term. Right? Also, on ousting Judy, Ann, and raunchy from > your readers' list and I'm guessing me, after this post, if you have the guts > to read it. So many other examples Share of your refusing to actually > interact with anyone who has tried, unless you are sure you can control the > outcome. > > But, you keep reading Barry, although he was a bit hard on you today, don't > you think? Just return to the innocent little girl stance and use a "poo" > extension for him....he did take a large poo today on you didn't he? > > Just throw us all away Share and keep putting us all down - we challenged you > on your reality and you are so shame-based deep down, that it is simply > unacceptable. You must retain your vision of yourself at all costs, right? > I am sorry you are so shame-based. Of course it isn't your fault - you > didn't deserve whatever created this within, but you are responsible for what > you say and do and how you behave now. The only solution, as I said before, > is rigorous honesty. You don't need to exercise that here, but don't forget > that I know what I am talking about in this regard. > > Stop caring about what the other posters think about you. I've given up on > worrying about that myself. It's kind of freeing. I'd be mad at Judy too, > if I were you Share, just fyi. My ego would be upset. But, I would still > try to pay attention to what she was saying. She doesn't run away Share - > she puts herself out there consistently and without regard to the attacks she > might get in return. > > This is my final thought. I am going to let you go Share, in love and with > compassion. But, I will not forget the way that you treated me in FFL-land. > However, I will "leave the door open" for you anytime you feel like > addressing me in any way you want. Keep smiling and throwing darts and > launching spiked spears for as long as it's working for you, even if it's > your whole life. You have another one coming, right? Emily. > > >
