Thanks, Cherie. I am here. Fern actually died Sunday night, about six hours
after Pepsi. I was in NJ with Pepsi and Gray was in MA with Fern, and he
did not tell me until Monday morning because he thought I could not handle it so
soon after Pepsi's death. So I came back to MA and buried her with
him. We are pretty numb and exhausted.
Ginger is still at my mom's in NJ. I brought her down there with me when I
went to be with Pepsi, because she had a fever and I did not feel ok about
leaving her here with anyone else taking care of her, and she immediately
started doing better at my mom's. She has been eating a ton, with just one
periactin every other day. Knock on wood. So I left her there with my mom,
because we are moving to NJ in a little over a month and this way she does not
have to do two more 5 hour car rides. My mom is also very skilled at medicating,
giving fluids, etc. so if Ginger needs it she can do it. My mom was very close
to Pepsi, so I think having Ginger there to fuss over is actually good for her,
and for Ginger, right now.
Gray and I are actually both going to a yoga retreat center for two nights
this weekend. It is really hard to be in the house right now, as Fern was the
last of our three dogs, who we have had for the past 10 years, which is most of
our relationship. We want to get out of the house, but feel we need
something with some structure since we feel pretty lost and figure we won't
actually do anything otherwise, so we are going to a yoga place in the
berkshires where I have gone on my own a few times and really like it there. We
are trying to survive. To tell the truth, we are both functioning better
than we thought we would, and better than we have in the past when we have lost
loved ones, even though we lost two in one day after very difficult days of them
being in bad shape. We are not sure if we are just numb from being overwhelmed,
or if it has to do with how badly both of them were doing for days
beforehand. With Pepsi, I am not sure I have viscerally accepted she is
gone. I stayed with her while she was tranquilized, until she was really
out of it, but left before they gave her the euthanasia shot because with horses
it makes them fall over sideways and hit the ground really hard and is extremely
horrible. I also did not look at her body afterwards. I went back to my parents'
before they buried her, having last seen her standing, and then back to
MA. Since I was not seeing her every day and did not see her die, I am
afraid that inside I am not really convinced she is gone yet. So I am not
sure this has hit full force yet.
But thank you for worrying about me. I am just too tired to read or respond
to posts and have just been erasing most of them the few times i have gotten on
email.
Michelle
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