Oh Steph,
I hadn't been following this thread, I'm so sorry for all your
heartache. This certainly is a bad month for you. Ours seems to be
Feb. We're always losing someone, or having some catastrophic thing
happen around that month. Take a deep breath, give yourself permission
to be weepy, indulge yourself in any way you can. Know that you are
cared about and make sure you do something nice/positive for yourself.
I'm sending you hugs and support to gain the strength you need to see
you through. One thing about life, it never stays the same, things are
always changing. When things are dark, I close my eyes and hold on
until the light shines again. Surprisingly, it always does. Hold on girl!
Nina
Steph E Caldwell wrote:
wendy wrote:
OMG Steph! What a horrible thing for your aunt to do?
Has she lost her marbles? Is she always that way, or
was it her reacting to her mother's death? People do
strange things when they are in emotional distress.
No she was always a heartless you-know-what. She told my grandmother
to her face that country club people shouldn't mix with mill hill
people (mill hills in the south are houses the textile mills built for
their employs, my grandparents both worked in mills and we still own
the mill house they bought... and we still live there!), that was her
excuse for not including her mother in their thanksgiving plans that
year.
I'm totally thrilled to be an only child... my dad's side isn't very
nice, I look at the other three girls and wonder where he acme from
'cause he's a wonderful man and very generous and honest... his
sisters lack those traits... one of hte three is a wonderful woman,
but a habitual liar and truth stretcher... she's the only one I'll
speak to. Guess I'm lucky I got the good one of the family for a dad!
I am sorry that you lost your grandma and I am even
sorrier that some of your family members don't
understand you. Thank goodness for the grace of God,
when everything else that's supposed to be fine and
normal isn't.
Thanks... I've been weepy and sad today... This entire weekend
really... and this group is the most suportive and understanding group
around... I lost my aunt fifteen years ago this month, my granddad 5
years ago this month, Candy, the mother to my Rosie, three years ago
last month, Alphie, Rosie's sister, a year ago today, several other of
my kitties died this week in the past 15 years, my Rosie has ailing
health and isn't getting any better, and my dad has heart disease and
is getting worse. I'm just totally unprepared to deal with facing
anything at this point and I'm not prepared to accept mortality right
now... I'm tired of dealing with death and dying... Somehow I've ended
up horribly depressed lately, and I gained 20lbs to boot and nothing
fits.
Sorry for dumping my problems on you guys...
Steph