You are looking at this all wrong. He was
loved and he knew who loved him and wanted to be loved by you. This is not
bad. He knew with all his being that you were near. He was not
alone. First, he had his angels with him and secondly he had someone who
loved him near. Your body may not have been in the same room or even
the same house but he knew you were close and that your heart was with
him. Our hearts are always with those we love, even when our bodies are
not. Mr. Dobbs left this world with his angels and with total love.
He was warm, sheltered, fed, and, being redundant, loved. An
awful lot of people never know all of these things. He would not have
awakened you and there was nothing more you could do for him. He taught
you not to take things on appearance, much like the Royal Princess Kitty Katt
taught me. Just because someone looks wonderfully healthy or terribly sick
does not mean that is the true situation. Life ends suddenly. None
of us really knows when it will end. We have to learn to live daily
and to accept that things simply are not as they appear all the time.
Do not beat yourself up. Mr. Dobbs would be very upset with you and
feel he had failed to teach you the lesson he was sent to teach.
Be gentle with yourself and look at all you did for
him.
If you have men who will exclude any of God's
creatures
from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow man. St. Francis
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