RE: A story of a little miracle Dharma - Dharma has become an angeltonight

[Hideyo Yamamoto]

Oh.. Leslie.. you are just so sweet – I and Dharma so appreciate you, Satch and Bea were doing for us.. Well..Dharma has had difficult time breathing on and off for the past couple of days and it was hard to watch sometimes – she might have had some water in her chest or lung.. but still she was doing okay (gave her lasix and might have made a little better?).. yesterday morning,, when I was calling everyone for breakfast, Dharma actually came up to the crowd and ready to eat (though she couldn’t eat then).. but when I put the food out last night in front of her.. she actually ate really good (that was about 45 mins before she passed..) so even until the last moment, I never gave up the thought  that she is going to overcome this and get better --- she must have some neurological problem, because she was having a difficult time walking at the end.. but as strong as she is.. she still walked around.. she had another stroke when I got home,, it was scary and I held.. and it went away, and she was okay.  She is just an amazing little miracle, Leslie..     I never would have thought that she would cross the bridge last night.. I went to feed my feral cats in my neighborhood and I came home and checked on her.. she was resting, but she had a bit difficult time breathing.. so I decided to give her interferon.. and I went to fridge.. and came right back and touched her.. and I felt her breath one more time,, and then went away.. and got so scared, and I pulled her from where she was sleeping and she was not breathing anymore.. and I gave her mouth to mouth right away,,, called her name and held her.. she just had passed away.. did not come back. I know she waited for me to come back. and she did.. but I wish I had held her in my arm.. but Dharma really did not like me to do that because I often gave medicine or force fed her when I held her..     I wish I had held her more just for the sake of holding her.. I miss holding her so much, Leslie..  I know that I don’t need to explain to you how painful and difficult this is.. but.. I have to think of what was best for dharma.. I think, dharma might have felt that I was neglecting all other kitties because I wanted to take so good care of Dharma and Dharma might have felt that it was not good for other kitties,,, and Dharma might have thought that.. Simba and I have all other kitties around,, but Naomi needed her more that we needed her.. perhaps.. and she decided to join Naomi… I don’t know.. but dharma is a very responsible and sweet girl.. and I thought that might have been what she was thinking of .. and of course she wanted to be free from the body which gave her limitations to what she wanted to do..   I am going to be so sad when I go home and not finding her where she has been.. there is a big hole in my heart and but I am going to re-fill it with all the love I have for her..   Hugs to you, Satch and Beatrix..   Hideyo.   From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Leslie Sent: Thursday, November 02, 2006 10:34 AM To: Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: A story of a little miracle Dharma - Dharma has become an angeltonight   Hideyo, NO! Doing dishes last night I sang to the tune of "Oh Susannah" - okay maybe not as classy as you would have hoped, but I'm no musical mastermind - to Bea and Satch about you and Dharma, and then biking to and from class, with each pedal I'd hum another word.  I felt so confident that she'd make it.   Help me understand what happened....was it her lungs that finally gave way?  She ate right before?!  Oh no, Hideyo, I am so sorry.  She was indeed a beautiful strong soul, that is just amazing.    I hope that Simba understands.  I hope that he doesn't get any ideas.   Reading Dharma's story really reinforces though that she was so lucky to have you.  Your love was obvious to her the whole way through.   Leslie     A story of a little miracle Dharma - Dharma has        become  an angel tonight.. Hideyo, what a lovely story...it truly touched my heart....Dharma was truly blessed with a wonderful mama...she knew how much you loved her and that you did everything in your power to make her better....I know too well the pain you are are experiencing...it is the worse kind of pain ever...these sweet little kitties come into our lives and truly wrap themselves around our hearts...you never get over losing them, but somehow you learn to live without them by your side...but one day, you will be together again...and this time it will be forever....please take care and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...God bless you always. Connie and my precious Angel Chewy Hideyo Yamamoto <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:          Hi, my name is Dharma - I am a little calico kitty with three paws and here is my story ... Once upon a time, there is a family - Naomi, Dharma (me), and Simba and our mama - we were only about 6-7 weeks old then, our mama kept us safe in a tiny hole under the crawl space of an abandoned house.. one day, the human decided to close down the crawl space so that they can renovate the house - our mama kitty and we did not know what was going to happen to the hole--- so we hided and underneath of a tiny hole and we did not make any noise so no one could find us.. while our mama was out getting our food, a human friend, Hideyo came to catch us --- we tried so hard not to be caught as we were so afraid of being away from our mommy - it took a several hours, but at the end, each of us was scooped by a little net to catch a little fish...our mama saw us being taken away and she looked so worried.. and a friend Hideyo promised our mama that she was gong to so good care of us.. mama looked so sad and worried - and we were so sad to be away from our mama.. we cried and cried.. We went to our friend Hideyo's house, and she told us that she was going to take care of us like our mama to protect us --- it took for a while.. but we made some friends, and we played and ate and slept a lot.... and then, my little sister Naomi started feeling not too good, I knew something was wrong and I wanted to take care of her so I groomed her all the time for her, our new mama, Hideyo was very worried and took her to the doctor.. but Naomi did not get better, and she decided that she wanted to leave the body as her body was not letting her to do things that she wanted to do.. and she wanted to be free so that she can play again..I was very mad at her leaving me.. but I knew that we would see each other again... Our new mama was so sad to see Naomi go...she cried and cried.. but I knew that naomi's sould was still with us at home.. but our mama Hideyo couldn't see... After my sister Naomi became an angel, she got lonely...and she asked if I could come to where she was at... and I said.. okay my little sister,,, I will come stay with you.. just give me three months as I wanted to have enough time to say good bye to my brother simba and our new mama hideyo.... Today was exactly three months after Naomi became an angel.. I decided to join my sister so that we can play together.. I told simba not to be lonely..we are just one meow away from each other.. if he misses us,,, all he has to do is to meow and we will come play with simba.. but simba now has a lot of friends and I know that he won't be too lonely.... I needed to be sick like Naomi was so that I could go to a kitty heaven where my sister was.. that was hard for our mama,, she cried and cried.. and wanted to make me feel better and wanted me to stay. And she gave me all sort of medicines,, but I hated them..but I tried to hold on as long as I could.. but my body got very tired.. I couldn't breath well.. and couldn't walk well and my mama finally old me it's okay if I wanted to go.. because Naomi is lonely out there... so tonight.. I said good bye to all my friends here at my house and joining my baby sister Naomi.... Everyone - thank your so much for all of your prayers and support.. I and Dharma are so grateful.. Dharma was and is such a strong little soul.. she ate the food on her own even an hour before she passed.. and she probably did it for me.. to make me feel better.. I wish I could stay with her longer.. I really did not expect her to go so soon.. today is November 1st.. she crossed the bridge at 10:44 pm... exactly 3 months ago on 8/1, and exactly around the same time, Naomi passed away in my arm, too... and seven days later,,, my little peter was also such a beautiful boy.. I cried so hard,, and I was so mad about what happened and did not know what to do.. have a big hole in my heart...and it's going to be empty for a long long time.. there are lots of things I wish.. but all I know for sure is that my Dharma has become free just like my Tsubomi, Peter, Naomi, Hannibal, Wami, Garfunkle, George, and Henry have ---I have to tell you, Naomi and Dharma have a such a strong soul.. I never met a kitty who was so determined and so strong.. it's been such a pleasure to have met her and be able to take care of her.. Love to my dharma and all of my little angels, miss you so so terribly.. Your mama, Hideyo