Rachel You are in my thoughts. Our little Ruthie died in my husband's arms. We also have her ashes. I will never forget her. We only had her a short time, almost two years. But she was very special. I hate FELV so much.
Christine On Jun 9, 2016 7:50 AM, "Rachel Dagner" <rdag...@novahrc.com> wrote: > I picked up Tucker’s ashes yesterday. I was really worried as I didn’t > know if it would make me feel better or worse. I haven’t eaten since Sunday > my appetite is nonexistent, I have managed to choke down a couple protein > shakes. My eyes are so swollen, I feel bad for anyone who has the > misfortune of looking at me, or being around me for that matter. Well, I of > course cried all of the way to the vets, and all the way home. But then I > curled up in bed with my little box of Tucker, and I actually did feel a > little more at peace. I laid there with him and went through my pictures > again and talked to him about all of my feelings and my love for him, about > our memories and how much I miss him. > > > > I have actually been in touch with a rescue group I found on pet finder, > they test every cat for FELV/FIV while many others don’t. I know that there > is no sure thing with testing, and I wouldn’t trade my time with Tucker for > anything in the world. I just know that emotionally and financially I am > not ready for FELV again right now. If it happens, just like with any > illness, then I deal with it, because that is what you do. I am going to > Petsmart over in Tampa on Sunday to meet their kitties, I have no idea if I > will be ready, or if this is what I desperately need to do to help me heal, > but it won’t hurt to go meet them and see how my heart feels. One of the > greatest gifts Tucker gave me is that “no cats” Harry, when I showed him a > pictures of a kitty on Pet finder he said “Is that the one you want to > get?” So I know now that I will never again have to live without the feel > of that soft fur on my face or the heart melting sound of purring in my > ear. It is so hard because I am scared to get one, and I am scared not to. > I guess we will see what happens… > > > > *From:* Felvtalk [mailto:felvtalk-boun...@felineleukemia.org] *On Behalf > Of *Ardy Robertson > *Sent:* Wednesday, June 08, 2016 11:59 PM > *To:* felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > *Subject:* Re: [Felvtalk] Tucker > > > > I’m just so happy that you had that kind of relationship with your > fur-baby. The memories are wonderful. I recently adopted another cat even > though I said I would not. No one will ever take Tigger’s place in my > heart, but Topaz is easing the pain. I may never have that bond that I had > with Tigger or like you had with Tucker, but I figured that was not a > reason to not try again, and with all the little homeless kitties, I think > Tigger would have wanted me to help another kitty. Certainly take your > time, but I hope you can open your heart again at some point. > > > > Ardy > > > > > > *From:* Felvtalk [mailto:felvtalk-boun...@felineleukemia.org > <felvtalk-boun...@felineleukemia.org>] *On Behalf Of *Rachel Dagner > *Sent:* Wednesday, June 8, 2016 7:22 AM > *To:* felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > *Subject:* Re: [Felvtalk] Tucker > > > > Thank you everyone for your kind replies. I knew it was going to be hard > for me, it has been even harder than I ever imagined. I went through all of > my adorable pictures of him last night. Remembered him how he was and > imagined him that way again. He was such a cool and handsome little guy. I > only had him for a year and a half. In that time we went through so much. > Emergency vet visits, surgeries, worry. I wouldn't change it for the world > though. He touched my life and heart so much. I opted for a private > cremation, so I can keep him close to me always. I was the one person in > his life that he loved and adored more than anything, and he never doubted > my love for him. > > Sent from my iPhone > > > On Jun 8, 2016, at 8:02 AM, Katherine K. <kaths...@gmail.com> wrote: > > I'm sorry about Tucker and for the pain you feel. I hope the happy > memories you shared bring you comfort during this difficult time. We're > here for you. > > > > On Wed, Jun 8, 2016 at 1:37 AM, Ardy Robertson <ar...@centurytel.net> > wrote: > > I'm so sorry for your loss of Tucker. > > Ardy > > -----Original Message----- > From: Felvtalk [mailto:felvtalk-boun...@felineleukemia.org] On Behalf Of > Rachel Dagner > Sent: Tuesday, June 7, 2016 9:33 AM > To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > Subject: [Felvtalk] Tucker > > I lost him yesterday morning. He was having a really hard time breathing > due > to the tumor in his chest. It was time, they got me in right away. It was > so > very hard to say goodbye. I haven't been able to quit crying since. > It's so unbelievably hard, even knowing that it would happen soon. I miss > him so much. Everything reminds me of him. I am at work luckily alone > today, > and can't quit crying. I had him with me at work last week and he was > laying > on my desk and purring and sleeping. It's just so hard to believe he is > gone. I sat in the parking lot at my vets for at least an hour with my car > door open, just in case he spirit needed to get inside and come home with > me. I know it will get better, but right now the pain is just unbearable. I > know that those here who have gone through this understand where I am right > now. > > _______________________________________________ > Felvtalk mailing list > Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org > > > _______________________________________________ > Felvtalk mailing list > Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org > > > > _______________________________________________ > Felvtalk mailing list > Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org > > > _______________________________________________ > Felvtalk mailing list > Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org > >
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