as much as i love getting chewed a new asshole, i'm weak, so i'm gonna stop this asshole chewing right here! now this blesblok8 fellow had a good point to his email. he pointed out that i'm an idiot (or at least that i say stupid things!), that my opinions are wrong (see previous implication. it's essentially the same as this one), and that i rile people up. he's wrong about 2/3 of these implications, however: no, i'm not an idiot. when not writing meaningless emails to mailing lists, i actually say stuff that i care about! second, my opinions aren't wrong - that's why they're opinions. there's no way that they can be wrong. but he was right that i rile people up, and i apologize for that. i say things that i believe in my own personal experience to be true, and these words ends up getting blown out of great proportion because i throw around words carelessly for no good reason. do i do this with the intent of pissing everyone off? no. do i do this because i'm an idiot? no. i do it because i simply don't care, and thus i can never seem to learn my lesson to just *keep my mouth shut.* i should add that i do really believe the opinions that i give, otherwise this email will just make me sound like i have no point. so just for the record, i do believe this stuff that i write. i start things up not thinking shit is gonna hit the fan, but then of course it does, and for once even i find myself thinking "god amy, you did something completely tiresome and not worth all the crap that came along with it." have i, in my personal experience, seen a baby come out with disabilities because its mother drank alcohol during the pregnancy? no. that doesn't mean it hasn't happened. do i think led zeppelin is a good band that DIDN'T spawn cockrock? hell no, but these things that i write are my opinions and i've always tried to stress that as much as possible..not to mention that i can acknowledge the fact that other people do like led zeppelin and i won't hold it against them for that. so in a nutshell, i was offended when you said that i don't know what my opinions are, or that i'm saying stupid shit. how organized do you expect people to be online? do you, personally, write emails that are elegantly written and have all the information that you wish to give? because i'll tell you what, after almost four years of reading and responding to email, i can't keep up 100% anymore but i truly do envy anyone who can do that. basically what i'm trying to say is that even i know this time it was a little tiresome, and it hit me not only in an online sense but in an offline sense. it made me want to become more of an elegant writer and say things in taste, and that just because you feel a certain way due to personal experience, it may seem ridiculous to other people. the best i can do is to point out that there is always that choice to just ignore me and people like me, who simply don't think or care about what they write before they write it. i mean i don't feel like i made a huge ass out of myself or anything, because i can't fuel my own fire by just saying "led zeppelin blows goats." i have other people to thank for that, you know? ;) regardless it was something that could've been avoided. with that said, don't worry about getting any attacks, because i'm sure most everyone agrees with you - even i do. but consider the possibility that not everyone sits around their computer organizing their thoughts perfectly just to avoid pissing people they don't know off. i'll leave you all with a quote now by peter from office space: "it's not that i'm lazy, it's that i just don't care." - amy
