hello folks iam a bit numb
as my Brother Jim has passed at age 61..
Happy graduation Jimmy he was born jan14 1963
and he was a great brother as kids we wer 7years aprt so i didntspend
loads of time with him. mom sent himto day careandi think maybe he was
treated bad and never told me.. I used to defend him whenhe got Bullied
.. he loved music and Magic tricks his dad was polish and loved him
dearly but he had polioso he was oncrutches ..steve alsowas a alcoholic
and beat our momwhen he gotdrunkand me too...so she divored him
Jimmy would visitwith his dad who wouldget grocerysandthhey evenhad a
small coin collection. steve died of cirrosis ofliver in 1971
so my brother grew close to our mom she loved Jim when he had a daughter
and a son she would visit them the daughter was mentally undeveloped so
in diapers at 40...and the boy was just sad as his dfad would notspend
time/// Jim was called thelone wolf as he was anti social..then on my
birthday he had anotherdaughterwithanotherwomen...it didnt last
so my brother got addicted togoing to Detroit Gambling Casinos...he
loved to gamble listen to Heavy metal bands and like me he went for wild
sexy women..and he called it the Save _a -Ho foundation as he would get
goo dancers thatwereon heroin andwild and adopt them and help them
whenthey needed money
he had a great heart butwas tormented by a dual personalityof being
angered at societyas he wanted tobea fireman and police officer but
didnt make as he thoughtaffirmatiive action blocked his opportunity...
sohe thought republican andi was democrat...jim never goton welfare or
food stams he was too proud,,,and he would always help me over the years
at trade shows in my retail shop. he made the costume armor,,andwe went
to NYCand chicago..he went into Havac fixing furnace and ac.. fora group
that did remodels of sec 8 low income he seemed angered at how people
used the system and told me they have cars better then me...
he said he was christian andi would say christ told me love everyone
even our enemies
soabout a week ago he came overout ofthe blue and was sayingthe new
freon ac gas was flammableand seemed very depressed bynotgetting good
restand he had had a heart attack and stroke about 2 years ago...also
like me he found he was diabetic... so Isaid jim well did you go
gambling>> he said yes..andi said i think you need some help andilefte
likke 3 voice mails onhis phone suggesting 988 mental health help as i
thoughthis priorities seeem out of whack,,, well he got upwalked out
last time i saw hime and then a week went by maybe less.. My son callls
and said Dad the neighbors of jim busted the door open and found him
dead inside//// so hes ar the corner geting toxology,and autopsy....
the wierd thing my son said it seems like Jim had staged itas all the
info of his life was out whereit could be found hehad a footlockerof
Family photos and saveall my music history ,and family history going
back to grandparents..
he must have been so depressed..and so all my memories are flooding my
soul as on one hand if i believe Jesus words he is with the family and
at peace icalled the988and crisisand asked ifiam thinking ok as iam
feeling so many mixed thoughts as iloved mylittle brother but mom was
worried about him..before she died she told me i was thestrong one b ut
she was worried about Jimmy....i said heyiam scared shitless/....i just
keep trying..as i had my footamputate.. iam blind inright eye.and part
blind left myleft earwent deaf..iam ina wheelchair, my left foot is
infected withosteomylitus..
but i welcome God to end mylife i just thoughtits a insult to just die..
but all my friend are gettingold and dieing andillbe 68 aug
112024..andthe world is so hectic with violence, hate. political
division.. i just keepaskeing Jesus to return as i am not sure i can
weather much else,,,my son is a nervouse wreck from me..his mom and now
his uncleand his kids.. so if you all could just say a prayer for my
son. mybrother and all my friends andthier famils that would be great
and for allpeople inthe world like Israel. UKraine , and the whole
Glose.. God bless everyone//// sorry iam speaking outas i know we all
suffer similar issues..so best to all of YOUe
Tom
Hollywood dream factory®
since 1977
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