Changes, Typing, Speaking, Music, Sport http://www.alansondheim.org/starlingsbecausetheycan.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/Jordan.jpg It began when I typed "hwen" instead of "when" and I knew something was going on. Just now I typed "wehn". when I knew something was amiss. I will carry out an action and forget that action and that I have carried it out. My feet find the pavement. My might - I meant "mind" is faster than ever. I'm always in a hurry to carry on before something gives out. It's more difficult if I type like this, not watching the letters appearing directly on the screen. I must focus and post-focus and pre-focus. All of this is minor. I forget where I leave books for example. My focus is as good as ever. When I typed hwen - perhaps eight months ago. When I typed "ago" I "heard" "ape." Forgetting names is typical. What surrounds the name remains - for example circumstances, environments, and events, even in detail, perhaps in more detail. I have lived in a number of countries, cities, states, and so forth: I remember - not in the sense, again, of filling in the blanks with external debris or detailing, but with an exactitude that is astonishing. What would this have to do with survival? I call things by their proper names, but again, when people are involved. I began typing "invov" and stopped in time, the "l" came naturally. Are my fingers listening? Did they ever? At an earlier age I was never known for amazing memory, but I knew the scope of a subject or thing; I loved mathematics (typed "mathematica") but was poor at grasping and manipulating deep structures. I gave out after the calculus. My sleep is horrifying, on and off through both day and night, attempting nighttime sleep between two and three a.m., awaking any time after that, napping any time after that. Several naps a day. I eat vegetarian except for occasional salmon (doctor's orders) and take no recreational drugs or alcohol. I tend my mind like the garden it is or should be. When I first wake in the morning, I write and work on music (wrote "muric"), art, texts. Speaking texts works to a degree, allows the complex flow of ideas - wrote "idea" - better than typing/reading typing - that vortex - wrote "vortext" - that usually occurs - in speaking - as opposed to this - wrote "his" - which occurs in typing, in other words, the natural flow of speech which seems far more fundamental than typing - which always has multiple barriers of writing, mechanism, reading, and so forth - the machine age is always already upon us - too many operations at once - including, for example, the act of sight, necessary for following the text I'm writing, including or in spite of, inner speech - as I sound out to myself what would be far more natural given as vocal language. [Vocal speech now. (I wrote "not".)]: It is in part then the multiple operations that are necessary when typing that takes away from the content of what is being thought or said for example . How did I am dictating I can look loosely at what I am writing or pay no attention to it and go back over it, and in this way it seems to be a more natural environment for thinking through the world. It's no longer a question of scanning or scan chain. It's now a question simply of being in the world and describing what that being is. Now you see I have the words scan chain here . Where what I meant was SCAN SI ON. The dictation breaks this up as you can see it creates a rupture for the reader but not for the speaker. I'm better than that the words are for the most part spelled correctly . Now I will then dictating. I will go back to typing. [End of speaking now, back (I wrote "bac k") to typing now.] In fact, these modes have followed me all of my life; so much of my work has been verbal, so much of my art has been music, equally improvised in the moment, but without the disagreeable chores of reading after the fact, worrying syntax - in improvisation there is a degree of abandonment which is critical - leaving behind what has already been played, rougly remembering the structure in order return to it as a form of memory or resonance... that always continues. Music and sport are in the moment - perhaps everything, one way or another, is... ___ _______________________________________________ NetBehaviour mailing list NetBehaviour@lists.netbehaviour.org https://lists.netbehaviour.org/mailman/listinfo/netbehaviour
[NetBehaviour] Changes, Typing, Speaking, Music, Sport
Alan Sondheim via NetBehaviour Thu, 06 Apr 2023 12:45:43 -0700