Hi guys
Sometimes I'm not in good mood. Today I was in a bad bad mood. Quite bad even
badder.
I was wondering why I was doing all that and the rest. What was the use to do
Pharo
if we get Squeak doing exactly the same - Ok we were right long time ago but
still seeing all the removal of
crappy code we begged to be removed and got bashed for and also doing all that
effort and seeing it redone
was not helping. Being right sometimes is not even cool :) So a plain bad
day.... cold and rainy.
I was frustrated that I cannot be somebody else, doing stuff full time and no
other duties
and going faster. In short nothing was working and I was a frustation ball like
I'm good at being.
But my kids were there and we had to go swimming! After going swimming and not
thinking then thinking
and discussing with some remote friends and emails. (Thanks guys you know who
you are) also thinking about other
people's attention and remarks in other contexts, my good mood came back even
stronger than before
because I came up to the conclusion that my remote friends were right (BTW
thanks pharoers some of you inspire me today
during my bad mood - alain, henrik, danny, lukas...)
So what is the conclusion of all that?
- I have a cool job (one of the best research positions in europe - not
easy everyday
but cool and with people supporting me with my crazy idea....imagine
coding in smalltalk
building an international team doing smalltalkish stuff).
- we can invest for 5 years or even 10. Close your eyes and imagine we
can decide now what
we want to do now for the next 10 years and do it because we decided
that this is fun.
Amazing. No clients, no venture guys telling us the truth of life.
- To a friend to which I was saying that I'm not that smart, that guy
told me that smart is not the only measure: you can measure your impact,
the books you wrote, the energy that other people took and got inspired
and all kind of other measures.... :)
So I can tell you I was down but this is good because I could think about what
I really want to do.
And I want to have an innovative Smalltalk system that can be used to develop
business and innovative.
(for example I would like to see if the new event system can be used to save
Genie - one of the coolest
handwriting recognition system I see).
So I will not be extra-smart but I will learn and I will do it bit by bit. And
I want to make it fun and beautiful.
May be we will be able to go faster (it depends mainly on you guys :)) but I
want 10 years or 15 or even 20
years of fun with a cool system and it is there in my hand (at three keystrokes
from my keuboard).
We will build it.
Stef (sorry for the one of you that have to listen my bad mood I'm curing
myself).
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