Re: [FairfieldLife] To Fairfield Iowa - I'm giving journaling a go
Dear shainm307: Stick around. I can't speak to Fairfield Iowa as a location and way of life, but FFL has helped me with my anxiety and my understanding of the possibilities of consciousness and is giving me the license to lighten up, start thinking for myself, and claiming my right to my reality - illusion or no. Although your context is vastly different than mine, a lot of what you say resonates. Take care. From: shainm307 To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Saturday, May 19, 2012 1:48 AM Subject: [FairfieldLife] To Fairfield Iowa - I'm giving journaling a go Fairfield Iowa, Fairfield you are very open to me but, I'm not sure what you are. you helped me with my anxiety and grew my consciousness. I'm not sure if you're for the better or worse. You taught me that I was wrong. Maybe that needed to come out. Although I'm sure my parents had good stuff to them. Saying my parents are wrong is very dark to my heart. I'm not sure why you didn't open up about the good stuff like the kundalini and chakras. You taught me that me and my culture are full of sh*t, including what my parents knew. I have a shadow that lingers from Fairfield telling me not to think and that what I do is wrong. I'm not sure what's worse, my way of thinking or your teachings. I lost everything to you, my entire life is now done as I realized everything is now an illusion. Part of me feels like this is all a part of me and karma has a lot to do with it. I think Fairfield is a reflection of me, so maybe I need to open up more and be more honest. I feel this is all part of a game, although I'm not sure how the game works. The part of me that made me rebel against you made me wise up and found that truth s being presented to me as what I need to see. However there is still a lot of darkness as my culture and spiritual beliefs are being hidden. Part of me wonders why. Because you're insecure over something and you don't want to see us be right? Maybe I'm right on something there. The more I give into your teachings the more that shadow pops up and tells me I'm wrong and don't think. Part of me wonders what you're hiding or what you don't want to see. I'm not sure what I should think of you.
Re: [FairfieldLife] To Fairfield Iowa - I'm giving journaling a go
Hi Shain, I'm new here so I don't know what your culture is. And I'm not sure if by Fairfield you mean the town or TMO or this forum. But I'd say whichever it is and in general, take what works for you and leave the rest. Life is just about always a mix of negative and positive. One trick to playing the game more comfortably, or even enjoyably, is to attend to the negative as is needed. For example, if you scrape your knee, put on a bandaid, maybe some antiseptic. Or do Reiki on it. Or put a pyramid on it, yada yada. Just enough attention to get the healing going. This also applies to non physical "scrapes." Having done that, enjoy life, favor the positive whenever it seems you have that choice. We are living in amazing times and there is a lot of support available. best, Share From: shainm307 To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Saturday, May 19, 2012 3:48 AM Subject: [FairfieldLife] To Fairfield Iowa - I'm giving journaling a go Fairfield Iowa, Fairfield you are very open to me but, I'm not sure what you are. you helped me with my anxiety and grew my consciousness. I'm not sure if you're for the better or worse. You taught me that I was wrong. Maybe that needed to come out. Although I'm sure my parents had good stuff to them. Saying my parents are wrong is very dark to my heart. I'm not sure why you didn't open up about the good stuff like the kundalini and chakras. You taught me that me and my culture are full of sh*t, including what my parents knew. I have a shadow that lingers from Fairfield telling me not to think and that what I do is wrong. I'm not sure what's worse, my way of thinking or your teachings. I lost everything to you, my entire life is now done as I realized everything is now an illusion. Part of me feels like this is all a part of me and karma has a lot to do with it. I think Fairfield is a reflection of me, so maybe I need to open up more and be more honest. I feel this is all part of a game, although I'm not sure how the game works. The part of me that made me rebel against you made me wise up and found that truth s being presented to me as what I need to see. However there is still a lot of darkness as my culture and spiritual beliefs are being hidden. Part of me wonders why. Because you're insecure over something and you don't want to see us be right? Maybe I'm right on something there. The more I give into your teachings the more that shadow pops up and tells me I'm wrong and don't think. Part of me wonders what you're hiding or what you don't want to see. I'm not sure what I should think of you.
[FairfieldLife] To Fairfield Iowa - I'm giving journaling a go
Fairfield Iowa, Fairfield you are very open to me but, I'm not sure what you are. you helped me with my anxiety and grew my consciousness. I'm not sure if you're for the better or worse. You taught me that I was wrong. Maybe that needed to come out. Although I'm sure my parents had good stuff to them. Saying my parents are wrong is very dark to my heart. I'm not sure why you didn't open up about the good stuff like the kundalini and chakras. You taught me that me and my culture are full of sh*t, including what my parents knew. I have a shadow that lingers from Fairfield telling me not to think and that what I do is wrong. I'm not sure what's worse, my way of thinking or your teachings. I lost everything to you, my entire life is now done as I realized everything is now an illusion. Part of me feels like this is all a part of me and karma has a lot to do with it. I think Fairfield is a reflection of me, so maybe I need to open up more and be more honest. I feel this is all part of a game, although I'm not sure how the game works. The part of me that made me rebel against you made me wise up and found that truth s being presented to me as what I need to see. However there is still a lot of darkness as my culture and spiritual beliefs are being hidden. Part of me wonders why. Because you're insecure over something and you don't want to see us be right? Maybe I'm right on something there. The more I give into your teachings the more that shadow pops up and tells me I'm wrong and don't think. Part of me wonders what you're hiding or what you don't want to see. I'm not sure what I should think of you.
