Fear of babies...yes, this is ON-topic!
>Now, here's the hard part. Kat and Josh have been home since late June. Both know they need jobs so Kat was the first to go and apply at the temp agency Office Team. They immediately got her a job! Now, Josh, has also been searching but he can't leave Tristan home alone. They'd ask Christine (who has the better experience) but now she's going to be starting work at that nursing home. We won't even discuss my grandmother because she's acting like a complete psycho and really can't be trusted to sit with Tristan again. That leaves just one other person. Me. :( Even though Kat wrote out excellent directions to taking care of Tristan, I'm completely terrified with being left to watch him. They keep saying to me, "Oh, you'll be fine. You can handle it." Yes, but by choice? I don't even know how to change a diaper! Never did it before! It's not hard but I'd feel odd doing it. He's totally exposed and everything! It's something I really don't want to do but if I don't, I'll probably get yelled at and then I'll really feel awful!<
I know exactly how you feel. When my baby cousin Jenna was born I was automatically chosen to be a babysitter because I was supposedly the right age for such things...(blah blah blah... my parents like to assume things that aren't really true most times). At first I was a wreck, being left to babysit a little baby girl all day by myself, but to tell the truth after I saw her smile and giggle for the first time when I held her and knew it was because I was just there and not because I made a giggley face made me go into "mother mode". It was weird, when I knew there was almost a understanding, I guess that is what you would call it, it was like I loosened up and just had fun.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that you just need to relax, which I know is hard. Just try and take it on thing at a time.
Oh before I forget, I think it would be a great idea for you to write that fanfic. Even if you might think it may be hypocritical. Just think of it as a learning experience, if you have to learn from it so do they..lol.
Jackie
