-->> .. .. .... .. .. Mrs. B is my friend Jasen's Gramma.. Jasen is a deaf kid.. real cool ..his struggles have become intertwined in my life in so many odd ways.. he has a severe cp that for an extremly long portion of his life..made him use a wheel chair.. a surgery on his legs a matter of years ago enabled him to walk errect with the use of a walker.. i've had so many brotherly tussles with the guy.. (hell he was on these lists for a while) at some point his Gramma and Grampuh became part of me too.. Two loving.. hard working people.. who just put up with Jasen's sh7t so much.. no matter how much a handful he was.. they didn't ever give up on him.. Jasen's trying to make it thru school now and even these days. he is still struggling .. we grew up likeing different things.. Jasen loves Power Rangers,Star Trek,Super Man..and Leonardo.. he especially liked the Next Mutation.. .. his grandparents have been superbe to me beyond beleif ..nad beyond anything i deserved.. when my P0p couldn't handle me & my Mawm got drunk and wanted me away.. they took me in.. those super desprate times.. and they just were family .. i've had good and bad times with them.. but the love and care they show me goes beyond Jesus.. beyond visions.. beyond Ninja Turtles.. .. of the things in me that are real.. amoung those few precious things.. that even i take for granted.. ..the love they show and have shown me was real..REAL as anything.. ..and still the mundane world.. gets so much more plastic.. and so much more fake.. ..and the ignorance this list is capable of showing i so confusing anymore.. ..Yeah,you idiots that tell me 'Oh ,Dave you are hard to understand.. OH Dave.. you are some mentally crippled person we don't know how to relate to so it's easier to pretend you don't exsist....Sorry Dave..Nin ja Turtles are more important that people..OH no Dave.. you don't know what it's like to have a seizure.. Sorry.. my stories of Ninja Turtles are so much more important that the lives of the world.. s0 sorry.. s0 s0 sorry.. FRANKLY ,DAVE..you scare us.." .. i've gotten that all my life ..i still do.. ..and those few precious moments of reality are taken away from me again..and again.. and again.. ..And it's always more important to shove a Raphael doll up my ass than to actually be real. ..MRS. B is not doing well tonight.. i keep getting words like 'Dying' and 'Failure'.. ..Jasen's family is coming out.. and i am going to be there for my friends.. ..You plastic that you shove is so meaningless right now.. .. i feel ebyond betrayed with this sh8t.. i am angered.. and start to hate it even more. ..times like this i wish i'd not ever joined Ninja Turtles lists.. if it wasn't for that precious few that reached out to me.. i would so drop this sh7t like a bad habit. .. Tonight when you dream of stories for 'Hot ninja turtle Sex..' .. or you go into a seizure and have some grand vision of mire that helps you cope thru those long,long, days.. where you can continue to SHOVE the mundane.. .. people are living.. people are dying.. and in the GRAND scheme of what ever.. when i die.. at least.. AT LEAST for one fleeting moment.. i've been graced with the greatest gift of love and reality.. weather i deserved it or not.. those times i was real were to precious and sparse .. but i hope..to some degree.. i appreiciate those golden moments.. People here showed me more than plastic Jesus and Plastic Ninja Turtles ever did.. they showed me care.. .. n0w go..(if this isn't another t0KkA message you haven't filtered or deleted) you have spells to cast.. and i am s0 dark right now.. cuz if i loose Mrs.B .. .. that is it.. and the fodder we all spew.. just decomposes in my mind.. to nothing more than dust.. and digital bits.. ..onward christian soldier.. .. >v<
yir buddy, ~tOkKa >v< !*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*! "..quoting 'Macbeth' scince 1991.." aim: tOkKAb2 -->> >> >> >> >>> >> >> tOkKa'Z KriB!! & "T" iz FER tOkKa!!: tOkKa'Z BlUnderground K mart-culture diary.. - @http://www.terrible2z.com "Like a beautiful smile,gift wrap creates the first impression of a present. Set the tone you want with the appropriate gift wrap." - Martha Stewart OOZE C0ntainer-TMNT @ http://www.oozecontainer.com/ MIKEY's TMNT @ http://www.mikeystmnt.com c0ntact@ [EMAIL PROTECTED] [EMAIL PROTECTED] >v< GRAhhhh.. ** i'd like to thank the following ,corprate supporter for destroying my dignity with every single message i send.. : Sign up for Internet Service under $10 dollars a month, at http://isp.BlueLight.com
