************* The following message is relayed to you by trom@lists.newciv.org ************ The power of now is excellent at reducing ego.
Sent from my iPhone > On Feb 17, 2014, at 10:02 AM, "Colleen K. Peltomaa" <cygnifi...@gmail.com> > wrote: > > ************* > The following message is relayed to you by trom@lists.newciv.org > ************ > Hello El-J, > > Thank you for your comprehensive and easy to read post. I have often felt > sadness and loss while the ego is > dissolving, but it happened so often that I now know it as a good thing. > > During a Grade 2 session sometimes I can see an identity that I formed in > childhood and how it is still with me. > I let go of it, because it no longer seems to serve any purpose and is just a > hanger-on and I can see how it > limits me. > > When I self-enquired, "Do I really exist?" there was a phase of sadness and > tears of loss. > This occurs when I feel an identity or a game compulsion leaving. > > RI helps me get past the mental stops regarding mocking-up or creating which > in turn can > help reduce the reliance on compulsive automaticities. > > When as a kid I spent my summers alone in the mountains, after a few weeks I > would > start to see "white gorillas" out of the corner of my eye -- mocking up game > pieces, eh? > > I seem to occasionally have an abhorrence at seeing myself as "nothing", but > I cannot > deny it, however the urge is to quickly Be-do-have something compulsively. > Doing RI is a better choice. > > How important am I really? This identity becomes less on a gradient that is > not too > uncomfortable for me. My identity and body feel lighter by degrees. > There is an urge to play the better games I can now conceive. > However, I choose not to expand my involvement in games, but I do realize I > now have > more options in my current interactions with others. There is more attention > on > peacefully ending off or reducing former involvements with others. > > In the Church one typically went in as an ego and came out an even bigger ego > head. > Especially staff in the Church. > > Self-enquiry can cure that. Grade 2 is curing that for me. I don't know > fully about TROM > because I'm still working through the remedial level. I used to think my > ego was such a > lovely thing and that's probably why I initially had such a hard time with > doing TROM. Ego > drives are more in a "normal" range now and TROM is now more fun and easier > to do. > > Reading posts here from other beings who have reduced their egos is > encouraging > and sets a good example for me. > > colleen > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > _______________________________________________ > Trom mailing list > Trom@lists.newciv.org > http://lists.newciv.org/mailman/listinfo/trom _______________________________________________ Trom mailing list Trom@lists.newciv.org http://lists.newciv.org/mailman/listinfo/trom
