--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "seventhray1" <steve.sundur@...> wrote: > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "wayback71" <wayback71@> wrote: > > I agree - this is odd, to say the least - that your Master (at the > time) would not say something to you quietly just to acknowledge the > experience you were having. It never occurred to me before that MMY > seemed not to talk to people one on one about their experiences. > > > > When I had one of my more major experiences, I was late to get to the > lecture hall in Humboldt (could not figure out how to come out of > meditation since I thought I had to cause the experience to end before > opening my eyes! Finally just gave up, opened my eyes, and went to the > cafeteria anyway). So I was late to dinner and then showed up at the > lecture hall about 15 minutes into the talk he was giving. I was still > having the experience, just the beginning of a fade. I walked in the > door way at the back of this huge hall, and it seemed to me that just as > I entered MMY turned his head and looked right over at me, right in the > eye and nodded - I felt he knew exactly what I was experiencing and > nodded to say so. That could have all been wishful thinking. But I > continue to think he knew. > > > I had an experience once, and I don't know if it was real or imagined. > But I had the intent desire that MMY acknowledge me, or recognize me in > some manner. It was a time when I was with him personally in a course > setting, and I recall that he looked over at me, and began laughing. As > I said, looking back on it, I don't know if it was real or not. If I > were pressed on the issue, I would say it happened.
When I tried to have his attention or acknowledgment that he even knew I excisted, or during times of bliss when I tried to seek his approoval, he ignored me. Then suddenly, when I was doing something right (apparently) he would give shaktipat resulting in 4-5 days of the most intense bliss and 24/7 wakefullness.
