Yes, I agree, and also feel that many are linked but have not fully consciously perceived or accepted it. But, simultaneously, many seem to have been but have now been "liberated" from that connection and are quite glad of it, feeling much lighter, freer, clearer, etc., that we no longer need to be carrying such a weight for the collective. One the one hand, I would love for that to happen to me. On the other, I also feel that if, in some small way I am still somehow helping, that I will willingly continue, even unto death. This all gets mixed up for me with the Boddhisattva vow, which I think, at some point or other, I must have made.
On Oct 25, 2011, at 6:07 PM, seventhray1 wrote: > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > the world which I somehow still seem to be inextricably linked to (one, on > some experiential level, with the collective). > > I think many of us feel this way. Of course you can open yourself to some > subtle ridicule here, but I have felt this way, I think pretty much all my > life. > > > > > On Oct 24, 2011, at 9:44 PM, seventhray1 wrote: > > > > > > > > Mark, > > > > > > I can relate to how you feel in many ways. One thing I have noticed is > > > that financial worries can really put a crimper on things. I mean you may > > > be healthy. You may have some degree of refined awareness. You may > > > generally have a good dispostion. But when you have to confront financial > > > issues, it can bring you down. > > > > > > But let me also say, my daughter is reading Julies Caesar for her ninth > > > grade lit class and we are having fun comparing notes. But I can't help > > > but notice the cadence and flavor of Shakespere's* writing with your own. > > > > > > (*okay, whoever the real author was) > > > > > > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > > > > > > > > Why thank you, Ravi. You do surprise me. So many emails, so much > > > > mind-stuff, so little life force/time seemingly left in/to me. Maybe > > > > that will change. Maybe I'll finally free myself of these would-be > > > > rakshasa parasites (and/or my very own debilitating > > > > conditioning/ego-mind) and learn to revel in (FF)L again. I really do > > > > seem to feel like Grey's "Despair" character all too much of the time. > > > > (Sorry for the maudlin self-pity. Though there is a bit of that here, > > > > just, also, trying to tell it like it is.) Part of me thinks I need to > > > > refind my deep discipline and do an intense "cave experience," working > > > > on all aspects of my being again (let's call it some kind of > > > > neo-rounding), or, perhaps, throw myself into sacred activism, a la > > > > Andrew Harvey. But also, I can't help but directly feel the something > > > > rotten in the state of the world/me/the world's pain right down to the > > > > roots of my soul and the totality of my viscera. It almost always seems > > > > to have been that way, and still is, for me, though maybe I continually > > > > romanticize and self-perpetuate this as well. Hmm, wonder why I'm > > > > dumping/wallowing/spilling my guts like this in this public forum at > > > > this time in my/world history. Ah self-indulgence, self-centeredness, > > > > the me generation--might some of us be beyond inclusion? Will our > > > > rebirth ever really happen? > > > > > > > > On Oct 23, 2011, at 11:30 PM, Ravi Yogi wrote: > > > > > > > > > Please just stay... > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > LOL... I actually might give it a few more days, or even more. No > > > > > > promises on this one. Some good things have been coming through > > > > > > lately. I loved that Eisenstein article. A good friend tried to get > > > > > > me to go see him when he was here in Santa Fe, but I wasn't able to > > > > > > at the time, due to that job I finally got myself fired from. > > > > > > > > > > > > On Oct 23, 2011, at 9:31 PM, seventhray1 wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey Mark, I like your posting here, but didn't you forget to tell > > > > > > > us when you'd be unsubscribing again. Like we're down to one day, > > > > > > > and 32 minutes. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Mark Landau <m@...> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Hey Robin, > > > > > > > > Have you read this? > > > > > > > > I thought it might interest you. > > > > > > > > http://www.realitysandwich.com/Alex_Grey_Mind_Parasites > > > > > > > > Perhaps others, as well. > > > > > > > > Sorry if it's already been posted here, I haven't been keeping > > > > > > > > up. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
