Comment below: --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, anonymousff <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > **SNIP** > > Imagine the day in the life of a cetain 5 year old boy. An only > child, so no siblings to confide in or get help from. > > The boy comes home from school. It's freezing cold, blizzard > conditions outside. The boy is as usual made to strip completely > outside before entering the house. The boy has mud on his pants, so > his mother's enraged. The boy is taken to the basement and placed in > one of the wash tubs to be bathed, as dirtying the upstairs and > especially the bathroom/bathtub is a no-no. While the boy is being > bathed, his mother yells and screams at him for getting mud on his > clothes (despite the fact that his clothes are stripped off him and > washed every time he arrives at the house). His mother goes into her > usual almost hourly tirade that the boy is no good, that he will get > nowhere in life, that no one loves him, that he'll never be loved, > have any friends or succeed in life. That God hates him and that > he'll be forever damned. She tries to drown him once again, but he > manages to free himself from her grasp before losing consciousness. > Enraged more, his mother takes the stick she uses to poke clothes into > dye or bleach in that sink and beats him with it. > > Eventually dad comes home and is enraged that his wife is angry at the > boy. He makes the boy kneel for hours, naked, in the closet of his > bedroom on coins which dig into his knees, to pray to God to become a > good boy, despite the fact that he is forever damned, that he is > useless, terrible, that he is not loved, will never be loved, will > never succeed, never have friends, will be shunned by all. > > Imagine that afternoon and early evening are repeated from the age of > 1 to 18 years old. Imagine that the fraternal uncle the boy begs help > from decides to fuck him up the ass, dry, at the age of 7, while the > boy pleads to his uncle for deliverance from these parents between the > strokes which tear apart his rectum. > > Imagine a child who spends most of his time shaking and trembling and > going to the police and neighbors begging for help but being shunned > and told to go away and to stop shaking and trembling like that. > > There's a possibility that someone having grown up under such > circumstances might have "issues". That the person might have > "problems with anger" and might not want to be characterized by the > resident psychologist of a forum related to TM and spiritual matters > to be damned forever because of his "character". Suppose while the > man who survived that has been through the therapy but TM and other > spiritual practices at times unearth some of the pain of the past. > Imagine that when TM causes some unstressing of the pain, the > utterances of pain the man writes into an occasional post are used > with glee by people on the spiritual path and even a pundit in > training to be something they can use to pounce upon the man and > denounce him and damn him forever in post after post. > > Emotional healing is difficult. It is painful beyond belief. Bearing > it all without complaint, without revealing the pain or the past but > being denounced by people who take sport in it like they're in the > audience at the Coloseum in Rome two millenium ago is just another > part of the life of someone officially designated by health > professionals who are experts in their field as a "survivor" is just > another afternoon in the life of such a person. It hurts. But it > doesn't hurt as much as the typical afternoon the person faced as a 5 > year old. > > It hurts to read the stories of spoiled brats who gloat in the fact > that they had to join Purusha while students at MIU because they > wanted to take a break from screwing in the recesses of the Men's Dome > in Fairfield during meetings and ceremonies. The very dome the man > goes to to do program and/or round to help purge himself of those > scary memories. It hurts to read about the spoiled brat telling about > working in the French Quarter and having women bare their breasts to > them while they work and to have people counsel the spoiled brat on > how to declare bankruptcy to avoid paying off the debts they willingly > took on while screwing in the recesses of the Men's Dome at MIU. It > hurts to be denounced when in posts one objects to such things. > But that's just another afternoon as life of a survivor who's going > through the emotional healing. > > Now that was a nice aikido move, wasn't it? > **END**
This is a terrible personal history and I cannot imagine any reader here not moved by it. Despite some of the rancor exchanged on this site I don't believe I'd be wrong to say that everyone only wishes you well and hopes for the highest happiness for you. Marek ------------------------ Yahoo! Groups Sponsor --------------------~--> Does he tell you he loves you when he hits you? Abuse. Narrated by Halle Berry. http://us.click.yahoo.com/hemMeA/rbOLAA/d1hLAA/0NYolB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
