--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Rory Goff" <rorygoff@> > wrote: <snip>more and more sobriety which > paradoxically > > also includes the identification with the particle's utter abandon > > and intoxicated devotional surrender to the Whole. I have been > > finding this whole-hearted surrender is automatic *after* the > > mechanics of the collapse (Incarnation) of the Whole into the > > particle, and the exalting/humiliating Unity of both, are pretty > > fully comprehended. But then, I had not been a bhakti... <snip>
My way has always been more bhakti-ish, and I just wanted to comment that prior to Incarnation of the Whole as stated above, being bhakti- ish was pretty hell-ish(!), it sucked big time, like being in a constant tug of war with God, being forced to surrender, and yet being very fearful of the consequences. Facing death 24x7. Like walking a minefield blindfolded, or constantly cliff jumping (which is more what it felt like in my mind and body). Of course all of the fear and drama were not due to my surrender to God, but rather due to not having yet collapsed into an Incarnation of Wholeness; Awakening. And so I just had this peephole of my bound perception to look out from while undertaking this complete surrender, this series of cliff- jumping exercises. Scary stuff yet very, very powerful, and absolutely real- straight through the Fire. Existing as a naked thought within the Mind of God. Since all of the fear was built on illusion, I came to realize, Afterwards (Ha-Ha!), that not only was I always safe in my boundary breaking endeavors (being precisely attuned to the Supreme Being always includes a safety net- It Is Divine Law), but once the collapse or release into Wholeness occurred, my relationship with the Lord deepened immeasurably into an unanticipated depth of fulfillment, the rewards and extent of which continue to overwhelm me with gratitude and love. The complete joy of surrender is that for what little I am able to give, I receive a hundred times in return. Its pretty cool! Real freedom in total surrender, complete intimacy. Jai Guru Dev Om Shiva To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> Your email settings: Individual Email | Traditional <*> To change settings online go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/join (Yahoo! ID required) <*> To change settings via email: mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
