--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, cardemaister <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "authfriend" <jstein@> wrote: > > <snip> > > Goodness knows your ability with *written* language > > is way above average! > > Why, thanks! I think that's because time is not > a crucial factor when one is writing. It's really > weird that sometimes I feel it's easier for me > to write in English than in my own language.
You know, when I wrote that, I had completely forgotten that English wasn't your native language. That's how good your written English is. > It's no wonder English is so popular all > over the world. I don't recall ever seriously > having studied English, but if I had to try to > write something in Sanskrit, which I've tried > to learn much more than English, that would remain > a hopeless attempt, I'm afraid. I have the impression that Sanskrit is vastly more complex than English, so that wouldn't be surprising. > > In any case, since I know you only via how and what > > you write, I don't really have anything useful to > > offer. All I can say is, over the years I've > > gotten the distinct impression that you worry about > > yourself too much--and I should think that anxiety > > could very well interfere with your "live" social > > interactions. > > That might well be true. I can recall that during my siddhis > flying block, or whatever, eating with over a hundred other > people was most of the time really mentally painful, but > during the last days, when I think most people started > hopping, the atmosphere somehow softened, and I occasionally > enjoyed eating ice-cream with a couple of other participants. > > A couple of years back an AV-consultant told me that my > basic health is good, but something (obviously extremely > traumatic) has happened at some point of my life. I recently > realized what that might have been, but I don't have any > kind of recollection of that incident. My mother is dead, > so I can't ask her about the details of that probably quite a > traumatic event. But that might explain why over the years > especially women have asked me what I'm afraid of. I'm > not usually even very clearly aware that I'm afraid of them. Good grief. You could always try hypnosis to recover the memory, I suppose. But that in itself would probably be pretty traumatic if there had been such an incident. You'd want to work with a very good professional who could help you with the fallout. > After my siddhis course when I did the program regularly > at home, I noticed that babies started to smile at me. > One totally stranger even called me "father" on the street! > So, I don't know what might have happened if I'd continued > to do the siddhis regularly, but the negative consequencies > were so annoying that I lost my motivation to do them. > I felt that my karma started to ripen too fast, or something. Well, you could always try starting again and see what happens. Maybe having taken a break will make a difference. Having babies smile at you is one of life's greatest blessings, after all!
