Re: Cotton

[Dudes]

Michelle, please don't say it's ridiculous, because I already feel guilty enough for trying to please everyone.  I may not have a choice, and I just have to do the best I can for Cotton with my resources and my situation.  My husband Eric makes 3x the money I do, and has the final say in things like this, especially if it is a significant amount.  It's just how we do things.  He enjoys my cats', but notice I say they are my cats.  He does not enjoy the bond or closeness I feel with them.  I would do anything to save them, but he does not feel the same way I do about Cotton's treatment.     There are many people in my life who feel the same as Eric, and don't feel like I am doing the right thing, they think I am throwing money away for trying to buy him quality time.  I feel like I am not.  And I think it is a good lesson to my son that life is to be respected and is worth saving.  Unfortunately he's learning this in a very intimate way this time, because Cotton is his love.  I intend to see it through to the end.    I feel like I have taught him this by the squirrel lives saved in my work in wildlife rehabilitation, which was also expensive.  Zoonotic formulas are very expensive.     So I am fighting an uphill battle with Cotton on many levels.  I have to justify and fight for every step.   So I will do what I can as soon as I can.  I couldn't bear it if any of you thought that I was being lax or casual about Cotton's treatment.  I wouldn't be here if that was the case.  My heart is breaking as I write this, knowing what I know.  If I had my way, we would have done these tests weeks ago.      Sandy