At 10:17 AM 1/19/2007, you wrote:
There is no way I could improve on what Nina has said to you. It was
beautifully written and expresses what each of us feel in our hearts
all too often, I do look back and question my own decisions to at
times, make those extraordinary efforts to keep my beloved fur kids
with me, and I do question my own motives, Sometimes the only thing
that helps me find peace is that our babies have no fear of death.
They do not know it,,They fear pain, but you it sounds like Lucy is
comfortable and knows she is surrounded by love,
I wish sometimes that I had the spiritual belief that so many here
do, but I do not, The one thing I do know, at least in my own heat is
that we are all part of the same force, and that the end of this
physical separateness is just one stage. The energy and bond you
share with Lucy is forever, This will make it hurt less or the
decisions easier but you are lucky to have each other.
All my hopes for Lucy is good quality bonus time,
I have not used acemannan, but I do use I.R. and interferon. I am
glad your vet is assisting you and you should have the FOI very soon,
All my very best wishes and good thoughts for you both. When you feel
up to it , please share some pictures of Lucy,,you can private email
me at [EMAIL PROTECTED] It is so nice to send that positive energy
to a beautiful little face,
Kelly
www.kellyscats.zoomshare.com
Kelly
Thanks. I gave her the feline interferon about an hour ago. She
seemed feverish, so a while later I gave her some fluids. She then
ate a small handful of dry EVO on her own. She is just laying there
now. She is not grooming. She is definitely worse day by day. That
said, she looked terrible last night but when I got up to check on
her at 4 am she had gone downstairs to use the litterbox and then
trotted over to a plastic bag and sat on it, I pet her a while, and
then she trotted upstairs back to her box. I went back to sleep and
at 8 am she looked awful again. I think her fever comes and goes. I
have stopped temping her. When she is warm I give her fluids (not
more than 150 ml/day) and put ice on her, and so far she eventually
cools down. I was going to syringe feed her raw food, but then she
ate a handful (15 pieces?) of dry food so I held off. I convinced
my local vet to order feline interferon, and now I am working on
getting him to agree to acemannan. He was skeptical about the
feline interferon, and seems to think Lucy's case is hopeless and I
am grasping at straws and wasting money. But he is nice to me, and
so far has ultimately agreed to do as I ask. The acemannan request
may put an end to that.
Michelle
In a message dated 1/19/2007 1:04:07 P.M. Eastern Standard Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
Dearest Michelle,
As I wrote before, I just went through this same push/pull anxiety
with Spencer. It's enough to give you a nervous breakdown. I'm
feeling your pain right through the computer. I know Lucy is in bad
shape, but it does sound like she's at least comfortable for the
most part. When you talk about worsening symptoms, are you
referring to her not eating? Today is the first time she hasn't
eaten on her own, is that right? Stress will put her off her food,
perhaps she's just regaining her strength. The thought of her
enjoying a sun bath is encouraging. She may be strong enough to
wait for the experts to decide a treatment protocol.
I wish I had the answers for you Michelle. I'm afraid that no
matter how much support we have from others, it always comes down to
our call when dealing with so this sort of quandary. All I can tell
you is that after I calmed my spirit and communed with Spencer, (my
last experience with what you are going through), I felt a little
more at peace with the circumstances. Unfortunately, Spencer did
not have a long time left to share with me. I never gave up hope,
but I did find a semblance of acceptance and peace. The benefit was
that the time we did share was full of unconditional love, and I
don't know how else to put it, full of quality. It didn't keep him
with me in the physical, but it allowed us to bond in an
extraordinary way. It was an incredible gift that we shared, at a
very costly price. I'll always be grateful to him for the lessons
learned during that heartrending time.
I have no idea what I would do in your place. Missing the pieces of
the puzzle make it so very difficult to make these sorts of
decisions with conviction. I would never take the advice of anyone
over what my own gut was telling me though. The specialists may be
well meaning, they may even be sympathetic, but to them Lucy is a
medical case, to you she is your heart. The way I see it is we are
responsible for interpreting the wishes of our fur children and
making sure that our decisions are based on love and not fear. You
are the one that has to live with the consequences, no matter what
those consequences may be. Clear your head. Sit quietly with her,
your next move will come to you.
All my love,
Nina
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