Kim, you didn't kill her. You were trying to save her. 3/4 of a lb at 2 months is awfully small. She probably had failure to thrive syndrome. All we can do is try to help them the best we can. I have a kitten now I am assist feeding who just isn't growing. He sounds like he has severe nasal congestion. We are on our 3 abx and not seeing any improvement. But we keep trying. That's all any of us can do. You loved her and that's what counts. Sharyl
--- On Sat, 11/6/10, Kim <kim_ferri...@embarqmail.com> wrote: > From: Kim <kim_ferri...@embarqmail.com> > Subject: [Felvtalk] I killed my kitten last night... > To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > Date: Saturday, November 6, 2010, 2:52 PM > I am having such a hard time today > with my kitten's death. > My little kitten that was 2 months old died last > night. She weighed 3/4 of > a pound. She was the runt of the litter that I had > raised since they were > four weeks old. She has been a huge challenge for me > the month I had her. > My vet first thought she had mega esophagus but then wasn't > so sure when she > threw up roundworms. She had a problem keeping her > food down since the very > beginning. Anyway, Friday, my vet wormed her, and her > three siblings. She > was doing great yesterday until around 7 pm. I gave > her a small bowl of KMR > and shortly afterwards she started having difficulty > breathing and was > breathing through her mouth. She had eaten canned kitten > food earlier and > was doing fine. > She died while I was holding her trying to give her a sub q > injection. I > don't know what I was thinking. I know I killed > her. She couldn't breathe > and I was trying to hold her still and evidently I had her > in a position > that her breathing worse because she just went limp and > died in my hands. > It was so fast that I didn't even get to give her any > fluids. I knew she > was having troubles breathing but yet I held her still and > she was unable to > breath because of it. > I'm having a hard time with her death. She was such a sweet > kitten and even > though I can't admit it in front of her other three > siblings she was my > favorite. > Can anyone explain this to me? Were the worms > fighting the Strongid and > migrating to her lungs making her unable to breathe? > Did the KMR have > something to do with it? > I feel so bad. When I saw her throw up the worms > Thursday night I told her > to hang in there and I would get her all better in the > morning after the vet > wormed her but instead I feel like I killed her and did > wrong by her. > I am so sorry I did this to her and wish I could take it > all back. She > didn't deserve to die this way. > Kim > > "...Saving just one pet won't change the world....but > surely the world will > change for that one pet..." > > The top ten reasons to spay and neuter your dog or cat were > killed in a > shelter today. > > > > _______________________________________________ > Felvtalk mailing list > Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org > http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org > _______________________________________________ Felvtalk mailing list Felvtalk@felineleukemia.org http://felineleukemia.org/mailman/listinfo/felvtalk_felineleukemia.org