Thanks Stacy,
I appreciate your honesty, thanks Stacy
Love Smurf xxx
In a message dated 01/01/2005 04:07:42 GMT Standard Time,
[EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
I do have those feelings yes. I don't understand it though because I
don't have feeling in my legs, but I do in those areas. I'm not sure to what
extent because I haven't 'been' with anyone since I got sick. Of course I
have experimented, but don't really have any desire to and I think when
or at this rate if I am with anyone, that is when I will know. I
do have a sore on the bottom of my foot and that hurts me as well.
I don't get it. My doctor said that the nerves to your pelvic area are
the most protected on the spine so if I were to feel anywhere, it would be
there. I do get sporadic sensations on my legs but never in the same
places all the time. My doctor also told me that with my disease, it
makes things very strange. No SCI is the same, but I am very much
different because of the way it happened. I don't know if I ever
explained it but my spine is very atrophied because of the disease and the
damage left over from the inflammation the spine is still very much
intact. I still sweat below my injury level, but the swelling is quite
bad and I have more spasticity than most spinal cord patients.
I'm having a hard time going through the holidays single. Most of my
friends are married and/or have children. I don't have hardly any family
and didn't have them here for Christmas and now alone for New Years. I
find myself very left out because I donât have anyone. One of my best
friends pretty much only does things with other couples. Like going out
to dinner, playing cards, etc. She helps me through the waiver program,
so the time we spend together is when she is here helping me out with
something. She just got in an accident and her car got totaled plus she
got a broken arm. I can't get into her new car because it's too low and
awkward to transfer out of, so we don't really do anything together
anymore. It's been difficult getting through the holidays and will be
glad when they are over. I'm just not looking forward to the next 6
weeks while everyone is making their valentines day arrangements.
I am happy that everything is going well for you and Steve. When
the time is right, everything will happen naturally. It's wonderful that
he isn't pushing you into anything you are not ready to do. Keep taking
it slow.
Sorry for the book,
Stacy
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