Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

2013-01-01 Thread Marty Gartenberg
Hi Jeanie,

You seem to have gone through a lot with everything that happened to you
and your husband. From this new year on may you be blessed with things that
will make you live life to it's fullest and have some joy in your life.

18's

Marty

On Tue, Jan 1, 2013 at 4:03 PM, icandoall...@aol.com wrote:

 **
 Thanks Marty, and yes I still miss him a lot.  My hubby wasn't real sick;
 but he just seem to lose a little more of his health each day.  He passed
 away in his sleep very peacefully and that was a great relief.  I didn't
 have to see him dying in a hospital bed or hospice.  I thought I wasn't
 going to make it without him; we were in love ever since high school.  But
 the days passed and I learned to live without him.  My children were a
 great help to me.

 Happy New to you and yours,
 Jeanie3



  In a message dated 12/13/2012 10:17:39 P.M. Eastern Standard Time,
 wa2...@gmail.com writes:

 Hi Jeanie,

 I just want to comment on something you wrote.

 but then I wonder what the drugs are doing to my body.  Well, the
 leukemia kills, so better to just face it head on and live with it

 Jeanie, now your getting the idea. No matter what your going through your
 still alive to go through it...

 I really feel badly for you loosing your hubby and at such a relatively
 young age. I'm sure that it was and still is very difficult for you.

 When I was first diagnoised with CML I thanked GOD that I got it rather
 then my wife or children. I could live with me having it but not my wife or
 children.

 Take care of yourself and I wish you to have a very healthy and happy
 holiday season.

 18's

 Marty



 On Thu, Dec 13, 2012 at 4:17 PM, icandoall...@aol.com wrote:

 **
 Hi Marty and thanks so much; you sure sound like a warrior to me.  I love
 your response; just face it and try the best to live with it.

 In Jan I will start on my 9th year of being a CML warrior.  Gleevec and
 Tasigna failed me and I am now on Sprcel.  It is a struggle every day for
 me to take these chemo drugs.  I want to look at like you do, and most days
 I do, but then I wonder what the drugs are doing to my body.  Well, the
 leukemia kills, so better to just face it head on and live with it

 I lost my hubby when he was only 62 from heart disease caused by
 diabetes.  He struggled many years with it, having a by pass when he was
 52.  His heart just finally gave out.  He had the surgery where they split
 you open through the breast bone and take veins out of your legs to repair
 you clogged veins.

 Christmas is almost here and I love the season.  So Merry Christmas to
 you and a Happy New Year.
 Jeanie3



  In a message dated 12/11/2012 9:34:24 A.M. Eastern Standard Time,
 wa2...@gmail.com writes:

 Hi Jeanie,

 I'm not the warrior here because I have already gone through all of this.
 If anyone is a warrior here it is you and Millie and all the rest of the
 people with this disease. You are fighting and winning, and that is what
 this is all about isn't it?

 I read through all of the posts here and on other sites as well, and
 every one of them are warriors.

 I had to start on dialysis a little over one year ago. My kidneys have
 been failing for several years because of several factors. One being all of
 the radiation and chemotherapy I had almost twenty three years ago for my
 bone marrow transplant. Also as ageing comes about your kidneys become less
 effective. Not that I am an old fart but non the less it just happens.

 Who really knows, it could have been caused by many things but that is
 what I have, and I will just have to deal with it just as all of you have
 to deal with your problems. The trick to dealing with anything is to just
 accept it and simply go on with your life. No one ever said that life is a
 bowl of cherries.

 What actually brought my kidney failure was that my community puts down
 mulch around the houses here and there are always some bags left over that
 they leave in front of the garages. Since I have some property behind my
 home I decided to take and put that extra mulch there. Two days later I had
 a 104 fever and had to go to the hospital. I had double pneumonia and had
 to be in the hospital for three weeks. It was at that time my kidneys said
 good bye and I was started on dialysis while in the hospital.

 Maybe it also had something to do with my job and the fact that when I
 lived in Staten Island and there was an explosion of a benzine storage tank
 across the Author Kill River in New Jersey that carried burnt benzine
 across the water way and deposited it om my house and cars. About two
 months after I was diagnosed with CML, and I later found out that several
 of my neighbors were also catering to this disease called CML.

 I am now on three waiting kidney transplant lists just waiting for
 something to come about. I also have two potential live donors but even
 with that it is still a very complicated waiting game. They may or may not
 be a match for me but it takes a lot of time to 

Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

2012-12-13 Thread ICANDOALLTTC
Hi Marty and thanks so much; you sure sound like a warrior to  me.  I love 
your response; just face it and try the best to live with  it.
 
In Jan I will start on my 9th year of being a CML  warrior.  Gleevec and 
Tasigna failed me and I am now on Sprcel.  It is  a struggle every day for me 
to take these chemo drugs.  I want to look at  like you do, and most days I 
do, but then I wonder what the drugs are doing to  my body.  Well, the 
leukemia kills, so better to just face it head on and  live with it
 
I lost my hubby when he was only 62 from heart disease caused  by diabetes. 
 He struggled many years with it, having a by pass when he was  52.  His 
heart just finally gave out.  He had the surgery where they  split you open 
through the breast bone and take veins out of your legs to repair  you clogged 
veins.
 
Christmas is almost here and I love the season.  So Merry  Christmas to you 
and a Happy New Year.
Jeanie3
 
 
 
 
In a message dated 12/11/2012 9:34:24 A.M. Eastern Standard Time,  
wa2...@gmail.com writes:

Hi  Jeanie,

I'm not the warrior here because I have already gone through  all of this. 
If anyone is a warrior here it is you and Millie and all the rest  of the 
people with this disease. You are fighting and winning, and that is  what this 
is all about isn't it? 

I read through all of the posts here  and on other sites as well, and every 
one of them are warriors.

I had  to start on dialysis a little over one year ago. My kidneys have 
been failing  for several years because of several factors. One being all of 
the radiation  and chemotherapy I had almost twenty three years ago for my 
bone marrow  transplant. Also as ageing comes about your kidneys become less 
effective. Not  that I am an old fart but non the less it just happens.

Who really  knows, it could have been caused by many things but that is 
what I have, and I  will just have to deal with it just as all of you have to 
deal with your  problems. The trick to dealing with anything is to just 
accept it and simply  go on with your life. No one ever said that life is a 
bowl 
of cherries.  

What actually brought my kidney failure was that my community puts  down 
mulch around the houses here and there are always some bags left over  that 
they leave in front of the garages. Since I have some property behind my  home 
I decided to take and put that extra mulch there. Two days later I had a  
104 fever and had to go to the hospital. I had double pneumonia and had to be 
 in the hospital for three weeks. It was at that time my kidneys said good 
 bye and I was started on dialysis while in the hospital.

Maybe it also  had something to do with my job and the fact that when I 
lived in Staten  Island and there was an explosion of a benzine storage tank 
across the Author  Kill River in New Jersey that carried burnt benzine across 
the water way and  deposited it om my house and cars. About two months after 
I was diagnosed with  CML, and I later found out that several of my 
neighbors were also catering  to this disease called CML.

I am now on three waiting kidney transplant  lists just waiting for 
something to come about. I also have two potential live  donors but even with 
that 
it is still a very complicated waiting game. They  may or may not be a match 
for me but it takes a lot of time to get everything  in order.

One of my problems is that I was born with O+ blood type, and  when I had 
my bone marrow transplant my donor had B+ blood type. So, now my  blood type 
is B+. I am what is called a Chimera. Two different people living  in my 
body.

I always try to look at some humor in my life, it just  keeps me going I 
guess... So, what will happen if and when I get that kidney  transplant? Do 
you think there will be enough room in me for another person  living inside 
of me or am I just going to explode? 

I would like to wish you and everyone here a very  HEALTHY and happy 
holiday season. May your upcoming year be better then it has  been.

I also add my usual 18's to everyone.

Marty

On Mon, Dec 10, 2012 at 4:43 PM, _ICANDOALLTTC@aol.com_ 
(mailto:icandoall...@aol.com)  wrote:


Happy Holidays Marty,
Can you tell us again about your dialysis and why you are  on it?  Good 
luck to you in the coming year; you are truly a warrior;  and Millie also.
Jeanie3
 
 
In a message dated 12/10/2012 11:10:40 A.M. Eastern Standard Time, 
_houtz@ptd.net_ (mailto:ho...@ptd.net)  writes:

Hello again,  Marty,
 
I'm taking a  short break from decorating for the season.  I am about done. 
  It takes me a while to do little things, but in the end, I accomplish  it.
 
Yes, I know  that you're on dialysis and are a very strong individual.   I  
have always tried to be, but we all have our days when it doesn't  work.  I 
always say that I kick myself in the rear when I get  depressed, but it's 
getting impossible for my legs to do  that.:)))  I do try very hard to 
look at the bright side of  life.
 
Today I have  work to finish 

Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

2012-12-13 Thread Marty Gartenberg
Hi Jeanie,

I just want to comment on something you wrote.

but then I wonder what the drugs are doing to my body.  Well, the leukemia
kills, so better to just face it head on and live with it

Jeanie, now your getting the idea. No matter what your going through your
still alive to go through it...

I really feel badly for you loosing your hubby and at such a relatively
young age. I'm sure that it was and still is very difficult for you.

When I was first diagnoised with CML I thanked GOD that I got it rather
then my wife or children. I could live with me having it but not my wife or
children.

Take care of yourself and I wish you to have a very healthy and happy holiday
season.

18's

Marty



On Thu, Dec 13, 2012 at 4:17 PM, icandoall...@aol.com wrote:

 **
 Hi Marty and thanks so much; you sure sound like a warrior to me.  I love
 your response; just face it and try the best to live with it.

 In Jan I will start on my 9th year of being a CML warrior.  Gleevec and
 Tasigna failed me and I am now on Sprcel.  It is a struggle every day for
 me to take these chemo drugs.  I want to look at like you do, and most days
 I do, but then I wonder what the drugs are doing to my body.  Well, the
 leukemia kills, so better to just face it head on and live with it

 I lost my hubby when he was only 62 from heart disease caused by
 diabetes.  He struggled many years with it, having a by pass when he was
 52.  His heart just finally gave out.  He had the surgery where they split
 you open through the breast bone and take veins out of your legs to repair
 you clogged veins.

 Christmas is almost here and I love the season.  So Merry Christmas to you
 and a Happy New Year.
 Jeanie3



  In a message dated 12/11/2012 9:34:24 A.M. Eastern Standard Time,
 wa2...@gmail.com writes:

 Hi Jeanie,

 I'm not the warrior here because I have already gone through all of this.
 If anyone is a warrior here it is you and Millie and all the rest of the
 people with this disease. You are fighting and winning, and that is what
 this is all about isn't it?

 I read through all of the posts here and on other sites as well, and every
 one of them are warriors.

 I had to start on dialysis a little over one year ago. My kidneys have
 been failing for several years because of several factors. One being all of
 the radiation and chemotherapy I had almost twenty three years ago for my
 bone marrow transplant. Also as ageing comes about your kidneys become less
 effective. Not that I am an old fart but non the less it just happens.

 Who really knows, it could have been caused by many things but that is
 what I have, and I will just have to deal with it just as all of you have
 to deal with your problems. The trick to dealing with anything is to just
 accept it and simply go on with your life. No one ever said that life is a
 bowl of cherries.

 What actually brought my kidney failure was that my community puts down
 mulch around the houses here and there are always some bags left over that
 they leave in front of the garages. Since I have some property behind my
 home I decided to take and put that extra mulch there. Two days later I had
 a 104 fever and had to go to the hospital. I had double pneumonia and had
 to be in the hospital for three weeks. It was at that time my kidneys said
 good bye and I was started on dialysis while in the hospital.

 Maybe it also had something to do with my job and the fact that when I
 lived in Staten Island and there was an explosion of a benzine storage tank
 across the Author Kill River in New Jersey that carried burnt benzine
 across the water way and deposited it om my house and cars. About two
 months after I was diagnosed with CML, and I later found out that several
 of my neighbors were also catering to this disease called CML.

 I am now on three waiting kidney transplant lists just waiting for
 something to come about. I also have two potential live donors but even
 with that it is still a very complicated waiting game. They may or may not
 be a match for me but it takes a lot of time to get everything in order.

 One of my problems is that I was born with O+ blood type, and when I had
 my bone marrow transplant my donor had B+ blood type. So, now my blood type
 is B+. I am what is called a Chimera. Two different people living in my
 body.

 I always try to look at some humor in my life, it just keeps me going I
 guess... So, what will happen if and when I get that kidney transplant? Do
 you think there will be enough room in me for another person living
 inside of me or am I just going to explode? [?][?][?]


 I would like to wish you and everyone here a very HEALTHY and happy
 holiday season. May your upcoming year be better then it has been.

 I also add my usual 18's to everyone.

 Marty

 On Mon, Dec 10, 2012 at 4:43 PM, icandoall...@aol.com wrote:

 **
 Happy Holidays Marty,
 Can you tell us again about your dialysis and why you are on it?  Good
 luck to you in the coming year; you are truly a 

Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

2012-12-11 Thread Marty Gartenberg
Hi Jeanie,

I'm not the warrior here because I have already gone through all of this.
If anyone is a warrior here it is you and Millie and all the rest of the
people with this disease. You are fighting and winning, and that is what
this is all about isn't it?

I read through all of the posts here and on other sites as well, and every
one of them are warriors.

I had to start on dialysis a little over one year ago. My kidneys have been
failing for several years because of several factors. One being all of the
radiation and chemotherapy I had almost twenty three years ago for my bone
marrow transplant. Also as ageing comes about your kidneys become less
effective. Not that I am an old fart but non the less it just happens.

Who really knows, it could have been caused by many things but that is what
I have, and I will just have to deal with it just as all of you have to
deal with your problems. The trick to dealing with anything is to just
accept it and simply go on with your life. No one ever said that life is a
bowl of cherries.

What actually brought my kidney failure was that my community puts down
mulch around the houses here and there are always some bags left over that
they leave in front of the garages. Since I have some property behind my
home I decided to take and put that extra mulch there. Two days later I had
a 104 fever and had to go to the hospital. I had double pneumonia and had
to be in the hospital for three weeks. It was at that time my kidneys said
good bye and I was started on dialysis while in the hospital.

Maybe it also had something to do with my job and the fact that when I
lived in Staten Island and there was an explosion of a benzine storage tank
across the Author Kill River in New Jersey that carried burnt benzine
across the water way and deposited it om my house and cars. About two
months after I was diagnosed with CML, and I later found out that several
of my neighbors were also catering to this disease called CML.

I am now on three waiting kidney transplant lists just waiting for
something to come about. I also have two potential live donors but even
with that it is still a very complicated waiting game. They may or may not
be a match for me but it takes a lot of time to get everything in order.

One of my problems is that I was born with O+ blood type, and when I had my
bone marrow transplant my donor had B+ blood type. So, now my blood type is
B+. I am what is called a Chimera. Two different people living in my body.

I always try to look at some humor in my life, it just keeps me going I
guess... So, what will happen if and when I get that kidney transplant? Do
you think there will be enough room in me for another person living
inside of me or am I just going to explode? [?][?][?]

I would like to wish you and everyone here a very HEALTHY and happy holiday
season. May your upcoming year be better then it has been.

I also add my usual 18's to everyone.

Marty

On Mon, Dec 10, 2012 at 4:43 PM, icandoall...@aol.com wrote:

 **
 Happy Holidays Marty,
 Can you tell us again about your dialysis and why you are on it?  Good
 luck to you in the coming year; you are truly a warrior; and Millie also.
 Jeanie3

  In a message dated 12/10/2012 11:10:40 A.M. Eastern Standard Time,
 ho...@ptd.net writes:

 *Hello again, Marty,*
 **
 *I'm taking a short break from decorating for the season.  I am about
 done.  It takes me a while to do little things, but in the end, I
 accomplish it.*
 **
 *Yes, I know that you're on dialysis and are a very strong individual.
 I have always tried to be, but we all have our days when it doesn't work.
 I always say that I kick myself in the rear when I get depressed, but it's
 getting impossible for my legs to do that.:)))  I do try very hard to
 look at the bright side of life.*
 **
 *Today I have work to finish up for our quilt guild, so I plan on doing
 that.  I just keep plugging along like the turtle and in the end surprise
 myself at what I can do.*
 **
 *You have a wonderful day and know that you are admired by many CMLers.
 Your attitude is always uplifting.*
 *Millie*

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RE: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

2012-12-11 Thread Susan Zimmerman
It's always so good and uplifting to hear from you, Marty!!!  God bless.
Hope you can take dialysis in your home as the new wave of care is
happening.  My friend does that and she is so much happier because of it.
It works while you sleep during the night.

 

18's,

Susan zimmerman

 

From: cmlhope@googlegroups.com [mailto:cmlhope@googlegroups.com] On Behalf
Of Marty Gartenberg
Sent: Tuesday, December 11, 2012 9:34 AM
To: cmlhope@googlegroups.com
Subject: Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

 

Hi Jeanie,

I'm not the warrior here because I have already gone through all of this. If
anyone is a warrior here it is you and Millie and all the rest of the people
with this disease. You are fighting and winning, and that is what this is
all about isn't it? 

I read through all of the posts here and on other sites as well, and every
one of them are warriors.

I had to start on dialysis a little over one year ago. My kidneys have been
failing for several years because of several factors. One being all of the
radiation and chemotherapy I had almost twenty three years ago for my bone
marrow transplant. Also as ageing comes about your kidneys become less
effective. Not that I am an old fart but non the less it just happens.

Who really knows, it could have been caused by many things but that is what
I have, and I will just have to deal with it just as all of you have to deal
with your problems. The trick to dealing with anything is to just accept it
and simply go on with your life. No one ever said that life is a bowl of
cherries. 

What actually brought my kidney failure was that my community puts down
mulch around the houses here and there are always some bags left over that
they leave in front of the garages. Since I have some property behind my
home I decided to take and put that extra mulch there. Two days later I had
a 104 fever and had to go to the hospital. I had double pneumonia and had to
be in the hospital for three weeks. It was at that time my kidneys said
good bye and I was started on dialysis while in the hospital.

Maybe it also had something to do with my job and the fact that when I lived
in Staten Island and there was an explosion of a benzine storage tank across
the Author Kill River in New Jersey that carried burnt benzine across the
water way and deposited it om my house and cars. About two months after I
was diagnosed with CML, and I later found out that several of my neighbors
were also catering to this disease called CML.

I am now on three waiting kidney transplant lists just waiting for something
to come about. I also have two potential live donors but even with that it
is still a very complicated waiting game. They may or may not be a match for
me but it takes a lot of time to get everything in order.

One of my problems is that I was born with O+ blood type, and when I had my
bone marrow transplant my donor had B+ blood type. So, now my blood type is
B+. I am what is called a Chimera. Two different people living in my body.

I always try to look at some humor in my life, it just keeps me going I
guess... So, what will happen if and when I get that kidney transplant? Do
you think there will be enough room in me for another person living inside
of me or am I just going to explode? 

I would like to wish you and everyone here a very HEALTHY and happy holiday
season. May your upcoming year be better then it has been.

I also add my usual 18's to everyone.

Marty

On Mon, Dec 10, 2012 at 4:43 PM, icandoall...@aol.com wrote:

Happy Holidays Marty,

Can you tell us again about your dialysis and why you are on it?  Good luck
to you in the coming year; you are truly a warrior; and Millie also.

Jeanie3

 

In a message dated 12/10/2012 11:10:40 A.M. Eastern Standard Time,
ho...@ptd.net writes:

Hello again, Marty,

 

I'm taking a short break from decorating for the season.  I am about done.
It takes me a while to do little things, but in the end, I accomplish it.

 

Yes, I know that you're on dialysis and are a very strong individual.   I
have always tried to be, but we all have our days when it doesn't work.  I
always say that I kick myself in the rear when I get depressed, but it's
getting impossible for my legs to do that.:)))  I do try very hard to
look at the bright side of life.

 

Today I have work to finish up for our quilt guild, so I plan on doing that.
I just keep plugging along like the turtle and in the end surprise myself at
what I can do.

 

You have a wonderful day and know that you are admired by many CMLers. Your
attitude is always uplifting.

Millie

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Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

2012-12-11 Thread Marty Gartenberg
Hi Susan,

I have also tried doing that but it didn't work. It is called peritoneal
dialysis and a catheter is placed into your abdomen and you infuse special
bags of glucose based dialyses.

It was able to go into but it didn't come out and I had to get another
round of surgery to remove it. My abdomen is full of scars from all of that
because they tried doing it three times but it just didn't work.

Since I also had my spleen removed because of having CML that also left a
big scar in my abdomen so that was probably another problem for not being
able to do the peritoneal dialysis at home.

Believe me if is out there then I am going to find out about it. I even
tried stem cell therapy to try and help my kidneys, but it also didn't
work. However, what it did do was to get rid of my diabetes.

I used to be on insulin but now I don't need any more of that, and my sugar
levels are around 98 to about 110 in the mornings. Since insurance didn't
cover it I had to pay, and it was very expensive to say the least.

If I do get a kidney transplant I will have to be on immunosurpressive
drugs for the rest of my life and they usually but not always cause
diabetes.

So, that's about it and I am just  like Pop Eye the sailor man... I am what
I am.

It's all about attitude and most of all, hope. I would like you to read
something that was posted by someone about me.

Go to:

http://talkbloodcancer.com/content/window-martin-gartenberg

Or simply Google my name Marty Gartenberg and look for something called The
Window.

I wrote this over twenty years ago and I have seen it plagiarized several
times. Some were not very nice but I can't stop people from doing what they
do...

18's and have a wonderful and most of all a very HEALTHY and happy holiday
season.

And by the way, GOD has blessed me. Out of transplant going on 23 years
this May 21st. It was actually on my 45th birthday that I received my bone
marrow transplant, and I'm still here. Some birthday gift, huh?

However, this really isn't about me because as I previously stated, I am
finished with my CML, it is about all of you. I know what each and every
one of you is going through and it breaks my heart just because I know.

But you know something? You are also blessed by GOD because your still
here. Even though you have some difficulties in your life from having to
take these TKI's you are also here as well.

How I would have wished that they would have been there for me at the time
rather having to go through that bone marrow transplant... Water under the
bridge, and I still go on.

Again, 18's

Marty

On Tue, Dec 11, 2012 at 10:19 AM, Susan Zimmerman rszim0...@aol.com wrote:

 It’s always so good and uplifting to hear from you, Marty!!!  God bless.
 Hope you can take dialysis in your home as the new wave of care is
 happening.  My friend does that and she is so much happier because of it.
 It works while you sleep during the night.

 ** **

 18’s,

 Susan zimmerman

 ** **

 *From:* cmlhope@googlegroups.com [mailto:cmlhope@googlegroups.com] *On
 Behalf Of *Marty Gartenberg
 *Sent:* Tuesday, December 11, 2012 9:34 AM
 *To:* cmlhope@googlegroups.com
 *Subject:* Re: [CMLHope] why are you on dialysis?

 ** **

 Hi Jeanie,

 I'm not the warrior here because I have already gone through all of this.
 If anyone is a warrior here it is you and Millie and all the rest of the
 people with this disease. You are fighting and winning, and that is what
 this is all about isn't it?

 I read through all of the posts here and on other sites as well, and every
 one of them are warriors.

 I had to start on dialysis a little over one year ago. My kidneys have
 been failing for several years because of several factors. One being all of
 the radiation and chemotherapy I had almost twenty three years ago for my
 bone marrow transplant. Also as ageing comes about your kidneys become less
 effective. Not that I am an old fart but non the less it just happens.

 Who really knows, it could have been caused by many things but that is
 what I have, and I will just have to deal with it just as all of you have
 to deal with your problems. The trick to dealing with anything is to just
 accept it and simply go on with your life. No one ever said that life is a
 bowl of cherries.

 What actually brought my kidney failure was that my community puts down
 mulch around the houses here and there are always some bags left over that
 they leave in front of the garages. Since I have some property behind my
 home I decided to take and put that extra mulch there. Two days later I had
 a 104 fever and had to go to the hospital. I had double pneumonia and had
 to be in the hospital for three weeks. It was at that time my kidneys said
 good bye and I was started on dialysis while in the hospital.

 Maybe it also had something to do with my job and the fact that when I
 lived in Staten Island and there was an explosion of a benzine storage tank
 across the Author Kill River in New Jersey