Re: Goodbye, Olive...
Megan, You did all you could. Olive knew that. take care, tonya Megan Heikkinen <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan
RE: Goodbye, Olive...
Megan, I'm so sad to hear about Olive, but she's at peace and you can be too. Sometimes the hardest part is not knowing. It's easier to know what's going to happen-good or bad. Then we can deal with it-it's the not knowing part that's so hard. Now that this hardest part is over, you can heal and come to terms with the situation. I loved the pictures of Olive-thanks for sharing. She was very beautiful! I no longer have an FeLV kitty, but I still read and post on this site mainly because I want to open a sanctuary someday, and I want to know as much as I can about FeLV and how to treat it. Of course I can't afford to open a sanctuary now, but someday. So, you could stay on this list if you want. Sometimes it's just nice to know you have friends out there. Unfortunately, my posts tend to be off-topic since I'm not treating an FeLV kitty, but I'm still able to learn quite a bit from these guys. Best of luck in school! I certainly miss taking and teaching classes. I might need to sign up for a class for fun to take care of my school-addiction! The workplace is so overrated. Melissa -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Megan Heikkinen Sent: Friday, August 31, 2007 10:56 PM To: felvtalk Subject: Goodbye, Olive... Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan
RE: Goodbye, Olive...
Oh megan, My heart breaks for you. Little Olive was indeed a beautiful girl as her siblings. She is out of pain. May your heart heal fast and memories always fill your heart with absolute love. kayte and Crackers ** Get a sneak peek of the all-new AOL at http://discover.aol.com/memed/aolcom30tour
Re: Goodbye, Olive...
Megan, I'm so sorry. She was a beautiful little girl. It is so unfair. Her siblings are very beautiful too. Make sure you give them extra vitamins and iron just to make sure they stay strong. I think it is very lucky they have tested negative. This means they did not contract this disease through their mom. You have been a great joy to me, just because it is so wonderful to see a person so full of love and compassion. People like the people here on this list do restore my faith in people. There is so much unkindness in this world. Hearing about how all this has ended did break my heart. My eyes get cleaned out every morning here...I know we were all hoping so badly everything would turn out perfect. Your other little guys deserve your attention now. I'm sure this has been awful for them too. You have learned so much here ,as have we all. You have also made a lot of friends. I'm sure you will always be able to find a friend here who will remember you. I really loved your pictures! They were very easy to access too! Thank you Megan. Now it is back to thinking about school. You will have a wonderful life. Sending our love and best wishes always, Glenda and family --- Megan Heikkinen <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was > probably the toughest decision > of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the > first being to decide to let > Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day > yesterday and today with > her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My > roommate and I sat by her > for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to > go, that she'd take one last > looking like she'd already passed. At one point she > looked like she was really > gone, aside from the very slight rising of her > chest, and then she rolled over > and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... > it was heartbreaking. > > This morning I had thought about trying to save her, > but in my heart I feel > that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps > there was a slight chance > I truly could have saved her and reversed the > anemia--but I have a feeling it > wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want > to put Olive through more > suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but > if I had tried to keep > her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my > own selfish reasons. I will > miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out > easy. I am sorry that I > could not give her a longer life, but at least the > one she had was a great > one. She was one of the best kitties ever. > > The vet called me this afternoon asking for an > update, and I told him of my > decision, but that I still didn't know which way to > go about it. He told me > he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so > I told him I might call > back. After discussing it with my roommate and > boyfriend, I called back. It > was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last > meal of tuna before > parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and > I was happy to see her > gobble up quite a bit of it. > > Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on > left, Kudzu on right) > > She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many > good photos of her... > > Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean > to come off as ungrateful > in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, > and so confused. I'm > feeling better now, because I know I did the right > thing, as awful as it was. > > I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may > eventually leave this list, > as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for > some time being... But I'll > stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. > > -Megan > > > > Be a better Heartthrob. Get better relationship answers from someone who knows. Yahoo! Answers - Check it out. http://answers.yahoo.com/dir/?link=list&sid=396545433
Re: Goodbye, Olive...
I am so sorry Megan. It is heartbreaking. Olive was lucky to have found you to experience your love and care. She was a beautiful kittie. Jane tunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan "When you are in the service of your fellow beings, you are only in the service of your God" Mosiah 2:17 __ __ Boardwalk for $500? In 2007? Ha! Play Monopoly Here and Now (it's updated for today's economy) at Yahoo! Games. http://get.games.yahoo.com/proddesc?gamekey=monopolyherenow
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Oh Megan, I am so sorry. I know what you went through. I never had a chance to think about euth for Ki. It happened so fast. He was only 14 mo, and it WAS too young to die. Olive looks just like my little Anklet...that cute little white spot on their jaw. God grant you peace, Dede --- Megan Heikkinen <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was > probably the toughest decision > of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the > first being to decide to let > Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day > yesterday and today with > her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My > roommate and I sat by her > for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to > go, that she'd take one last > looking like she'd already passed. At one point she > looked like she was really > gone, aside from the very slight rising of her > chest, and then she rolled over > and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... > it was heartbreaking. > > This morning I had thought about trying to save her, > but in my heart I feel > that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps > there was a slight chance > I truly could have saved her and reversed the > anemia--but I have a feeling it > wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want > to put Olive through more > suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but > if I had tried to keep > her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my > own selfish reasons. I will > miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out > easy. I am sorry that I > could not give her a longer life, but at least the > one she had was a great > one. She was one of the best kitties ever. > > The vet called me this afternoon asking for an > update, and I told him of my > decision, but that I still didn't know which way to > go about it. He told me > he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so > I told him I might call > back. After discussing it with my roommate and > boyfriend, I called back. It > was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last > meal of tuna before > parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and > I was happy to see her > gobble up quite a bit of it. > > Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG > http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on > left, Kudzu on right) > > She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many > good photos of her... > > Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean > to come off as ungrateful > in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, > and so confused. I'm > feeling better now, because I know I did the right > thing, as awful as it was. > > I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may > eventually leave this list, > as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for > some time being... But I'll > stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. > > -Megan > > > > "When you are in the service of your fellow beings, you are only in the service of your God" Mosiah 2:17 Boardwalk for $500? In 2007? Ha! Play Monopoly Here and Now (it's updated for today's economy) at Yahoo! Games. http://get.games.yahoo.com/proddesc?gamekey=monopolyherenow
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Megan I am so sorry you lost sweet little Olive.she was adorable.Hugs to you Sherry Megan Heikkinen <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan - Park yourself in front of a world of choices in alternative vehicles. Visit the Yahoo! Auto Green Center.
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Ahhh, a beautiful little tuxie girl. Siamese & tuxies, my favorites. :) Tuxies are all dressed up in their party clothes all the time.. But I love them all. Thank you for sharing her photos w/us. Susan J. DuBose >^..^< www.PetGirlsPetsitting.com www.Tx.SiameseRescue.org www.shadowcats.net "As Cleopatra lay in state, Faithful Bast at her side did wait, Purring welcomes of soft applause, Ever guarding with sharpened claws." Trajan Tennent - Original Message - From: "Megan Heikkinen" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: "felvtalk" Sent: Friday, August 31, 2007 10:56 PM Subject: Goodbye, Olive... Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan
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I'm so sorry, Megan. She was a very lucky cat to have you. And we are all so blessed to have them in our lives for the short time that we do. Please take care of yourself. Susan J. DuBose >^..^< www.PetGirlsPetsitting.com www.Tx.SiameseRescue.org www.shadowcats.net "As Cleopatra lay in state, Faithful Bast at her side did wait, Purring welcomes of soft applause, Ever guarding with sharpened claws." Trajan Tennent - Original Message - From: "Megan Heikkinen" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: "felvtalk" Sent: Friday, August 31, 2007 10:56 PM Subject: Goodbye, Olive... Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan
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Hang around a while. The support here is great and you sound like you really need it. Olive is beautiful and very grateful that you loved her and took good care of her. Let her visit you and calm you.just ask her to drop in one night while you are asleep and receptive to her. If you have men who will exclude any of God's creatures from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow man. St. Francis - Original Message - From: "Megan Heikkinen" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: "felvtalk" Sent: Friday, August 31, 2007 10:56 PM Subject: Goodbye, Olive... Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan
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Megan, I'm so sorry Olive had to leave you. Gentle Bridge vibes to her, and hugs to you. Yes, she was way too young. (I like to think that the ones who die young are given another chance. If it's true, I hope Olive finds you again.) And thank you for the pictures -- she was absolutely beautiful. As are Juniper and Kudzu. What a sweet picture of all of them. I think you did the right thing, and I don't blame you for agonizing over the decision. It's in our nature to keep hoping against all odds. Diane R. -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Megan Heikkinen Sent: Friday, August 31, 2007 10:56 PM To: felvtalk Subject: Goodbye, Olive... Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan
Re: Goodbye, Olive...
Megan, I'm so sorry. She's beautiful and your love for her has come through all of your message loud and clear. GLOW to light her path and ease your heart. Barb+Smoky the House Puma+El Bandito Malito "My cat the clown: paying no mind to whom he should impress. Merely living his life, doing what pleases him, and making me smile." - Anonymous - Original Message From: Megan Heikkinen <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> To: felvtalk Sent: Friday, August 31, 2007 10:56:23 PM Subject: Goodbye, Olive... Unfortunately, I had to resort to PTS. It was probably the toughest decision of my life--or at least, the second toughest, the first being to decide to let Olive go in the first place. I spent most of the day yesterday and today with her, and it was miserable watching her fade away. My roommate and I sat by her for hours today. I kept thinking she was about to go, that she'd take one last looking like she'd already passed. At one point she looked like she was really gone, aside from the very slight rising of her chest, and then she rolled over and stretched out, almost as if she were alright... it was heartbreaking. This morning I had thought about trying to save her, but in my heart I feel that it would have done more harm than good. Perhaps there was a slight chance I truly could have saved her and reversed the anemia--but I have a feeling it wouldn't have worked out that way, and I didn't want to put Olive through more suffering. She was too young to succumb to this, but if I had tried to keep her alive, I feel that it would've been out of my own selfish reasons. I will miss her so much, but I am glad that she went out easy. I am sorry that I could not give her a longer life, but at least the one she had was a great one. She was one of the best kitties ever. The vet called me this afternoon asking for an update, and I told him of my decision, but that I still didn't know which way to go about it. He told me he'd be at the clinic for about 20 more minutes, so I told him I might call back. After discussing it with my roommate and boyfriend, I called back. It was terrible. But at least Olive got to enjoy a last meal of tuna before parting this world. She'd not eaten in a while, and I was happy to see her gobble up quite a bit of it. Here are some photos of Olive, if you're interested: http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/olive2.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/babyolive.JPG http://web.utk.edu/~mheikkin/kittens.JPG (Juniper on left, Kudzu on right) She was not very photogenic, so I don't have many good photos of her... Thank you guys for all of your help. I did not mean to come off as ungrateful in one of my previous emails. I was in so much pain, and so confused. I'm feeling better now, because I know I did the right thing, as awful as it was. I wish you and all your kitties good luck. I may eventually leave this list, as I should hopefully no longer have use of it for some time being... But I'll stay on for a bit. Thank you, everyone, so much. -Megan Ready for the edge of your seat? Check out tonight's top picks on Yahoo! TV. http://tv.yahoo.com/
RE: Goodbye, Olive...
Olive was a beautiful little cat! The baby picture is great. Remember her like that.
RE: Goodbye, Olive...
I am so sorry..I was watching these threads to see how things went with Olive bec. I am dealing something similar right now. But the fact that you struggled and finally arrived at PTS simply says that you cared enough to make the best decision and sometimes PTS is the best choice. Olive most likely would not have recovered although I know that some folks here have had success dealing with anemia, I never have. Olive at least had the opportunity to be loved and cared for, even for a short time, so many cats and especially, FeLV+ never have that chance. Don't be sad too long. tracy
