> It worked so well that we decided to do something similar but this time
> for a huge article in a zine.
> So,if you're interested,you just gotta answer these questions:
>
>
> -Your name/age/place where you live
>
I am Richard Davies, alias Smats. I am about 21 years old...if i
counted rightly. I live in reading, united kingdom.
> -Description of yourself (brief,long,it's up to you, but brief will be
> better of course!)
I really don't know whether a description of myself by myself would be
pretty valid, but here goes. I am a student, with high ambitions to reach
the stars, the horizon and just about everything else. Music is the
be-all and end-all of my life. I am a competent musician, but I have such
a passion for music that i can only devote my entire life to it....when i
leave university, I intend to try my best to start a band and get
signed...i don't really care where, as long as i can survive i will be ok.
I also think i have a lot to say. I think i can pretty much give somebody
an idea of what THE truth is. There's nothing arrogant about this - i
think everyone sees the truth, but they do not want to accept it.
Luckily, or unluckily, my life has progressed to make me see things
differently than a lot of people, and that is why i've come this far. I
want to share what i know, even though i think that knowing the truth will
have no particular value to almost anyone...but to negate it would be
denying you a great part of me. As a person, i try my best to act as
honestly as possible, except when the situation arises that i shouldn't
because it will threaten me. This doesn't make me a hypocrite. It makes
me sensible.
I would say i am a very active person. I think i must have some sort of
speed gland or something. I had sitting on my little ass and doing
nothing. While i have this life i wanna fucking squeeze every last drop
out of it. Even though i think i am pretty hypocritical here, as i have
lots of restraints on myself, i do not think they will be there
forever....i just have priorities now.
A lot of people here will think i am an arrogant dreamer. If you do, i
can certainly understand why you think so, but i'd also like to put a big
"fuck you" your way if it is indeed necessary. I am not arrogant. I am
simply little more than a machine, which over the years has experienced
many things that has shaped it. I've seen death, i've seen lost
oppurtunity, i've seen myself standing in line because i cared so much
about what other people thought. ANd.....i have eventually concluded that
I am not going to waste my life in the place i have been ordained for by
my family and society. I am not ending up in a squeakily clean office,
with only a fucking thousand insurance claims the product of my life. I
do not want to do something that somebody else could so easily do in my
place. I reject this, and want to at least try to make something good
with my life. I could fail miserably, and certain conditions can easily
bring this......but i'd prefer to fail trying than to send my dreams to
oblivion. I believe i can achieve a lot of things......it all depends on
whether i actually work and calculate how i am going to get them. That is
the only way people get what they want. I am not an idealist, but i'm not
a slimy corporate bastard either. I have my own set of ideals which i
didn't choose--it just hurts when i break them. I don't dig religon's
teachings personally.....I do not do things with just pure faith that
they will bring good, or because my parents and society have told me to
be like. In a lot of ways, society is pretty inescapable. I'm
certainly a product of it. I am nowhere near perfect, and as long as i
am human, it will never change. it will be interesting to see how things
develop and change during my life.
I cannot much else think of what to describe myself as. I am of average
intelligence, i like sausages, chips and curries. Lucozade is a fine
drink. George Orwell was, in my opinion a great writer. All these things
make me. I guess this has been long, sounded pretentious and arrogant,
but i wanted to do it. I was wondering does anyone feel like me? If
there is i'd probably hate you, which just shows what a hypocrite i am! I
think i know what the truth is, but my emotions won't let me accept it.
And good for them. I do not want to be cold and heartless. they make me
laugh and cry. sometimes i wish i felt nothing, but that's because i want
the unhappiness to end. i cannot change or choose to change.....and my
lifes been a pretty lucky life so far. i just hope i don't get tempted my
the mundanity that i feel is facing me right now. it's soo comfortable.
i hope i get given the ammo to fight it.
to all those who read that, sorry.
>
> -Can you tell us about any record(s) that changed your life?
I used to love cheesy songs as a kid, liked school hymns even. I
digged classical for ages as well, esp. Tchaikovsky, Bizet, Ravel etc.
But the first record that really changed my life was Midlife Crisis by
Faith No More. That opened so many doors to me. It felt like entering
another world. From there, i got into all the typical metal/grunge bands,
and a lot of them i still love. Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Alice In Chains, even
Deicide came and, in the case of the latter, went. I really got into
stuff like sepultura, queen(quite a contrast, you'd think),nine inch
nails and others. The journey's been long, but tonnes of great bands have
turned up in my life. Like, i remember watching this program and
listening to this track called "Kill the Sexplayer". God! It sounded so
shit! But there was something unique about that. That track came back,
and this time, my predetermined thoughts that conditioned my initial
thoughts of records subsided. A lot of records you like straight away can
become pretty worthless eventually. When music comes as a challenge, it
can be very rewarding. Stuff like Mr. Bungle, Scott Walker, GVSB all made
their mark. I love these records. Getting back onto the records that
changed my life, there is too many to mention - FNM - Angel Dust, Scott
Walker, Tilt. GVSB - House, Cruise/ Placebo's first, Deftones,
Sepultura's roots(esp. lookaway)....Suede - Dog Man Star, the two mr.
BUngle Albums. There is hundreds more. I thank god they keep on coming.
I have just made a tape for my girlfriend(we've sort of split up, but on a
physical and even a mental level it is not over....it's going to fuck me
up! i could've walked away, but SHOT! this time the lion bit out my
BRAIN!)...it's got Tool, Sepultura, Joshua, Scott Walker, Whipping Boy,
Faith No More, Fantomas, and more on there. It's pretty varied stuff i am
listening to at the moment.
>
> -What are the most crazy things that happened/that you've seen at a show
> ?
>
I got off with the singer of placebo. That was pretty damn crazy. Seeing
some screaming Mansun fans in army surplus clothing was quite funny...they
were more like TT fans that alternative fans, but hey, that just shows us
something......not much other stuff slightly crazy has happened. seeing
one of your favorite bands supporting a another of your favourites(DCFC,
at Placebo), without a hint of knowledge they were playing before they
GOT ON STAGE was pretty amazing. wow.
hope you enjoyed reading this.
love
smats xxxxx
>
> thanks a bunch.
>
>
> Later,
>
> Jimmy.
>
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