May I just tell all of you how fantastic you all are! Thank you so much! have had so many of you contact me both on and off the list, and I have just written this to Cody, which is by way of an update and might make my thoughts a bit clearer to you guys?
Thank you so much for taking time out to write to me. I do know how lucky we are and I think in a way that's why I felt so angry with my husband. He did get TM from a flu shot in Dec 2000, and is now the very best he has been health wise since then. Every specialist back, neuro ETC has told us through the years that they and their families DO NOT HAVE THESE JABS!!!! Roger has avoided them on that basis and because of what happened to him in 2000. That is why I am so shocked that he would put himself in grave danger. The consequences of his actions in having this pneumonia shot could make him far worse, and he may have to cancel the spinal implant op he is due to have in May. Which we fort very hard for. He has under gone intensive physio at the end of 2006 to enable him to have this op..........so I see it as him trying to sabotage our current life and his op. I have had counseling so that I could grief about the loss of my husband's fitness and mood swings etc and to come to terms with being his career on an on-going basis. I resolved all of those issues and felt we were going from strength to strength. I am now not sure how much I respect him anymore, and do know that if his level of disability increases as a result of this shot I will not be able to continue as it was self inflicted. He is not an idiot which makes this harder to bear. I feel I am being totally rational, and this the only way I have managed to calm down and stop crying by giving myself permission to leave if I have to. I am what I am...... as they say! Kind regards Sally in the UK
