Jude, It's funny, I was just thinking the exact same thing before I logged into my computer. I was thinking about where I stand in this life time. What do I have to offer to being a meaningful person. Being a C4 Quad, I have no movement on the right side and limited movement on the left side. This leaves me unable to perform the most meager task. I was wondering, what is there left for me? I can't do anything, I can't go anywhere alone, I don't produce anything. Does that mean that I have no place in this world? I had been working a full-time job, since the age of 15. I am now 50 years old. In those years, I did a lot of different type of work. All of it producing something. Now all I produce is work for someone else to do... caring for me. Is this my destiny? Usually I'm pretty upbeat and take things in stride. I rely on my faith in God, to get me through most days, but today I just feel a little depressed. Maybe I need to up my Cymbalta dosage. I come to this message board, because I know that someone here will understand and sympathize with me. I agree with Jude, when she stays that our friends and family can't really relate to what we actually feel. I just needed a shoulder to cry on for today. Thanks for being there for me.
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