I'm so disapointed that the AVM surgery made no difference in my condition.
Five difficult weeks in the hospital... and what for? For nothing. I'm
sorry I said yes when the surgeon asked if I were willing to let him get into
my spinal cord and... I think it meant untwisting tangled up spagetti like or
something like that. I don't know. He was so happy with the result! I'm just
as bad as before if not worse.
I can't bring myself to see the neurologist. It's all so useless and
hopeless.
I read your emails and you seem so brave. I'm not. I think about those of
us who are at the hospital as I write this, who may or may not do well. I hope
to hear that they are doing well.
Anyway, I think it would be a good idea if I started to write a story. A
children's story. I have an idea. Are any of you writers and writing
something currently?
It's obious that I'm thinking and babbling aloud, not talking to you,
thinking to you, babbling to you. I feel better already. So kind of you to
lend me your ear. I hope you're enjoying yourselves, vacationing or what not.
I'm going to bed.
Stay as well as you can. I'll try to do the same.
In friendship.
R
