Dear Sal, You're certainly entitled to vent. I know I've done it big time and this group has been wonderful and supportive. I was diagnosed with TM four years ago and my symptoms are nothing compared to yours, but still, at times, I do feel sorry for myself. I don't think there is anything wrong with that (as long as I don't overdo it and don't drive anyone nuts around me).
I always listen to your suggestions and your experiences with interest. You're an interesting young man who has obviously done a lot of research about this awful condition. Vent all you like. You'll always have an ear in me. By the way, your mom must be very proud of you. I wish you well.