>When people told you that they wanted a dog just like Taz, they >didnt' realize that much of what they saw in him, you gave him.
Yes, I often told people that as well, that they don't ever come just born that way, but he certainly made my job easy. >I want you to stop thinking about things being different had you taken him >to the vet sooner. It would NOT have been different if he had a tumor that >was bleeding out . It would NOT have been different and there is nothing >good that can come of thinking those thoughts. Intellectually I know that but I just can't get past feeling that if we'd had those two hours and he wasn't so unstable they would have at least been able to diagnose the issue for sure and perhaps at least go in an repair the bleed. I know his long-term survival would not have been great, so maybe it would have been selfish to put him through that regardless. But it would have meant so much to have those extra months and more time to prepare for this, and he just was such a happy, vital dog still, and such a little fighter...even at the vet's they initially were giving me relatively positive reports about him sitting up and I was kind of lulled into thinking he was going to be okay. It really was such a short time from when they told me they were losing him and needed to do CPR to when we decided to put him to sleep. It just happened so fast. I also think about that last visit to my own vet when I pointed out some of the lumps he had on his stomach, which he kind of just shrugged off. Taz had fatty lipomas in many places, but I just really had a feeling that there was more there to be concerned about but didn't press the issue (as I usually don't.) It's hard not to feel like I failed him, and could have done more, and I know that's not a good way to be thinking but I'll just have to find a way to come to terms with it. >You did a wonderful job with him and its very sad >that he was suddenly taken from you. We must remember that while its much >more horrible for us when our beloved fur family members die suddenly, its >better for them not to suffer. Yeah, it's not a huge consolation right now but I always did hope and pray that he would not suffer in his old age, and that certainly is how things turned out. For those that missed it, the article I wrote on him is at: http://blog.cfwebstore.com/index.cfm/2008/5/25/An-Amazing-Life I keep adding photos to it and more about him, which helps me think more about all the wonderful times we had, but I think it's starting to get a bit long so will have to constrain myself for now! --- Mary Jo ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~| Adobe® ColdFusion® 8 software 8 is the most important and dramatic release to date Get the Free Trial http://ad.doubleclick.net/clk;192386516;25150098;k Archive: http://www.houseoffusion.com/groups/CF-Community/message.cfm/messageid:260769 Subscription: http://www.houseoffusion.com/groups/CF-Community/subscribe.cfm Unsubscribe: http://www.houseoffusion.com/cf_lists/unsubscribe.cfm?user=89.70.5
