On Sun, Jun 19, 2022, 7:47 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many <gmk...@gmail.com> wrote:
> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 - i started logging publicly to the list > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> again. > >>>>>>>> i > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> started > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> by just logging time spent on planning and thinking > about > >>>>>>>> it. > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> after > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> two attempts i was able to do it rather than think about > >>>>>>>> it, with > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> effort. > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 0456 ET: [x] 10 seconds cold water after warm > >>>>>>>> water, > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> hard > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-10 1223 ET: [x] 10 seconds warm, 10 seconds > cold. > >>>>>>>> easy. > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> food after. > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-11 0553 [X] 10 warm 10 cold with food > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-11 1247 [x] 10w 10c food easy > >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 0217 [x] 9w 11c food after medium-easy > >>>>>>>> >>>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-12 0848 [x] 8w 13c food after medium-easy > >>>>>>>> >>>>> > >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 1852 [x] long w 13c food after medium-easy > >>>>>>>> >>>> > >>>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-13 0922 [x] 8w 13c food after medium-hard > >>>>>>>> >>> > >>>>>>>> >> 2022-06-13 1851 [x] long w 13c food after medium-hard > >>>>>>>> >> > >>>>>>>> > 2022-06-14 0702 [x] medium w 13c with food > >>>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> 2022-06-14 2019 [x] 8/20w 13/31c food after, medium-easy > >>>>>>> > >>>>>>> > >>>>>>>> 2022-06-15 0824 [x] 8+13/? c food after, medium-easy, outdoors > >>>>>>> > >>>>>>> 2022-06-15 1435 [x] 8+14/40c food after, irrational state of mind, > >>>>>> indoors > >>>>>> > >>>>> 2022-06-16 1502 69F 20/1:25cold 68F food after, easy, indoors > >>>>> > >>>> 2022-06-17 1051 21/1:04cold 67.4F food after, medium-easy, indoors > >>>> > >>> 2022-06-17 1929 unk warm, 22/1:20 cold, 58.8F, food after, medium, > >>> indoors > >>> > >> 2022-06-18 0921 53.7F 22/1:12 cold with food medium-hard > >> > > 2022-06-18 1653 53.7F 22/1:20 cold with hot food medium > > 2022-06-19 0736 56.4F 12/:30 cold + 22/1:15 cold with warm food, > medium-hard > 2022-06-20 0547 61.7F 22/1:36 with food and sugar cookie, hard to start, > medium to do > Really hard to start, sugar cookie helped a lot. Also warmed food. I think > sticking with lower temperatures would be easier if I dropped the time when > dropping the temperature erratically at first. After a count of around 6 it > got much easier. The sugar cookie taken right after onset seemed more > impactful than the warm food after.