--- TurquoiseB wrote: > So, does anyone have any cool old relics > they'd love to rap about? Things that uplift > and inspire you consistently, and are thus > of value to you on your spiritual path?
The very first to come to mind are the most prominent of all to me: my children. They definitely are consistently uplifting to me, and at the two lowest points in my life, their presence turned me firmly away from the notion of "disappearing" or giving suicide any further thought. They are truly the kindest, gentlest, and straightest guides for my spiritual path. Loss seems to be a significant tool of learning for me (maybe has to do with Saturn as my main planet). When I decided to have a child, I thought events would go along like normal: I'd conceive, carry, deliver, and tada! I'd be a mom. Then I miscarried 5 times in a row. I gave up on anything being "normal". Then suddenly I was 3 months pregnant, but I could not take anything for granted. By that time I was hopeful for a healthy baby but also prepared to deal with another miscarriage. I took that pregnancy literally one day at a time, always planning for both outcomes. Only when I held her in my arms moments after her birth did I let myself believe that I finally had a baby -- that I had finally been entrusted with the care of another's soul (but only for that moment -- always wondering when she would be ripped away from this life...). That whole experience was an arduous 3-year lesson in non- attachment. By the time she appeared I was just so humbly grateful for her to have hung in there with me all the way through. Although I carry authority as her mother and I know she needs that to grow, in my heart she is my saint and it is there I kneel to her in devotion every day.
