--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "ispiritkin" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > --- TurquoiseB wrote: > > So, does anyone have any cool old relics > > they'd love to rap about? Things that uplift > > and inspire you consistently, and are thus > > of value to you on your spiritual path? > > The very first to come to mind are the most prominent of all to me: my > children. They definitely are consistently uplifting to me, and at the > two lowest points in my life, their presence turned me firmly away from > the notion of "disappearing" or giving suicide any further thought. > They are truly the kindest, gentlest, and straightest guides for my > spiritual path. > > Loss seems to be a significant tool of learning for me (maybe has to do > with Saturn as my main planet). When I decided to have a child, I > thought events would go along like normal: I'd conceive, carry, > deliver, and tada! I'd be a mom. > > Then I miscarried 5 times in a row. I gave up on anything > being "normal". Then suddenly I was 3 months pregnant, but I could not > take anything for granted. By that time I was hopeful for a healthy > baby but also prepared to deal with another miscarriage. I took that > pregnancy literally one day at a time, always planning for both > outcomes. Only when I held her in my arms moments after her birth did > I let myself believe that I finally had a baby -- that I had finally > been entrusted with the care of another's soul (but only for that > moment -- always wondering when she would be ripped away from this > life...). That whole experience was an arduous 3-year lesson in non- > attachment. By the time she appeared I was just so humbly grateful for > her to have hung in there with me all the way through. > > Although I carry authority as her mother and I know she needs that to > grow, in my heart she is my saint and it is there I kneel to her in > devotion every day. > Beautiful thoughts-- thanks for a really uplifting post. My daughter is also a wonderful inspiration to me because of her clarity, her silence, her natural empathy for others, her friendliness and her sense of humor. It has been a complete joy to raise her, and as she graduates from high school this year I want nothing more than to continue our close bond.
Funnily enough after spending so much of my life reaching a point where I can think and act clearly in the moment, she takes it all for granted and has no interest in overt spiritual practice at all-- she just naturally lives it and always has.
