That word is "opinion." Recently on this forum, a discussion...uh...arose that I perceived as a kind of "dick-size contest." Someone mentioned a film that he'd liked, describing it as "very trippy," although "probably WAY too weird for Joe and Jane Public."
Because I was out of posts, I responded to that poster in email saying that I had recently seen the movie and found it "unwatchable." Said poster then...uh...reacted by taunting me in a later post to "share my 'expert critic' analysis on the film with folks here." He was obviously affronted by the fact that my opinion about the film differed from his. Because I love rapping about films, I did so. I used the taunt as an opportunity to write up a Tantric melding of that film ("Synecdoche, New York") with something no one else on Earth would probably compare to it, the TV series "Dollhouse." In that rap, I explained a little *why* I found it unwatchable, carefully peppering my rap with the words (in capital letters) "FOR ME," trying my best to indicate that this *was* pure opinion, not a declaration of fact or "truth" about the film. I then had fun rapping about other aspects of film and television that I found fascinating, *as opinion*. The original poster seems to have reacted strongly enough to the expression of OPINION that differed from *his* OPINION to have written a long "resume" of his experience and "track record" with regard to appreciation of the film arts, in which he found the need to refer to himself 69 times. He then challenged me to present MY "credentials." I bowed out of the contest. Several here "piled on" to accuse me of cowardice for bowing out. At the time, I thought that this was the right way to go, because I really have VERY little interest in dick- size contests, whether they are about declaring one's OPINION about a film "better" than another, or about declaring one's OPINION about a spiritual teacher "better" or "more authoritative" than another, or about declaring one's understanding of a point of philosophy or belief (*by definition* OPINION) "better" or "more correct" than someone else's. Mea culpa. I just don't think those things are worth my time. I know that *anything* I believe -- about a film, about a spiritual teacher, or about a point of philosophy or belief -- is OPINION. Call me a wuss, but I don't think it's worth getting into dick-size contests with those who feel that *their* OPINIONS are "better" (or, to call a spade a spade, "longer") than mine. But just for fun, here is my "resume" as a film critic: I'M JUST A GUY WHO LIKES MOVIES. That's it. There are certainly *many* people on this planet who can claim to have more "expertise" to "back up" their OPINIONS about movies or TV. Some can trot out long "resumes" to "prove" their expertise in these matters. But WHY would one want to do so? Could it possibly be a desire to "prove" their OPINION "better" or "more correct" or "more authoritative" than someone else's? Cool, I guess, if that's what gets you off, in film criticism or in spiritual practice. I don't get off on that. I just get off on having mere OPINION and rapping about it. I allow anyone "out there" in the reading audience to judge that OPINION any way they want to, without trying to declare it "authoritative," or "expert." It's just my OPINION. So is this cafe rap this morning. I was inspired to write it by the memory of my favorite bar in Santa Fe, NM. I loved that bar because of its 'tude. The 'tude at the bar was "Everyone here is equal." Your "worth" or sense of "authority" or "expert- ness" at that bar was how well you were able to express your OPINION on any subject. What you "brought to the table" in terms of your "exper- tise" or past history or "accomplishments" was irrelevant. How much money you had was irrele- vant. Your position in society was irrelevant. The *only* thing that mattered was how well you were able to express your OPINION on any given subject, everyone knowing and being comfortable with the fact that *all* of it was OPINION. Every so often some tourist would come in and join the conversation. They'd say something and find that everyone else at the bar reacted to what they said as if it were mere opinion. And they'd get UPSET about this. Where they'd come from they were used to people reacting to the things they said as if they were "authoritative," or "truth." And the crowd at this bar didn't react that way, and that upset them. So they'd launch into long explanations of who they were and what their accomplishments were and why they should be considered "authorities" in this matter, not just one more person around the bar. And everyone would ignore them, and drink their beers, and get back to just being One More Person Around The Bar, sharing opinions, as equals.