[FairfieldLife] Re: Which is worse,,,"really stupid" or "reeely stooopid"

[Robin Carlsen]

--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote:
>
> Dear Robin, you must stop taking so many things at face value - it will be 
> your downfall here. You will overreact, you will trigger without knowing it, 
> your panties will always be in a twist, which will be extremely uncomfortable 
> for you, as a man. (Doesn't bother me in the slightest by the way.)  You 
> will feel persecuted.  You will spend way too much time defending your ego, 
> no not your ego, your first person ontology.
> 
> *I* am coming to terms with my creepiness; I think it likely that Barry and 
> Curtis agree with you.  It has been a hard pill to swallow - like one of 
> those vitamin horse pills that one swallows in the morning before jumping in 
> the car to battle traffic to work and then, a few miles down the road, one 
> realizes that while it is supposed to be good for you, it is making you feel 
> so nauseas that you have to pull over and puke it up, along with the coffee, 
> while wearing a nice corporate suit - and then vomit goes all over the silk 
> scarf and stinks up the car and you walk into the morning meeting smelling 
> like too much perfume and a cherry lozenge.  
> 
> For you Robin, there is a lovely poem in a magazine I get this month called 
> "Walk with Grand-Dog and Wallace Stevens."  I'm so creepy that I am 
> dedicating it to you, but I won't type it out for you because I am lazy.  
> 
> Here is the link to the Table of Contents - you will have to click on it to 
> see who wrote it (I am a creepy gal, aren't I):
> 
> http://thesunmagazine.org/issues/444 

I apologize, Emily. But as you will see, CURTIS HAS GIVEN ME AN OUT. He makes 
the case that I am only interesting in setting up that "cackling" 
phenomenon--meanwhile overlooking the fact that I insulted you out of pique. I 
felt much more important after Curtis having essentially said I was doing a 
Buck-in-the-Dome move on my adversaries--with a wink-wink to all those who have 
wanted to form this secret guild. Whereas--if the truth be known, Emily--I was 
just mad at you for how you wrote that post.

Curtis's sincerity--in some ultimate way--has meant he has the high moral 
ground here, and I defer to him in this. (Meanwhile I get to feel damn good, 
because had he taken me literally--as I intended--I think I would look a lot 
more stupid than I do now, when he believes I am saying: "I think I know I mean 
a 'Yes' but it's all wrong, that is I think I disagree".)

I can't get access to that poem, by the way.

I want to start all over again, Emily. I think you utterly sincere (like Prince 
Myshkin has already said to you--one of my favourite characters in all of 
literature, by the way). I also think AWB utterly sincere.

My first person ontology got objectified very recently. And you should be able 
to tell.

I am on page 97 of your book, and enjoying it immensely.

> 
> 
> 
> >________________________________
> > From: Robin Carlsen <maskedzebra@...>
> >To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com 
> >Sent: Sunday, December 16, 2012 8:06 AM
> >Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Which is worse,,,"really stupid" or "reeely 
> >stooopid"
> > 
> >
> >  
> >Why do you have to be so creepy, Emily? 
> >
> >--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@> wrote:
> >>
> >> Share, *I* wrote the word imbecile.  *I* attributed it to me.  *I 
> >> was making fun of myself.*  I do that a lot.  *You* never used the 
> >> word to describe me.  *No one* has ever called me an imbecile here 
> >> except perhaps Barry, I forget.  Please *STOP* assuming that I am out 
> >> to get you and hold some animosity towards you.   *I* have *let go*, 
> >> which frees me up to have fun with you again.  I appreciate the time 
> >> you took on the question I asked and laughinggull's response. *I* am not a 
> >> creepy person, I assure you.  *I* am using that word because you did 
> >> say that about me and I am playing with it now.  *You* said it and it 
> >> is fair game and *I* am taking the sting out of it by using it.  You 
> >> may apologize to me if you want to, because it wasn't very nice, but *I* 
> >> forgive you because I realize you don't understand my sense of humor. 
> >>  I will spend one more post today on penguins.  My aunt is a 
> >> wildlife photographer and I
>  have a couple of wonderful shots
> >>  of penguins that you will appreciate if I can get them uploaded to a 
> >> link.   
> >> 
> >> 
> >> 
> >> >________________________________
> >> > From: Share Long <sharelong60@>
> >> >To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> 
> >> >Sent: Sunday, December 16, 2012 5:08 AM
> >> >Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Which is worse,,,"really stupid" or 
> >> >"reeely stooopid"
> >> > 
> >> >
> >> >  
> >> >dear FFL, just to set the record straight:  I don't even THINK the 
> >> >word imbecile much less express it.  Emily recently asked a question 
> >> >about TM and I followed up with a similar question to Steve.  Not sure 
> >> >how my asking a question of Steve is saying anything at all about 
> >> >Emily.  And it's true that I ONCE called Emily's sense of humor 
> >> >creepy.  She is the person who is multiplying it.  
> >> >
> >> >In this post of hers it is the indirectly attributing to me something I 
> >> >did not say or even think, that is what I'd call creepy here.
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >BTW how I remember this sequence:  lines on stone, lines on sand, 
> >> >lines on water, lines on air.  
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >________________________________
> >> > From: Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@>
> >> >To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> 
> >> >Sent: Saturday, December 15, 2012 11:45 PM
> >> >Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: Which is worse,,,"really stupid" or 
> >> >"reeely stooopid"
> >> > 
> >> >
> >> >  
> >> >Steve:  I was being sincere - you really have been laying down some 
> >> >funny stuff, IMO.   You are never the butt of my joke.  I almost 
> >> >always laugh in the spirit of the moment and never with mean intention - 
> >> >and I'm quite serious about that.  I laugh at the human condition and 
> >> >our attempts to communicate with each other and I do it so that I don't 
> >> >grieve too hard when things are tough.  I should really get a 
> >> >volunteer position as I've already filled out the application - I just 
> >> >have to make the call.  
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >I don't always explain the way I interpret FFL and I probably won't. 
> >> > I run it through a lot of different filters some days.  Which 
> >> >means that I "misinterpret" at times on purpose for a different effect - 
> >> >easy to do with words on paper. And it is well known now, thanks to 
> >> >Share, that I have a "creepy" sense of humor.  And I am a TM imbecile. 
> >> > 
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >And I wasn't feeling particularly up today, if truth be told, so I really 
> >> >appreciated your posts.  And, I love a good beer.  Had to give it 
> >> >up when I was diagnosed as gluten intolerant, but I'm going to cheat 
> >> >after what Emptybill posted today.   Emily
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >
> >> >>________________________________
> >> >> From: seventhray27 <steve.sundur@>
> >> >>To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com 
> >> >>Sent: Saturday, December 15, 2012 6:04 PM
> >> >>Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Which is worse,,,"really stupid" or "reeely 
> >> >>stooopid"
> >> >> 
> >> >>
> >> >>  
> >> >>whether Emily was being sincere or making fun of me, I really don't 
> >> >>care.  If I can be the butt of her joke, so be it.
> >> >>(and yes, I need to check out the link)
> >> >>
> >> >>--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Robin Carlsen" <maskedzebra@> 
> >> >>wrote:
> >> >>>
> >> >>> If you ever figure out why Emily is laughing, Steve, you'll be where 
> >> >>> Ted wrote about sex with Sylvia.
> >> >>> 
> >> >>> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn emilymae.reyn@ wrote:
> >> >>> >
> >> >>> > Ahh ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha....ahhhhhh ha ha ha ha ha ha 
> >> >>> > ah....ahhhhhhhhh ha ha ha ha ha. Steve, I don't know what is up for 
> >> >>> > you, but you are really making me laugh these days.  Ahhhh 
> >> >>> > ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.......
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> >> >>> > 
> >> >>> > >________________________________
> >> >>> > > From: seventhray27 steve.sundur@
> >> >>> > >To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com 
> >> >>> > >Sent: Saturday, December 15, 2012 2:18 PM
> >> >>> > >Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Which is worse,,,"really stupid" or 
> >> >>> > >"reeely stooopid"
> >> >>> > > 
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >  
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Robin Carlsen" 
> >> >>> > ><maskedzebra@> wrote:
> >> >>> > >>
> >> >>> > >> 
> >> >>> > >> 
> >> >>> > >> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "seventhray27" 
> >> >>> > >> steve.sundur@ wrote:
> >> >>> > >> >
> >> >>> > >> You always read me perfectly, Steve, and I am loving it. And you 
> >> >>> > >> have been more merciful than most here--I don't like people 
> >> >>> > >> criticizing me--but you, you say something nice when you do this 
> >> >>> > >> (put me in a better place). And believe me, Steve: this makes all 
> >> >>> > >> the difference.
> >> >>> > >> 
> >> >>> > >> I am trying to 'get' your philosophy; I think you are trying to 
> >> >>> > >> teach it to me indirectly--through anecdotes like the ones in 
> >> >>> > >> this post. I think this an efficacious way to get your wisdom to 
> >> >>> > >> go right into me, Steve.
> >> >>> > >> 
> >> >>> > >> I will let you know (through my deeds) the progress I am
> >>  making. Don't ever give up on me. I need your help--AND your love.
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > > Make a daily journal.  We'll call it "Robin's 
> >> >>> > >Daily Journal".  Make a list of the things you hope to 
> >> >>> > >accomplish in a given day, and maybe some personality traits to 
> >> >>> > >which you want to pay a little closer attention.  And then 
> >> >>> > >at the end of the day, you can write about how you feel you did. 
> >> >>> > > 
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >For example, "Was I too aggressive applying my 
> >> >>> > >First Person Ontology test to those I interacted with?" 
> >> >>> > > Or, "Was my irony appropriate, or insincere". 
> >> >>> > > These might be some areas to consider.  I really 
> >> >>> > >don't know.  I am just throwing them out for suggestions. 
> >> >>> > > 
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >We're here for you Robin. We can get through this.
> >> >>> > >
> >> >>> > >> We are good now, I think,
> >>  Steve.
> >> >>> > >> 
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