RE: My Bella's baby died

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 15:27:25 -0700

I think people on this list including you knowing and understand my pain gives great comfort in knowing that I am not alone- I am so sorry for your loss of two babies you spayed – that’s just so awful… again, I feel the pain with you and you are not alone..

 

From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Marylyn
Sent: Tuesday, April 11, 2006 3:36 PM
To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org
Subject: Re: My Bella's baby died

 

There is nothing at this point that will make you feel better.  You are consumed with guilt for unknown reasons.  However, you must focus on Bella and her babies and quiet yourself for them.  Once you have done this, which will take a long time, you may be able to share why you think you ended the little one's life.  It may well be that the little one was needed elsewhere.  I do promise you I understand.  Not for kittens but for two cats I had spayed.  Both died on the fourth day afterwards.  I felt so responsible that .......well, that is another matter.  Just know that I do know how it feels.  Know also that you may find comfort in the love you have given Bella and her little ones--even the one who left.  But know this comfort will come later.  After lots of tears and doubts and pain.  Know also that you are loved by all those lucky little ones who live with you.      

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                 If you have men who will exclude any of God's creatures
                                                 from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who
                                                 will deal likewise with their fellow man.
                                                                  St. Francis

----- Original Message -----

Sent: Tuesday, April 11, 2006 11:22 AM

Subject: RE: My Bella's baby died

 

 

Hi, everyone, today is one of the saddest day of my life – one of Bella’s babies died this morning around 2 am and I think I caused her to die. I am just too upset about what happened.  But, I wanted to help, but instead I killed her.  She was only 10 days old and she did not even get to open her eyes.  All I know was that it was definitely not her time to go yet.  But I killed her.  I am so mad at myself and am just going insane from a grief of losing her.  I was supposed to protect Bella and her babies and not to hurt them.  I could still hear her meow right before she stopped breathing.. I am such a ignorant and stupid, I should just let Bella who knows what she is doing to continue to care for her.

I did not event get to name her.. Bella is very sad and does not know what happened – it’s all my fault – everyone please please pray that the little baby angel is at heaven and comes back as a new life very very soon and have much happiness in her new life – and I am very sure that most of you know how this feels.  It’s sad enough to lose her, but it’s unbearable to know that you are the who killed an innocent life and she was not ready to go.

Please do not make me feel better as I feel that it’s sinful to feel better – she is gone, there is nothing I can do about it, but I just cannot stop crying and am just so angry myself and feel so badly for the baby and Bella –

 

Thank you for all your prayers for the baby –

 

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