Cassandra,
I hate to sound mushy or superstitious or anything weird, but it seems to me that Koda, Kisa, and Tomi are sending some new babies in need to you. They know how big of a heart you have and how you made their lives so wonderful. Yes, it would be a tremendous amount of work, but it would also keep your mind off your grief if you have new responsibilities that take up all your time. You could even dedicate your work with the new kittens to the memory of your lost babies. Of course, only take what you can handle-you can always say no. But since you're already working out in your mind how you would handle the situation, I think you somehow really want to do this-maybe you and your husband need them as much as they need you. As for barn cats, I am continually disgusted by the way people treat their cats around here (Nebraska). If you remember my situation last week with the baby kitty whose mama died in the trunk (while baby survived), I was debating taking the kitten myself or finding a home for him. Well, the husband was taking care of the baby, but I learned yesterday that the baby didn't make it. From what I've gathered, their idea of "taking care" of the kitty was much different from mine. They let him get soaked in the rain and didn't even bring him inside. I have been so sad yesterday and today thinking about what I could have done. I meant to post an update on the little guy, but I didn't have the heart yesterday. I offered to take the kitten-I told the lady (co-worker) that there were many people who offered to help, but she assured me that her husband was tending to it. I should have pushed the issue more. I should have stuck up for what is right. I'm so upset that this little guy had to suffer through his mother's death only to be neglected and die alone. Some days I can't bear the insensitivity and barbarism here. Sorry Cassandra I kind of took over with my own story here! The thought of the barn kitties just made me think of this recent situation. I hope you find some sort of solution, and I'm still keeping you two in my prayers as you grieve your fur babies. Melissa _____ From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of C & J Sent: Tuesday, June 26, 2007 7:51 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: Now i've got something of a dilemma What worries me, is this mom is used to farm life, and for starters, may not even want to live with us. If she abandons her babies by being moved here (I would lock her in a room with them, but she still could abandon them), I don't know that I am able to feed the babies, both my husband and I work mon-fri, 8 hours a day. We live 20-25 min drive away from work outside of the city. It is possible to come home at lunch time, but that gives us only 10-15 mins to feed the babies. How often do babies need to eat? Isn't it every couple of hours? And how long do they need to eat that frequently. I could probably take a few days off work to look after them, but do they need to eat that frequently for a whole 4 weeks? I really know nothing about looking after baby kittens. I just don't want to do more harm than good here. Cassandra