Dilemma, dilemma... Last night, I was pretty much resigned to letting Olive pass. Not happily resigned, now, for I cried for hours and then couldn't sleep. I had actually typed up a huge email about my reasoning a few minutes ago, but I just got off the phone with my vet, and now I'm once again lost as to what to do.
First off, I want to mention that my vet does actually seem to want to help, he just doesn't think much will come of it and doesn't want to give me false hope. Apparently, he wrote down my number wrong last night, which is why I never got a return call. I asked about the reticulocyte count. She had some last week, but it was so low that they considered it nonregenerative anemia. Apparently, she had also received two shots of steroids along with the transfusion. This worries me, because the transfusion started wearing off only after 5 days, when it usually lasts around 10 days. The shots seemed to help within the first couple of days, but then wore off. I also asked if haemobartonella was still a possibility, and he thought it might be. He is going to find out the price of getting a combo of doxy with something else that can be given in a form other than pills. He said he'd be willing to try epogen, but warned me that it usually only works a couple times because an immunity develops. I called the vet school about the price, but had to leave a message. I asked my vet about it, and he reassured me that their given price was indeed $2000-3000. He isn't sure what it entails, though I'm assuming it's everything under the sun, and that kind of scares me. I don't want to subject Olive to a million tests... So, I'm facing this huge problem now. While I would of course love to save Olive, I don't know if it's really going to do any good. And yeah, trying to do something may be better than doing nothing at all. But I'm not sure. I don't want to put her through this stage of slowly dying again, for the third time. I don't know if she'll even be helped unless she can get another blood transfusion, and if I do that at my vet, I'll have to use Juniper as a donor. That scares me. I don't really have time to look elsewhere, though. I wish someone could just give me the answer, but I know that ultimately it is up to me. I wish I was stronger, and not the most indecisive fool on the planet. One of my biggest concerns is that if I do manage to keep Olive alive, my other two babies will continue to be susceptible to this godforsaken virus. >===== Original Message From Belinda <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> ===== >I do not all animals or people suffer when they are dying and I can tell >you for a fact unless any of my furkids are in a great deal of pain and >I clearly get from them they want help passing I will let all of them >pass on their own, I personally believe most prefer it. It may not be >pretty for me but I don't think they suffer as we think they do, once >the process gets to a certain point the body goes into shock and I don't >think you feel much of anything. Of course I have never died, that is >just my sense of the process and I could be as right as anyone who >insists helping an animal pass is the best and kindest thing you can do >for them, I don't think that is always the case. I personally would >never want to be euthanized if that was an option humans had. > >> You will regret seeing it and much worse, allowing it to get that far for her sake. You will see her suffer. > >-- > >Belinda >happiness is being owned by cats ... > >Be-Mi-Kitties >http://bemikitties.com > >Post Adoptable FeLV/FIV/FIP Cats/Kittens >http://adopt.bemikitties.com > >FeLV Candlelight Service >http://bemikitties.com/cls > >HostDesign4U.com [affordable hosting & web design] >http://HostDesign4U.com > >------------ > >BMK Designs [non-profit animals websites] >http://bmk.bemikitties.com
