Oh, Megan, it is so hard to know what to do! I'm praying (and so are
my kitties) for you, the doctors and little Olive, too, to be able to
make the right decision for her. Sleeping on it really does work and
may somehow clear your head for the decisions you all have to make.
Please have a peaceful night and know that we are all dreaming about
the best care for little Olive along with you.
Love,
Tee 'n' the Wildlife
"Consciousness is Causal
and Physicality is its
Manifestation."
On Aug 31, 2007, at 9:26 AM, Megan Heikkinen wrote:
Dilemma, dilemma...
Last night, I was pretty much resigned to letting Olive pass. Not
happily
resigned, now, for I cried for hours and then couldn't sleep. I had
actually
typed up a huge email about my reasoning a few minutes ago, but I
just got off
the phone with my vet, and now I'm once again lost as to what to do.
First off, I want to mention that my vet does actually seem to want
to help,
he just doesn't think much will come of it and doesn't want to give
me false
hope. Apparently, he wrote down my number wrong last night, which
is why I
never got a return call.
I asked about the reticulocyte count. She had some last week, but
it was so
low that they considered it nonregenerative anemia. Apparently, she
had also
received two shots of steroids along with the transfusion. This
worries me,
because the transfusion started wearing off only after 5 days, when
it usually
lasts around 10 days. The shots seemed to help within the first
couple of
days, but then wore off. I also asked if haemobartonella was still a
possibility, and he thought it might be. He is going to find out
the price of
getting a combo of doxy with something else that can be given in a
form other
than pills. He said he'd be willing to try epogen, but warned me
that it
usually only works a couple times because an immunity develops.
I called the vet school about the price, but had to leave a
message. I asked
my vet about it, and he reassured me that their given price was indeed
$2000-3000. He isn't sure what it entails, though I'm assuming it's
everything
under the sun, and that kind of scares me. I don't want to subject
Olive to a
million tests...
So, I'm facing this huge problem now. While I would of course love
to save
Olive, I don't know if it's really going to do any good. And yeah,
trying to
do something may be better than doing nothing at all. But I'm not
sure. I
don't want to put her through this stage of slowly dying again, for
the third
time. I don't know if she'll even be helped unless she can get
another blood
transfusion, and if I do that at my vet, I'll have to use Juniper
as a donor.
That scares me. I don't really have time to look elsewhere, though.
I wish someone could just give me the answer, but I know that
ultimately it is
up to me. I wish I was stronger, and not the most indecisive fool
on the
planet. One of my biggest concerns is that if I do manage to keep
Olive alive,
my other two babies will continue to be susceptible to this
godforsaken virus.
===== Original Message From Belinda <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> =====
I do not all animals or people suffer when they are dying and I
can tell
you for a fact unless any of my furkids are in a great deal of
pain and
I clearly get from them they want help passing I will let all of them
pass on their own, I personally believe most prefer it. It may
not be
pretty for me but I don't think they suffer as we think they do, once
the process gets to a certain point the body goes into shock and I
don't
think you feel much of anything. Of course I have never died,
that is
just my sense of the process and I could be as right as anyone who
insists helping an animal pass is the best and kindest thing you
can do
for them, I don't think that is always the case. I personally would
never want to be euthanized if that was an option humans had.
You will regret seeing it and much worse, allowing it to get that
far for
her sake. You will see her suffer.
--
Belinda
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