You, dear one, are so very special to so many of us and what comes thru on-line is just a small part of what you must give to your friends and family that can hug you and touch you. There is nothing at all wrong with that little 'pity-pottie-party'...in fact I think it is very important that we all sit down (not literally) and just cry our hearts out. Sometimes, like I always say, crying is a cleansing of our soul and that's when God is finally able to take over. We have a hard time letting go so He can, don't we?
You are one of many that feel bad because we cannot share the intimacy that we once had with our husband. Jack and I have talked about it from the beginning and even tho this is getting a little personal, I talked to him about making love even tho I have no feeling and his answer was an emphatic, "NO!" He said it was either both of us or nothing. BUT he also said we make love in a thousand ways that has nothing to do with sex and he is so right. He also tells me he loves me just the way I am and I truly feel he means it. It breaks his heart when he sees me hurting so bad because there is nothing else that he can do for me. Yes, we are so blessed, you and I, and others whose spouse loves us so much. Do we choose to live this way, with all of the impairments and pain? No, but here we are and all we can do is the best we can do. And there you are, dear Jude, sending all of the love and encouragement to all of us with all that you are going thru yourself. Know that you are loved and we so appreciate every moment and caring words you send our way, especially when each one of us have our own 'pity-pottie-parties'. We need you all of the time but especially during those times. With love, hugs, and caring, Jeanne
