You mention that you felt nervous from TM. Did you feel that it was more stimulating than relaxing? Most of those techniques, especially the advanced techniques are stimulating mantras. You may need to do the calming ones instead. Stimulating mantras will also make you more vata. No wonder so many yogis in India use Ashwaganda which counteracts vata. As we age we become more vata. Many people as they age have adrenal insufficiently. The adrenals just don't work like they used to and hence they feel tired a lot of the time. In that case people need to do things to rebuild their bodies and strengthen the adrenals (calming meditations will help).
janosmelocco wrote: > Hi all, > > I wrote a fairly long opening post - but I realized I would post it only > if there are some people who could answer me with honest deliberation. > > I will summarize the essence: my TM technique stopped working for me > after about 20 years. > I miss it sorely. Please don't take this lightly, I have meditated close > to 30 years, been a TM sidha since 92 - most of my family learned TM or > even sidhis. Some got AT as well, my mom went to see SCI several times > and I translated stuff for the local TMO for years. > > > I am a practicing Indian astrologer BTW. > > Let me recap what my question is about. Somehow, my basic meditation > technique changed over the years, and since about 2001-2002 it has not > been good at all - sometimes I felt it was downright unpleasant and > destructive to my everyday life. While TM was the single greatest factor > in stabilizing my life and making it colorful for over two decades, > during the 21st century I gradually got to the point where I felt I > should not do it at all â€" sidhi sutras are OK, other traditional > (long japa) mantras are also good, but every time I did TM, someone in > my family acted like literally possessed. I felt weird and nervous - > usually I concluded it was just a wasting of my time. > > Now I am not talking about a few times or days or weeks - a little over > eight years. > > A psychologist that did Hellinger family therapy with me and my wife > told us around 2005 that as hard as it could be, for a few years we > would have to contemplate skipping „deep meditationâ€� and > stick to other, more superficial styles of connection with the absolute > â€" such as prayer, Zen or other awake techniques that keep you on > the surface. Movement techniques of consciousness such as t’ai > chi etc. The reason she gave was one we both principally agreed with > â€" that we sort of opened doors by deep meditation that should not > be left open all the time, and some forces entered that were very > disturbing to our family unit. > > > > This psychologist that said this did not say this lightly, and she is > not anti-meditation â€" she meditates herself in Buddhist style and > her partner is a TM sidha, which she accepts with joy. She said this > after several years of trying to screen off an unpleasant psychic effect > that manifested itself in my second wife (who is a Hatha Yoga teacher > BTW). I asked her many times if this was her opinion of my entire TM > past â€" as I know she is quite critical of sects and cults. Turned > out that it is not, she thought that â€" based on seeing my > subconscious played out by others in the group â€" that it had been > most helpful that I did TM through thick and thin for decades, and she > also added that she hoped it would be soon when both of us could > meditate again without any foreign forces intervening. As it was in 2006 > or 2007, she said it was not safe for a while â€" it was our > decision. > > > > For a while I did not quite believe her and thought â€" > „well, you may know a little about meditation, but you certainly > don’t know TM from firsthand experience, and certainly it has > been much easier for me so far since I had learned it at a fairly tender > age.â€� > > > > I tested this out almost a hundred times, and up till recently she was > proven right. After a few hundred times when either my wife would > suddenly act like a VERY severe case of PMS without anybody giving her a > cause â€" or if she felt OK, I would feel quite nervous and barely > able to contain myself, I gave up. > > > > Mind you, this does not involve the sidhi sutras, nor simply resting > â€" as a several-decades-long meditator, sometimes I just had to > lie down or close my eyes and some flashes of awake TC would hit me > â€" no problem. I could do sidhis and get no possession problems. > However, it is just not the same feeling any more. > > > I would also get TC experiences and “unstressingâ€� while > simply listening to music or just resting if I was tired. (Come to think > of it, I have been dissatisfied with MMY’s explanations of it > since I learned of them about seven years after my initiation.) It is > just not the same since I do not do sitting meditation â€" just > like when I learned of this type use of music, I realized that it was > not the music itself â€" it was the fact that I had done TM before > and then even listening to music was different. > > I will write more on my meditation backgound or answer questions if I > see there is valuable reaction. I am not interested in anti-TM > propaganda, neither the usual stuff you would get at the local center > from a starry eyed young teacher. Nor have I more stress in my life than > in about 1985. > > > ------------------------------------ To subscribe, send a message to: fairfieldlife-subscr...@yahoogroups.com Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!'Yahoo! 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