Hi Rob, I just turned 50 last month and then had my 12th TM anniversary Sept. 1. For several years I have not looked forward to Sept. 1, but then I'd forget about it (one of the benefits of being "middle-aged" :-) ) and remember a few days later that I've passed another milestone with TM. I'm kind of glad it happens that way for me. There was a time when I could not accept not being healed from TM. I think I've pretty much come to a place of acceptance now, with the Lord's help. But, as you say, there are good days and bad days. Hope things look up for you soon. Barbara H. _http://barbarah.wordpress.com/_ (http://barbarah.wordpress.com/) In a message dated 9/21/2007 1:24:53 PM Eastern Daylight Time, [EMAIL PROTECTED] writes:
Yesterday was my 60th birthday….in 6 days it will be my 10 year aniversary of having TM. I am feeling somewhat sad and melancholy. I normally accept my condition and give thanks that it is not as bad as many on the list. However looking back I can no longer remember what it felt like to be "normal". For people who do not have an affliction like ours it is so difficult to explain. This was the first time I was ever sick where I could not expect to be "all better". Therefore instead of celebrating a birthday milestone, I spent much of the day feeling sorry for myself. Knowing my personality I am quite sure this feeling will soon be over and I will go back to being upbeat. But….10 years… .and not one waking minute where I felt good. Some days are better than others….but no day is without discomfort or worse. I have found our condition almost impossible to explain to a healthy person…I cannot even come to terms with TM at my own level. I understand strides are being made to help us…but I truly doubt it is going to help the old timers. I am grateful that the younger TM'rs will benefit. I have not given up hope and will continue to battle this condition for as long as I live. I will regain my positive attitude and be grateful for all of the wonderful things in my life. I just needed to vent to the people who really understand! Rob in New Jersey ************************************** See what's new at http://www.aol.com
