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Marissa - I think these kitties become so precious to us in part because so many people view FeLV kitties as throw aways. We feel extra protective because people don't understand why we go through this. All my FeLV kitties that have passed were my most precious babies. I didn't want to go through this again, but the FeLV kitty I took from the shelter needed me.(BTW our shelter does NOT euthanise just because a cat tests positive :)). I turned in my healthy foster so I could take the FeLV one. I set myself up for heartache, but I put myself aside so he could be happy. The most important lesson you have learned is that these kitties have as much to give as any healthy animal. Anytime I hear someone talk about an FeLV kitty I encourage them to keep them and make them a part of their life. I want people to know these animals can live with this virus. It has become a mission for me. You are now someone who can spread the word so more of these beautiful babies can know life. I know your heart is aching, but you did an amazing thing - you gave this beautiful boy a happy life. Beth Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Nina (and EVERYONE!), thank you soo much! It is so helpful to know that those doubts are normal and that it won't be an indication that I made the wrong decision. I honestly don't know how I would get through this time without all of you! MC and Barb have been absolutely amazing chatting with me online and helping me sort things out - thanks! And all of you, your words of encouragement and support mean so much to me! I know this is going to be near impossible and that it's going to hurt a lot...but somehow I'll manage to get through it. Thank you for sharing this journey with me and for lending me your strength! I've been telling Slink all about my other pets who are waiting for him at the Rainbow Bridge... and telling him that I'm gonna help him get rid of his tired weak body and feel wonderful again. I hope he'll carry a piece of my heart with me...and I know I'll have him in my heart forever. He'll always be my most precious kitty...the kitty of my heart. I truly don't think I understood the depths of love and responsibility I was capable of feeling until he came into my life. He has taught me S MUCH (which I'll write more about someday) and I will cherish those lessons always. I can only hope I've been able to show him the same depth of love, acceptance, and security he has shown me. Thank you again for being here with me. I've got less than 24 hours now to be with my precious baby, so I'm going to make the most of it. GLOW to you and your babies! MJ Nina [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded what ifs). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do the wrong thing when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that
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Marissa, You and Slinky are in my prayers. tonya Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky - 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut.
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Marissa, Thinking of you and Slinky at this difficult time, so glad that he was able to spend his life with such a good friend at his side. Peace and hugs to you both, Beth N. On 3/26/07, Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Nina (and EVERYONE!), thank you soo much! It is so helpful to know that those doubts are normal and that it won't be an indication that I made the wrong decision. I honestly don't know how I would get through this time without all of you! MC and Barb have been absolutely amazing chatting with me online and helping me sort things out - thanks! And all of you, your words of encouragement and support mean so much to me! I know this is going to be near impossible and that it's going to hurt a lot...but somehow I'll manage to get through it. Thank you for sharing this journey with me and for lending me your strength! I've been telling Slink all about my other pets who are waiting for him at the Rainbow Bridge... and telling him that I'm gonna help him get rid of his tired weak body and feel wonderful again. I hope he'll carry a piece of my heart with me...and I know I'll have him in my heart forever. He'll always be my most precious kitty...the kitty of my heart. I truly don't think I understood the depths of love and responsibility I was capable of feeling until he came into my life. He has taught me S MUCH (which I'll write more about someday) and I will cherish those lessons always. I can only hope I've been able to show him the same depth of love, acceptance, and security he has shown me. Thank you again for being here with me. I've got less than 24 hours now to be with my precious baby, so I'm going to make the most of it. GLOW to you and your babies! MJ *Nina [EMAIL PROTECTED]* wrote: Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded what ifs). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do the wrong thing when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that you will be spared the torture of any what ifs. Hold that angel close and know that he has worked his way into all our hearts. Much love to you, Nina Marissa Johnson wrote: Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the day - and have found a friend to go with me. I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it is, but...wow. I know it's what's best but that doesn't make it any easier. Anyway, Slink and I have the rest of tonight and all of tomorrow to be with each other. Thanks again for all your support! MJ -- Looking for earth-friendly autos? Browse Top Cars by Green
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Marissa, My heart just dropped when I saw your subject line, but was happy to hear that Slinky had not yet passed. I am the ever hopeful type, and usually refuse to give up. Some people call that stubborn; I call it perseverance. I just don't want to give up on Slinky yet; he's fighting so hard. I hope that over the next few days, you are able to do all you need to do and stay relatively sane. If you need ANYTHING, just ask. We're here for you and Slinky. Prayers going out for Slinky and you. Here's to a miracle turnaround... :) Wendy --- Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky - 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful committed citizens can change the world: Indeed it is the only thing that ever has! ~~~ Margaret Meade ~~~ Food fight? Enjoy some healthy debate in the Yahoo! Answers Food Drink QA. http://answers.yahoo.com/dir/?link=listsid=396545367
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Dear Marissa, Your Slinky is truly amazing, a walking miracle, defying all the odds. Enjoy every possible moment with your brave little trooper. Try not to even think of his passing. I'm glad he has such an upbeat, loving mom. big hugs to you both, Kerry -Original Message- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Marissa Johnson Sent: Monday, March 26, 2007 12:03 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Slinky - Sad News Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky _ 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick http://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/?fr=oni_on_mail#news in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. http://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/?fr=oni_on_mail#news IRS CIRCULAR 230 NOTICE. Any advice expressed above as to tax matters was neither written nor intended by the sender or Mayer, Brown, Rowe Maw LLP to be used and cannot be used by any taxpayer for the purpose of avoiding tax penalties that may be imposed under U.S. tax law. If any person uses or refers to any such tax advice in promoting, marketing or recommending a partnership or other entity, investment plan or arrangement to any taxpayer, then (i) the advice was written to support the promotion or marketing (by a person other than Mayer, Brown, Rowe Maw LLP) of that transaction or matter, and (ii) such taxpayers should seek advice based on the taxpayers particular circumstances from an independent tax advisor. This email and any files transmitted with it are intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the system manager. If you are not the named addressee you should not disseminate, distribute or copy this e-mail.
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At 10:02 AM 3/26/2007, you wrote: I am so very sorry about SLinky and all the sadness and pain right now. My thought will be with you...and hope for a gently journey into the light. Kelly Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? http://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/?fr=oni_on_mailFind a flick in no time with thehttp://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/?fr=oni_on_mailYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. No virus found in this incoming message. Checked by AVG Free Edition. Version: 7.1.413 / Virus Database: 268.18.17/732 - Release Date: 3/24/2007
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*Marissa... every loss on this list feels like I've lost one of my own! I'm so, so sorry... hugs to you and to Slinky* *Leslie =^..^=* On 3/26/07, MacKenzie, Kerry N. [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Dear Marissa, Your Slinky is truly amazing, a walking miracle, defying all the odds. Enjoy every possible moment with your brave little trooper. Try not to even think of his passing. I'm glad he has such an upbeat, loving mom. big hugs to you both, Kerry -Original Message- *From:* [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto: [EMAIL PROTECTED] *On Behalf Of *Marissa Johnson *Sent:* Monday, March 26, 2007 12:03 PM *To:* felvtalk@felineleukemia.org *Subject:* Slinky - Sad News Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky -- 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flickhttp://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/?fr=oni_on_mail#newsin no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut.http://tools.search.yahoo.com/shortcuts/?fr=oni_on_mail#news IRS CIRCULAR 230 NOTICE. Any advice expressed above as to tax matters was neither written nor intended by the sender or Mayer, Brown, Rowe Maw LLP to be used and cannot be used by any taxpayer for the purpose of avoiding tax penalties that may be imposed under U.S. tax law. If any person uses or refers to any such tax advice in promoting, marketing or recommending a partnership or other entity, investment plan or arrangement to any taxpayer, then (i) the advice was written to support the promotion or marketing (by a person other than Mayer, Brown, Rowe Maw LLP) of that transaction or matter, and (ii) such taxpayers should seek advice based on the taxpayers particular circumstances from an independent tax advisor. This email and any files transmitted with it are intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the system manager. If you are not the named addressee you should not disseminate, distribute or copy this e-mail. -- Leslie =^..^= To leave the world a better place - whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or an improved social condition - that is to have succeeded. That only one life breathed easier because you lived - that is success. ---Ralph Waldo Emerson
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Marissa, my heart hurts with you. elizabeth On 3/26/07, Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky -- 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut.
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Marissa, I'm so sorry. kelley On 3/26/07, elizabeth trent [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Marissa, my heart hurts with you. elizabeth On 3/26/07, Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky -- 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. -- Rescuties - Saving the world, one cat at a time. http://www.rescuties.org Vist the Rescuties store and save a kitty life! http://astore.amazon.com/rescuties-20 Please help Joey! http://rescuties.chipin.com/joey-autoimmune-hemolytic-anemia
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My thoughts and prayers are with you both. Dede and Ki --- Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky - 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. When you are in the service of your fellow beings, you are only in the service of your God Mosiah 2:17 Be a PS3 game guru. Get your game face on with the latest PS3 news and previews at Yahoo! Games. http://videogames.yahoo.com/platform?platform=120121
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Marissa, I'm saddened to read that Slinky is so anemic and not doing well. It's wonderful that you've be able to spend some time with him doing things he likes, and that he is somehow managing to hang in there. I'm also sorry that you have a tough day at work tomorrow right after what may be his last night with you. You two will be in my thoughts and prayers. He looks like a very sweet boy. Thank you for posting the pics. Lance On Mon, 26 Mar 2007 10:02:44 -0700 (PDT), Marissa Johnson [EMAIL PROTECTED] said: Hi all. Thank you so much for all the GLOW and well wishes. Slinky and I just got back from the vet (and a spin through the park). I am sad to report that his HCT has dropped to just over 5! It was a little above 7 on Friday. The vet didn't even want to give him the IR shot today because she said his platlettes (sp?) are so low that when they stick him in the vein he just bleeds. She thought an IV injection would do more harm than good. She agrees with me that it's best to let him go. She said she's never seen a cat with HCT that low who was still awake and breathing ok (which, amazingly, he is). But she also indicated that as the RBC's drop, his organs will shut down and things will just get worse. Unfortunately, I'm not sure when this will happen. I needed to bring him home right now so I'd have some time to say goodbye and do some of his favorite things. But I have a HGE day at work tomorrow and am not sure I'll get through it if I put him down tonight. Tomorrow night I have an evening meeting for work that I can't get out of! So it might have to be Wednesday. I don't know...I'd just die if he gets worse before then, but some things can't be rescheduled (I've already missed several days of work to take care of him and be with him). He's pretty much the same...still breathing fine, eating, drinking, and using his box. So I guess for now I'll just see how it goes. They said they'd fit me in any time. Thanks again for all your support! I will be getting another kitty eventually (he is my only and my first as an adult!!)...but I don't think I'm up for another FeLV pos. I'm thinking maybe one who's missing an eye or has a bad leg or is deaf or something. Something that makes them difficult to adopt but isn't life threatening...I just don't think I can go through this again right now. I hope all your furkids are well. I'll let you know when I need to add Slinky to the CLS. Thanks! MJ and Slinky - 8:00? 8:25? 8:40? Find a flick in no time with theYahoo! Search movie showtime shortcut. -- Lance Linimon [EMAIL PROTECTED]
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When I lost Moogie, I had to drop her off at the vet and go to work. They called and told me that she was dying and there wasn't anything else to do... I rushed back over, but only got about 30 minutes with her. I wish I would have blown off work and spent that morning with her. You can't get that time back. My thoughts are with you. Phaewryn http://ucat.us/domesticcatlinks.html Special Needs Cat Resources
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Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the day - and have found a friend to go with me. I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it is, but...wow. I know it's what's best but that doesn't make it any easier. Anyway, Slink and I have the rest of tonight and all of tomorrow to be with each other. Thanks again for all your support! MJ [EMAIL PROTECTED] [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: When I lost Moogie, I had to drop her off at the vet and go to work. They called and told me that she was dying and there wasn't anything else to do... I rushed back over, but only got about 30 minutes with her. I wish I would have blown off work and spent that morning with her. You can't get that time back. My thoughts are with you. Phaewryn http://ucat.us/domesticcatlinks.html Special Needs Cat Resources - Now that's room service! Choose from over 150,000 hotels in 45,000 destinations on Yahoo! Travel to find your fit.
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Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded what ifs). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do the wrong thing when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that you will be spared the torture of any what ifs. Hold that angel close and know that he has worked his way into all our hearts. Much love to you, Nina Marissa Johnson wrote: Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the day - and have found a friend to go with me. I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it is, but...wow. I know it's what's best but that doesn't make it any easier. Anyway, Slink and I have the rest of tonight and all of tomorrow to be with each other. Thanks again for all your support! MJ
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beautiful, nina. On 3/26/07, Nina [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded what ifs). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do the wrong thing when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that you will be spared the torture of any what ifs. Hold that angel close and know that he has worked his way into all our hearts. Much love to you, Nina Marissa Johnson wrote: Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the day - and have found a friend to go with me. I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it is, but...wow. I know it's what's best but that doesn't make it any easier. Anyway, Slink and I have the rest of tonight and all of tomorrow to be with each other. Thanks again for all your support! MJ -- Spay Neuter Your Neighbors! Maybe That'll Make The Difference MaryChristine AIM / YAHOO: TenHouseCats MSN: [EMAIL PROTECTED] ICQ: 289856892
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Nina (and EVERYONE!), thank you soo much! It is so helpful to know that those doubts are normal and that it won't be an indication that I made the wrong decision. I honestly don't know how I would get through this time without all of you! MC and Barb have been absolutely amazing chatting with me online and helping me sort things out - thanks! And all of you, your words of encouragement and support mean so much to me! I know this is going to be near impossible and that it's going to hurt a lot...but somehow I'll manage to get through it. Thank you for sharing this journey with me and for lending me your strength! I've been telling Slink all about my other pets who are waiting for him at the Rainbow Bridge... and telling him that I'm gonna help him get rid of his tired weak body and feel wonderful again. I hope he'll carry a piece of my heart with me...and I know I'll have him in my heart forever. He'll always be my most precious kitty...the kitty of my heart. I truly don't think I understood the depths of love and responsibility I was capable of feeling until he came into my life. He has taught me S MUCH (which I'll write more about someday) and I will cherish those lessons always. I can only hope I've been able to show him the same depth of love, acceptance, and security he has shown me. Thank you again for being here with me. I've got less than 24 hours now to be with my precious baby, so I'm going to make the most of it. GLOW to you and your babies! MJ Nina [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded what ifs). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do the wrong thing when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that you will be spared the torture of any what ifs. Hold that angel close and know that he has worked his way into all our hearts. Much love to you, Nina Marissa Johnson wrote: Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the day - and have found a friend to go with me. I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it is, but...wow. I know it's what's best but that doesn't make it any easier. Anyway, Slink and I have the rest of tonight and all of tomorrow to be with each other. Thanks again for all your support! MJ - Looking for earth-friendly autos? Browse Top Cars by Green Rating at Yahoo! Autos' Green Center.
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Marissa -- I know how bittersweet this next day will be for you. Comfort vibes to you. Slinky knows how very deeply he is loved. How could he not when it shines out of every word you write? We will look forward to your Slink stories when you are ready. Diane R. _ From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Marissa Johnson Sent: Monday, March 26, 2007 6:17 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: Slinky - Sad News Nina (and EVERYONE!), thank you soo much! It is so helpful to know that those doubts are normal and that it won't be an indication that I made the wrong decision. I honestly don't know how I would get through this time without all of you! MC and Barb have been absolutely amazing chatting with me online and helping me sort things out - thanks! And all of you, your words of encouragement and support mean so much to me! I know this is going to be near impossible and that it's going to hurt a lot...but somehow I'll manage to get through it. Thank you for sharing this journey with me and for lending me your strength! I've been telling Slink all about my other pets who are waiting for him at the Rainbow Bridge... and telling him that I'm gonna help him get rid of his tired weak body and feel wonderful again. I hope he'll carry a piece of my heart with me...and I know I'll have him in my heart forever. He'll always be my most precious kitty...the kitty of my heart. I truly don't think I understood the depths of love and responsibility I was capable of feeling until he came into my life. He has taught me S MUCH (which I'll write more about someday) and I will cherish those lessons always. I can only hope I've been able to show him the same depth of love, acceptance, and security he has shown me. Thank you again for being here with me. I've got less than 24 hours now to be with my precious baby, so I'm going to make the most of it. GLOW to you and your babies! MJ Nina [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: Marissa, I'm so sorry. My eyes filled with tears when I read your news this morning. I had such high hopes for a miracle for you and your Slinky boy. I know you haven't come to this decision lightly and that the only reason you would even consider this is to spare him any unnecessary suffering. MC has a quote that has given me comfort, something about it being better to let them go a day too soon than an hour too late. I have been on both sides of this terrible coin; waiting with hope only to have them suffer, and living afterward with the fear that I made the decision to help them cross too soon. No matter what we do in these circumstances we may be plagued by the possibility that we did the wrong thing, (the dreaded what ifs). I just wanted to let you know that I understand, and that I don't believe that it is possible to do the wrong thing when these hard decisions are made from our hearts. When we lose the hope of recovery, then letting them go is the last gift of love we can bestow on them. The last act of protection we can provide. I had such terrible regrets when I helped my Jazzy cross, but in the weeks that followed I found myself replacing my self-recriminations with acceptance. Even if I hadn't made the decision I did, she most likely would have been gone by then. Finally, I was able to forgive myself, not so much for the decisions I made, but for not being able to control the circumstances of our time together. I was able to forgive myself for not being able to save her. At least I can know that because I made the decision I did, when I did, her suffering was not prolonged. I know that she knows I will always love her, that I'm grateful for the time she graced my life and that no matter how many tears I shed, I will never be sorry I took her in. I can rest easier knowing that my sweet bottle baby, whom I had protected and nurtured from the time I became her surrogate mom, never had a moment of fear or want. Not even at the end of her all too short life. I'm glad that you've made it possible to spend this time in Slinky's company. With how hard you've both fought, with all you and your family have done for your darling Slink, I'm praying that you will be spared the torture of any what ifs. Hold that angel close and know that he has worked his way into all our hearts. Much love to you, Nina Marissa Johnson wrote: Thanks for that reminder Phaewryn. I've actually been able to postpone tomorrow's meeting (my boss had asked if I wanted to this morning because I've been sick, but like a dope I said I'd be okay!...but I was able to call everyone and tell them we're postponing it. I think it's for the best all the way around). So I've made the appointment for tomorrow evening at 6:40 - the last appointment of the day - and have found a friend to go with me. I can't believe I'm doing this. It seems so...FINAL. And I guess it is, but...wow. I know it's what's best
