--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, iranitea <no_reply@...> wrote: Dear Iranitea,
Multiple Personality. I was diagnosed recently, and have been fighting it. Robin0, Robin1, Robin2, Robin3, Robin4, and now (if you read my conversation with Share) Robin5 (Brahman Consciousness)I actually experience myself coming in and going out into all of these six forms of Robin alternately, iranitea. Mind you, when I am in one of these states of consciousness I have a particular view of another state of Robin; for instance the RobinOhe was still in waking state; and could only dream about BC (Robin5). But sometimes Robin5 looks nostalgically back at Robin-1 (before LSD): that guy is, if you really want to know the truth, who my shrink wants me to get back to. And I think him right in this. (Actually it is a sheand she's very beautifulOh, my: but now we are into another problem: RobinR (Robin Romantic)but he has been with all the other seven Robins. Robin-1, Robin0, Robin1 and so on.) Are you wanting a fight here, iranitea? Why can't you just be nice and show us you are becoming the Selfinstead of faking us out by displaying so prominently all the earmarks of the little self you are trying to get rid of? Sucking up to Buck, are you? I am loving and honouring and respecting Buck. Yeah, I could use a transparency make-over. But what about Share Long? Where does she fit into the cosmos? I am working on that one as you can see. No, iranitea, it all makes perfect sense: Why there are seven Robins, is the same reason why there are 330 millions gods in Hinduism, or, to speak more conservatively: There is no second God, nor a third, nor is even a fourth spoken of There is no fifth God or a sixth nor is even a seventh mentioned. There is no eighth God, nor a ninth. Nothing is spoken about a tenth even. This unique power is in itself. That Lord is only one, the only omnipresent. It is one and the only one. Atharva Veda 13.4.2 19-20 I am aware, in my seven states of Robin simultaneouslyor as my poor (but very pretty) psychoanalyst puts it: my Multiple Personalityof essentially being "The Lord [as] only one"I am " the one and the only one". I know this by direct experience, iranitea, and you are just trying to bring me back into ignorance and Maya and trying to fuck with my mind. I am enlightened! Don't you know that by now, iranitea? Sure I "resort to mysticism" but maybe I don't. Maybe I am just playing at being seven Robins. And maybe I am not. Maybe I created myself*and even created YOU, iranitea*and maybe I did not (probably not, as a matter of fact). Enjoy the mystical, iranitea: it's what it's all about after all. And in the final analysis what does it matter how we quarrel here on FFL? We are, after all, only the Self. You and me, iranitea: *We are the same*! Life obviously is infinitely innocent and infinitely ironic. Don't you see this, iranitea? I am one of the Hindu gods using the universe as my playground. Just like you, iranitea. I see what you are doing! Wink-wink. But do the readers here at FFL? We won't tell them, iranitea. Or will we? Iranitea: And, of course, I had many experiences after. So I cannot fee obliged my whole life to one particular experience, and let it enclose my life in one particular pattern. > > The same is true for you Robin, quite obviously and even much more > dramatically, but I cannot achieve the kind of compartmentalization you are > making with respect to all the different Robins in your personal history. To > me it seems there is a Robin1, a Robin2, a Robin3 and a Robin4 up until 5 > maybe, all of them are fairly intact, lets call Robin1 the Robin who as a TB > teacher and just newly enlightened, Robin2 the Robin of the seminars at FF > and whatever happened there, the Robin3 the one who read Aquinas and became > converted to Catholicism, and Robin4 is the post modern, post catholic Robin. > > There is also Robin0, the one who experimented with LSD (which I never took). > Robin4 tells us that the whole TM trip as a deception, and illusion, and side > by side in the same post Robin1 tells that the initiation into TM is the most > marvelous experience, to which we should always be committed and faithful. > Robin4 tells Emily it is better to never start TM, and Robin1 tells Vaj, that > he doesn't know anything because he never transcended and urges him to start > learning TM. It is as if all these personas, are overlay-ed upon each other, > but there is no final resolution. > > Maybe it is your purpose to work on your own history, to reach a sense of > resolution between these levels, but to me it seems you resort to some sort > of mysticism instead. > > For Buck I am glad that he is there, in whatever situation he is in, and > makes these things known to us creating transparency. To me he is a very > authentic and honest person.
