Dear Kat, thank you for your kind words - I do very much appreciate it. I did actually sent an email off to explain what happened - I did not want to remind myself of what I did to a precious baby, but I realize if I could ever benefit anyone on the list to avoid doing what I did, I think that's probably the least I could do --
-----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Kat Sent: Tuesday, April 11, 2006 11:26 AM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: RE: My Bella's baby died Dear, Dear Hideyo, Just what did you do? You tried to help the baby - the best you knew how to at the time - no one here would EVER condemn you for that. It was not intentional - you are too good of a meowmy for it to have been on purpose. Sometimes these things just happen and all we can do is understand what happened, learn from it, and gently forgive ourselves for our mistakes. Our kitties understand this and they don't hold it against us - they know you would never hurt them on purpose. Please be gentle with yourself and let us know the details when you can type thru your tears. I am sending you gentle hugs, and gentle prayers for "Bella's Baby" to find my Baby Callie at the Bridge. I'm so very sorry. Kat (Mew Jersey) On Tue, 11 Apr 2006, Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: > Hi, everyone, today is one of the saddest day of my life - one of > Bella's babies died this morning around 2 am and I think I caused her to > die. I am just too upset about what happened. But, I wanted to help, > but instead I killed her. She was only 10 days old and she did not even > get to open her eyes. All I know was that it was definitely not her > time to go yet. But I killed her. I am so mad at myself and am just > going insane from a grief of losing her. I was supposed to protect > Bella and her babies and not to hurt them. I could still hear her meow > right before she stopped breathing.. I am such a ignorant and stupid, I > should just let Bella who knows what she is doing to continue to care > for her.